|Fri, 09 Sep 2016||#451|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
1ST K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 (reader friendly edited)
A NEW OUTLOOK ON SELF KNOWLEDGE
K: If we could, during these eight discussions, go into the many problems, taking each morning a particular subject, and going into it as completely and as thoroughly as possible, intellectually which is of course not ( a transformational?) understanding, but go beyond it. So this morning what shall we take?
Q: How about the roots and origin of thought?
Q: The difference between the mind and the brain.
Q: The system of meditation - is it in oneself or is it?
Q: Do we make the right use of our personal faculty, capacities? Do we use them in the right way?
Q: How do we get out of a 'love' relationship in which we are caught?
Q: Could we discuss the letting go and giving up of all the conditioning?
Q: What is enlightenment?
Q: Why is it so difficult for us to attain a state of (inner) beauty?
K: Now, how can we put all these questions together? I think if we could discuss or talk over together what is 'self-knowledge' - wouldn't all these questions be answered? (namely : what is meditation, what is the difference between the mind and the brain; why is it so difficult to understand what is enlightenment; why is it that most of us have to struggle (for it) and so on).
K: Now first of all, how I examine, observe, myself? Do I look at myself according to what the specialists in psychology have said, which obviously has conditioned (our collective?) mind? Can I look at myself objectively, without any emotional reaction, just to see what I am? And to see what I am is 'analysis' necessary? All these questions are involved when I ask myself that I must know myself, because without knowing myself completely I have no (inner) basis for any action and whatever action I take must lead to further confusion.
Now, how shall I know myself? What is the right approach ? Shall I follow the guidelines of what others have said - or I won't follow anybody but look at myself as 'what is'. ( Even then, the difficulty is that?) my ( knowing?) mind is the result of all that the 'philosophers' (truth lovers?) , have said before , not only in the present but also the great many teachers of the past. So I say as I am the result of all that, consciously or unconsciously, there is no need to follow them. All that I have to do is to observe myself, to read the 'book' which is myself.
Q: I know already that I can be aware only for a very short moment and then it becomes disorder.
K: We will come to whether this awareness can be extended. Or is it just for a very, very short period. But before we answer that question let's find out what it means to be (non-verbally ?) aware.
Q: When I put all my attention on it I am aware of it.
K: Wait. When you put your attention of it you are aware, therefore you are not aware when you are inattentive. Right?
Q: When I pay attention to one thing, all the other things around me, I can't pay attention to them, then I become absorbed.
K: Are you also aware that when you look attentively that you are (instinctively?) shaping into words what you see? You say, 'That's a tree, that's a cloud, that's a tent, I like that colour, I don't like that colour' . So are you aware of your ( verbal) reactions? Look : I am aware of that dress. My ( culturally conditioned?) reaction says, 'How nice', or 'How ugly'. I am asking are you aware when you look at that red, of these reactions? Isn't that part of awareness?
Q: When you put a name on a thing you are not (choicelessly?) aware.
K: Look, may I talk a little? (You don't 'bite' into this).
Q: (In Italian) We see the reason for knowing ourselves, we are desperate to find ourselves, but out of this desperation we want a system, a method because we don't know what to do with ourselves.
K: So we want somebody to tell us, 'Do these things and you will know yourself' . Now sir, (conditioning-wise?) I am the result of the society, the culture in which I live, the religions, the business world, the economic world, the climate, the food, I am the result of all that, of the infinite past and the present. Right? Now what does that word mean, to learn?
Q: As I learn about myself, I am also changing.
K: I am accumulating knowledge and in the process I am changing, but my past knowledge is preventing a fresh observation. I don't know if you see this?
K: You are not following, this is really quite complex. Do go slowly.
(Various inaudible comments) Not to have thoughts ?
K: You see , you have come to a (static) conclusion when you say, not to have thoughts. You are not really learning.
Q: We have to 'empty ourselves'.
K: That is another conclusion. Then how do you empty yourself? Who is the entity that is going to empty the mind?
Q: You have to empty that too. Everything you empty.
K: You see sir, learning means acting in the present. And that is not possible when the mind, the brain, is burdened with all the past. Right? Now tell me what to do, tell me what to do.
Q: Attention ?
K: How am I to be attentive?
Q: Live in the present.
K: How am I to 'live in the present' when my whole past is burdening me?
Q: Be aware of the process that is taking place.
K: All right. Which means what? ( Become) aware that the past is interfering and therefore preventing the brain to learn. Right? Be aware of this movement: the past interfering ( coming to a 'conclusion'?) and stopping learning. Right? Be aware of this (interfering) movement. Are you aware of it as we are talking? If you are, what takes place?
Q: You see yourself as the effect of the past.
K: You see yourself as the effect of the past. We see that, that is a 'fact'. Now when you are aware of this movement, what takes place? What actually takes place? Don't guess. What takes place in you, when you are (becoming aware?) of this process?
Q: I feel that there is a contradiction which has to be destroyed by direct action.
K: I see that I am the effect of ( my experience of?) the past, the past may be ( what happened?) yesterday or the past second. That 'knowledge' which is the (result of the) past is preventing my learning in the present - it is a ( self-sustained?) momentum, it is happening all the time. Can the brain become aware of this movement? Or is it (subliminally?) frightened to be aware of something new? Now when I am aware of this (ongoing) movement what takes place?
Q: The movement stops.
K: The movement stops. Then what have I learnt? Is there a learning?
Q: We are afraid to loose the ( good?) image (we have?) of ourselves.
K: Don't give me the 'explanations'. I realize I am frightened - why? Is it because I see that I am 'dead' (inwardly 'stuck' ?) and I am frightened to do anything new ? Which means what? That my brain and my (thinking & feeling?) mind have followed the old pattern, the old way of thinking, living, and working. So of anything (out of that safe pattern?) I am frightened.
Q: Are we always afraid to see new things?
K: Aren't we? Aren't we afraid to change?
Q: The new thing is the unknown. We are afraid of the unknown.
K: The new thing is the un-known and we (subliminally?) cling to the 'known'
Q: Not always.
K: Are you aware 'now' of your fears?
Q: You repress it.
K: Either you repress it, or escape from it, and there is a (new ) conflict between wanting to get rid of it and fear , which only increases ( your anxiety)
Now, do I see the truth that moving away from the fear increases fear? Therefore there is no movement away from it. Right?
Q: I don't understand it, because (my gut feeling is to?) I move towards something that is going to end that fear or towards something that will see me through it.
K: But running away from it, suppressing it, avoiding it, doing anything about it, continues fear. Right? That is a fact. Now we have established two facts. That to learn there must be curiosity, to learn there must be no pressure of the past. And to learn about fear there must be no running away from fear. That is a fact. That is the truth. Therefore don't run away. Right? Now when I don't run away from it what takes place?
Q: I stop being identified with it.
K: I stop being identified with fear. Stopping it is not learning. Just see the subtlety of it. I am afraid and I want to learn about it. I don't know what is going to happen. You follow? I want to learn the movement of fear. So what takes place?
Q: I think about how to get rid of it.
K: Which means you resist ( or avoid facing?) it, and therefore fear increases. Now, if I am (in the mood for?) learning, what takes place? I am afraid and I am not running away from it - what takes place?
Q: You are coming face to face with your fear.
K: What takes place then?
(Several inaudible comments)
K: Now, I am watching it. Now, the natural question coming out of that is: 'who' is watching it? When you say, I am watching my fear, learning about fear, who is the entity who is watching it?
Q: Fear itself ?
K: Is fear watching itself? Please don't guess. Don't come to any conclusion. Find out. Who is watching? ( clue:) Is it another ( controlling?) fragment of me?
K: I give it up! You don't really look at it, learn, you are just making a statement. Learn. Who is watching? Wait. When you say who is watching - just a minute sir, I will ask you - when I ask the question: who is watching, what takes place - in the very word itself? There is a division, isn't there? The very question, who is watching it, implies a division (between an 'observer' and its 'fears' ). Why is this division? Find out.
Q: There is a desire on my part to watch.
K: If there is a desire on your part to watch, you are still watching fear as an outsider. You are watching with a (honest?) intention to get rid of fear. And we said, a few minutes ago, that wanting to get rid of fear means (controlling?) censoring fear. So in your watching there is a division, which only strengthens fear. Right? So I am again asking the question: who is watching fear?
Q: Sir, isn't there also another point, 'who' is asking the question 'who is watching fear?'
K: I am asking that question sir.
Q: But 'who' is asking the question?
K: The same thing, sir, only you push it further back. Now please, this is the most 'practical' way of going at it. You will see if you follow this very carefully, the mind will be free of fear. But you are not doing it.
K: The moment you are scared (unwilling?) of looking at fear, then you won't learn about fear, and if you won't learn about fear, ( it will continue in other forms?) It is as simple as that : if I don't know how to swim I won't plunge into the river. If I (assume ) that fear cannot possibly be ended, I (keep being ) afraid (of a lot of things) but if I really want to look, I say 'I don't care, I'll look'.
Q: So what I have to do is to let fear 'well up' in me so that I can identify with it, so that I can unify myself.
K: You see all these tricks that we are playing on ourselves ? 'You' make an effort to identify yourself with 'fear'.
Q: I 'am' that fear.
K: Ah If you 'are' that fear, as you say you are, then what happens?
Q: When I 'come to terms with it', it begins to...
K: Ah, no, no. When you say that you 'are' fear, that fear is not something separate from you, what takes place? I am not running away from it. What takes place then?
K: Accept? On the contrary, I forget about it. You don't even know all this. You are just guessing. We'll continue with this tomorrow.
( To re-re-recap:) I want to learn about myself. I must know myself completely, passionately because this is the foundation of all action, without that I'll lead a life of utter confusion. So I must learn about myself. To learn about myself I cannot follow anybody. If I follow anybody I am not learning. Learning (directly about myself) implies the past (knowledge) doesn't interfere because myself is something so extraordinarily vital, moving, dynamic, so I must look at it afresh with a new mind.
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|Sat, 10 Sep 2016||#452|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
2ND K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 (reader friendly edited)
THE ROOTS OF PSYCHOLOGICAL FEAR
K: Shall we go on from where we left off yesterday? We were talking about fear and the necessity of knowing oneself. As we said, if there is no actual ( experiential?) understanding what one is, and the possibility of going beyond it, we must inevitably bring about (or get caught in ?) activities that will lead to a great deal of mischief and sorrow.
Take ( one aspect of the 'me':) - the innumerable fears one has both biologically as well as psychologically. Now what does that fear do to the mind, the mind which ( by its very desire for continuity?) has created these fears? What is the effect of that on one's whole living?
Q: As one is sitting here I have no fear because I am (comfortably ) listening to what you are saying.
K: Yes. As I am sitting in the tent, naturally I am not afraid. But the fear ( of what might happen or not happen tomorrow?) may come up as I leave the tent. So, can't you sitting here 'invite' it ?
Q: It may be a rightful fear.
K: Whatever the fear be - of losing money, of losing your job, afraid of death, afraid of not fulfilling yourself . Need you go back (analitically?) and say, 'Well, I have no fear now, but when I go outside I'll have them' - it is already (lurking ? ) there. So, need I wait until I leave the tent to find out what my (actual?) fears are, or sitting here be aware of them now?
Q: Well if you do that, you do a 'practise' already.
K: No, it is not a practice. Sir, aren't you ( subliminally?) afraid of losing your job? Aren't you afraid of death? Aren't you afraid of not being able to fulfil? Aren't you afraid of being lonely? Aren't you afraid of not being loved? Aren't you?
Q: Only if there is a challenge.
K: But I am challenging you. I can't understand this (slack?) mentality.
Q: Aren't you in a way complicating it by talking about 'invoking' fear? I don't have to invoke any of my fears - just by being here I can see my reactions.
K: That's all I am saying. Now which is it you are doing? Watching it (assisted by your ?) memory of the past or watching it without that memory, watching, learning about what is actually taking place when there is ( this surge of?) fear?
Q: Unfortunately we have no 'actual' (real?) fears at this moment.
K: All right sir. But when you have had fears in the past and when you were aware of those fears in the past, what effect those fears had on you and your environment - what happened? Weren't you cut off from others? Weren't the effect of those fears isolating you?
Q: It 'crippled' me.
K: It crippled you, isolated you, cut off. Now, the effect of that isolation in your daily action is to bring about ( a mental) 'fragmentation' - acting from a fear which in itself is isolating, contradictory, therefore in that there was a great deal of struggle, pain, anxiety – no?
Q: Sir, as a crippled person walks on crutches, so a person who is humbled, crippled by fear uses various kinds of crutches.
K: Right sir. So you are very clear what the action of our past fears does. Right? It produces 'fragmentary' (safe sequences of temporal ?) actions. Now what is the difference between that and the action of directly looking at fear without the response of memory? Look sir, when you meet a physical danger what takes place?
Q: Spontaneous action.
K: 'Spontaneous' action it is called. But is it ( truly?) spontaneous? You go along in the woods by yourself, and suddenly round the corner you come upon a bear with cubs - what happens then? Knowing the bear is a ( potentially?) dangerous animal, with cubs especially - what happens to you?
Q: There is a chemical change in you, the adrenaline rises.
K: Yes sir adrenaline and all the rest of it. Now what is the action that takes place?
(Various responses – inaudible)
K: No, sirs, of course if you are afraid you transmit it to the bear and the bear gets more frightened and attacks you. (Laughter) This is all very simple - do please - but you are missing the whole (inner aspect) point.
Q: Sir, when you meet a wild animal don't you have to have both intelligence and the conditioned response?
K: No sir. The moment it is an (instinctual ) conditioned response there is fear involved in it and that is transmitted to the animal; but if it is intelligence that is operating. If it is fear then its action is incomplete and therefore there is a danger from the animal, but the action of intelligence is entirely different. There is no fear at all (at that very moment ?) .
Q: (In Italian) If I watch intelligently that bear then will I be 'intelligently' killed? (laughter) Without fear.
K: Oh, yes, without fear. Now leave the animals alone. Let us start with ourselves, who are 'part animals' too.
So, what we are talking is (total ?) action, because life is action, not saying one part of life is action only, the whole of living is action. And that action is broken up, and this breaking up of action is this process of memory with its thoughts and isolation. Right? Is that clear?
Q: You mean that fear is totally experienced, every split second, without memory entering?
K: Sir, when you put a question like that, you have to investigate the question of ( our psychological?) memory. You have to have memory, the more clear, the more definite the better, if you are to function technologically, or if you want to go home, you have to have memory. But thought, as response of ( our psychological?) memory and projecting fear out of that memory, such action is entirely different.
Now what is (the root cause of our psychological?) fear? You have had yesterday certain fears. How does it happen? How do these fears take place? Would you tell me please?
Q: In me it is ( due to ) the attachment to the past.
K: Now let's take that one thing. Attachment to the past. What do you mean by that word 'attachment'?
Q: My mind is 'holding on' to something.
Q: I think because fear ( of the unknown?) is the very basis of our civilization?
K: No sir, why are 'you' attached?
Q: Security ?
K: Now please, you are all too quick. I am (inwardly?) dependent on the furniture, on the family, to the wife. I am depending. Right? To give me comfort, to give me prestige. So this dependence is a (pretty obvious?) form of attachment. Now why do I depend on you, on the furniture, on my books - you follow? Don't answer me, look at it in yourself. You depend on something, don't you?
Q: It is part of our social conditioning.
K: Is it social conditioning that makes you depend? You have (collectively?) made this society, and in that ( mentality ) 'cage' your are caught, you are ( becoming) part of it. So don't blame 'society'. Why are 'you' depending?
Q: So as not to feel lonely.
K: Listen quietly. I depend on something because that something fills my emptiness. I depend on knowledge, books, because that covers my emptiness, my shallowness, so ( gathering lots of?) knowledge becomes extraordinarily important. I talk about pictures and the beauty of pictures because in myself I depend on that. So (my psychological?) 'dependence' indicates my (inner) emptiness, my loneliness, my insufficiency and that makes me depend on you. Right? That is a fact isn't it? If I am not ( feeling) empty, if I am not ( feeling ) insufficient, I wouldn't care of what you said or do. I wouldn't depend on anything. But because I am feeling (inwardly) empty, lonely, I don't know what to do with my life, I depend, which means I am (subliminally?) afraid of being lonely. Right? I am afraid of my emptiness. Therefore I fill it with clothes, or with ideas, or with persons.
Q: Try to escape ?
K: Which is trying to escape through ( a new?) attachment, through (a new?) dependency. Therefore your are back again in the old pattern. But if you see the truth (about the real cause of?) that attachment, dependency, emptiness, if you see that fact, you won't escape (facing it?) will you?
K: Is it an actual discovery? Or the response of the past? Don't answer me. Find out, sir, dig into yourself.
Q: Sir, in that 'emptiness' surely there is loneliness.
K: I am asking something entirely different. The (gnawing?) emptiness, loneliness and all that ( sense of inner?) insufficiency, and which you haven't been able to ( expose, integrate ?) and finish it, has brought about that fear (of the unknown?) .
K: Have you discovered that this (lurking?) 'fear' is caused by your emptiness, your shallowness, your isolation? So then what takes place, if you don't run away through dependency and attachment, then what takes place when there is (the fact of) this emptiness?
K: It's quite a complex problem, don't say (glibly?) 'it is freedom'. Before I was attached and I (used the object of my attachment to?) cover up my fear. Now I discover that this 'attachment' was an escape from ( a subliminal?) fear which came into being when I was aware for a split second of my ( inner) emptiness. Now I won't run away any more because I have finished with 'running away' - then what takes place?
Q: There is no time. We are nothing.
K: What takes place madame? Be simple, don't say 'no time'.
Q: After that split second (of inner realisation) there is another escape.
K: Which means you don't see the futility of such 'escapes' ( from facing the 'fact'?) . Therefore, if don't see it, keep on escaping. But if you do see it, if you are (becoming responsibly?) aware of your 'emptiness', what takes place?
Q: The mind ?
K: Go slowly, please sir, please. Please don't jump into it. Go step by step. Is a ( supervising?) part of the mind aware of another part which is (feeling) lonely? You see my question? I have suddenly become aware that I am feeling lonely. And 'who' is aware of this loneliness? One fragment of my mind, which says I am lonely? In that (observation) there is a ( dualistic) division. Right? Therefore as long as there is a 'division' there is (a 'me' who attempts to ?) 'escape'.
Q: What happens when you ( fully?) experience this 'loneliness' - you are no longer aware of it ?
K: Sir, look sir. You need here a persistent, sustained observation. I am aware of my emptiness, before I have covered it up, not it has been stripped (exposed?) and I am aware. 'Who' is aware of this emptiness? A part of my mind? A separate segment of my mind? If it is, then there is a division between 'emptiness' and the entity becoming aware that it is empty, then in that division I say I must bring it together, I must experience this emptiness, I must act. But as long as there is a division between the observer and the (inner emptiness which is being?) observed there is a 'contradiction' ( a mental split ?) and therefore there is a conflict. Is that what you are doing? Please sirs you have to ( experientially ) answer this (for homework ?) , I can't answer for it. If it is a part that is watching what is that part?
Q: Is it the intelligence of energy?
K: What does that mean, I don't quite understand.
Q: Born out of energy.
K: Sir, don't complicate it sir, it is complex enough. Don't bring in other words.
Q: It is universal.
K: Look sir, my ( experiential ) question is very simple. I asked, when you are ( becoming) aware of this ( sense of inner ) emptiness, from which you have (actively) escaped (outwardly) through attachment and when you are no longer 'running away' from it, and you say you are aware of the emptiness, 'who' is aware? It is ( the experiential homework left?) for you to find out. Who is aware?
Q: This awareness (may be just ) another escape, and you see you are nothing else but all these things put together.
K: When you say, 'I am aware of my emptiness' it is another form of escape ? We are (already ) caught in a ( sophisticated) network of (psychological) escapes. And that's our life.
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|Sun, 11 Sep 2016||#453|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
3RD K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 (reader friendly edited)
ALL ABOUT 'HABITS'
K: May we go on with what we were talking about yesterday morning? We were talking about (psychological) dependency and how deeply does our attachment go. I do not know if you have observed it in yourself. We (K?) were watching it yesterday, all throughout the day, to find out if there is any form of (personal) attachment - coming here regularly, living in a particular chalet, going to one country after another, talking, addressing people, being looked up to, criticized, exposed. If you have watched throughout the day, one discovers naturally how deeply one is attached to something or another or not at all. If there is any form of attachment, it doesn't matter what it is, to a book, to a particular diet, to a particular pattern of thought, activity, committed to certain social responsibility - such attachment invariably breeds the fear (of losing the object of your attachment?) . And a mind that is frightened, though it may not know it because it is ( safely?) attached, obviously is not free and therefore must live in a constant state of inner conflict.
I wonder if each one of us, if we are at all serious, have gone into this question, because (inner) freedom means freedom from all attachment, and therefore from all dependency. A mind that is attached is not clear, cannot think sanely, observe directly.
First of all, are we aware that we are psychologically (dependent?) 'attached' , first of all, biologically, physically attached. Are you aware that you are attached physically to 'things'? And being aware of that, are you aware also of the ( karmic?) implications of those attachments ? If you are attached to ( the habit of?) smoking, see how extraordinarily difficult it is to give it up. Once I 'tried it' and I was sick and I put it aside. But the people who smoke, it has become a habit, find it incredibly difficult, since not only acts as stimulation and a social habit and all that, but the attachment to it - the attachment to drink, to various forms of stimuli - is one aware of all this? If you are, can the mind, watching this habit, can it completely, immediately drop it? See what is involved in it - the ( psycho-somatic) body demands it, because it acts as a stimulus or whatever it is, and the ( rationally thinking ) mind has said, oh, I must give it up. So there is a battle between the bodily demands and the decision of the mind.
Q: I realize that I 'am' ( the creator of?) my habit.
K: Yes. I realize I 'am' my habit, my habit 'is' me. Then what will you do ?
Q: Must we not go to the roots of these habits?
K: Sir, let us learn how to 'look' and from that very looking action takes place. ( On the psychological level?) seeing 'is' acting, that is what we are concerned with. I have a particular habit; how does the mind stop it without any kind of effort ?
Q: Observe it in its entirety.
K: That statement may answer all our questions. You observe in its entirety - what does that mean ? The entire mechanism of habits - the whole of it, not a fragment of it. Now, how does the mind watch the 'whole of the habit' (the 'inner habitat'?) in which it lives?
Q: Passive awareness or passive observation.
K: You are quoting the speaker. I'm afraid that won't do. Don't quote anybody, sir, including Charlie Brown! Look, sir, can the mind watch, not only a particular little habit, but become aware of this whole mechanism of forming habits. We are trying to learn about it - I live ( comfortably installed?) in habits, my whole life is a ( dynamic?) structure of habits.
Q: One can become aware of the wastefulness of energy in pursuing a particular pattern of habit or many patterns. And ( voilà!) thereby liberating oneself from all habits.
K: Please, don't give me a 'menu' but give me food, I am asking, what will you do ?
Q: If you can see one habit, totally, possibly one could discard all habits.
K: Now how do I watch one habit ( like ) twiddling my fingers, and see all the other habits? I know why I do it - I do it because because I am nervous, shy or this or that. And there it is. But I want to learn about the whole network of habits - is there a way of looking at this whole network, instantly?
K: Habit consists of two parts, the physical habit that exists and the 'observer' who is concerned with this is also a (higher level?) 'habit'. So both are habits. You understand? I fiddle with my fingers and I observe the observation also is from an entity which is the result of ( my perceptive ) habits. Obviously. So it is all habits. How will you help me learn about it?
Q: Me and my habits, my whole life is habit, my mind is a habit.
K: Yes, sir - what am I to do?
Q: It is a state of my mind. So, I must change my (inner) structure.
K: Wait - I must change the structure of my mind. Who is the I that is going to change if the 'I' is also a ( thinking?) habit - a series of words, and memories and knowledge, which is the ( repetitive action of the?) past.
Q: As we are all caught in habits, we all obviously don't know.
K: If you don't know, then let's learn together. But first be clear that you don't know . Are we in that position, saying, I really don't know?
Q: But why do we have to have all these habits ?
K: Why? It's fairly simple - to have ( well established ?) habits of many kinds doesn't need much ( further) thinking. Therefore the ( conscious) mind likes to function in grooves, in habits. and the brain also likes it because it is safe, secure, to function in habits - that's simple. Now how is the mind to observe this whole network of habits?
Q: May be can pay attention every moment, as far as our energies allow ?
K: You see, that is just an 'idea' . May I go into it now? Since you don't know - not that I am (the?) Delphic Oracle, we are going to find out together. How is the mind, including the brain, to see something totally? Not only habit - to see anything totally.
Q: Our actions ( based on) habits are not in the future, we can see our habits now actually at this very moment.
K: We are doing that, aren't we? Can I understand this whole machinery habit now ? Look, sir - I take one habit and through learning about that one habit, a serious habit, by observing that one habit I can see the whole mechanism of all habits. What shall I take?
Q: Smoking ?
K: Take the habit of smoking. Now, I am not 'analysing' it , do you understand the difference between analysis and ( direct ) observation. Analysis implies one (fixed entity?) who analyses and the thing to be analysed – in our case 'the habit of smoking' - and to analyse that there must be an ( objective & knowledgeable ?) 'analyser'. And the difference between that (dualistic ) analysis, and 'observation' is this: observation is the 'seeing directly' without ( the detour of?) analysis. Seeing things as they are: in this ( non-personal?) seeing there is no observer. I see the colour red, visually, the vibrations and all the rest of it, are translated in the brain as red. And there is no like or dislike, there is observation. So analysis implies a division between the analyser and the thing analysed. In observation there is no division. I observe, there is observation without the 'censor' (without the cultural self-censoring?) , without saying, this is beautiful, this is not so beautiful - just to observe without any ( sense of ) division.
Q: It reveals that you are putting into your lungs a lot of nasty smoke.
K: It reveals that you are drawing into your lungs a lot of smoke. One fact. Second, it is going to tell you the 'history' of smoking. Now what does it tell you?
Q: That you are dependent and that it has become a very mechanical thing, you don't think about it - you just do it.
K: It tells you that you are doing something mechanically, it tells you that when you first smoked it made you sick. It was not pleasant, but other people did it round you, so you did it. Now it has become a ( psychosomatic?) habit.
Q: Does it tell you that it 'tranquillises' you to a certain extent?
K: It tells you that it helps quieten your nerves, cuts your appetite, you don't get fat.
Q: It also tells you that you are bored with your life.
K: It tells you, you are bored with life. It tells you that when you meet others and you feel nervous by taking a cigarette it makes you kind of (convivial?) you know - it has told you a lot. And why are your accepting all that?
Q: It's easier ?
K: Is it for the sake of security, to be like the rest of the people? Which means, you are frightened not to be like the rest of the people. You want to be like everybody else, because in that there is perfect safety.
Q: Though we are living in habits, both physically and psychologically, in accepting those habits, can't we live freely & happily ?.
K: One can live 'happily blind', if you call blind living happy, it's up to you.
Q: I didn't understand perfectly how you can see through one habit, the whole mechanism of habit.
K: Habit implies functioning mechanically ( and comfortably?) , through ( the psycho-somatic stimulation offered by?) smoking - and we could see ( why and?) how it has become mechanical. And from (holistically infering?) that (particular?) observation of mechanical habit of smoking, I see how the mind functions ( within an inner 'habitat' based on?) habits.
Q: But aren't there other dependencies than just mechanical habits ?
K: The moment we use the word 'habit', it implies mechanical, repetition, establishing a good habit, which means doing the same (good?) thing over and over again. The doing over and over again is ( comparatvely?) called 'good', because one is also caught in doing the 'bad' things, so ( holistically speaking?) there is no 'good' habit and 'bad' habit, only 'habit', we are concerned.
Q: If I have the habit of comfort, or the habit of property, it isn't there something more deep, or it is just 'mechanical'?
K: I said that it gives you ( a sense of?) security, safety and so on. In examining that one habit I've traced all the other habits are based on that. Deep down all habits are 'mechanical' (repetitive & predictible?).
Q: Are they really?
K: Look at it, sir - anything that I do repetitively, which is doing the same thing from yesterday to today, to tomorrow, must be mechanical. That mechanical, repetitive action may ( get optimised and?) function a little more smoothly, but it is still habit, still repetitive - that's obvious.
Q: Would you say that certain creative efforts are habits?
K: Let's answer that question, sir. Would you say creativeness is a habit?
Q: Creativity implies freshness.
K: Creativity implies newness, freshness.
Q: You don't make an effort to be creative.
K: If I make effort I can't be creative. Therefore one has to ask what you mean by 'creativeness'. You paint a picture, either you do it because you love painting, or it brings you money, or you want to find some original way of painting and so on. So what does it mean to be (inwardly?) creative? The man who is attached to his violin and makes a lot of money out of it, is he creative? And the man who is in great tension, in himself, and out of that tension he produces a play, which the world says, 'how marvellous'. Would you call that creative?
K: I am not judging.
Q: But that is the question you pose. If I say someone is or isn't creative, I am judging.
K: I am not judging, sir, I look at all the people who write books, the people who write poems, who write plays, who fiddle, the Church - I see this in front of me, I don't say this is right, this is wrong, this is good, this is bad - I say, what is creativeness ? . I want to learn, I want to find out what it means to be creative.
Q: Perhaps it is to have an innocent universality.
K: Must I write a poem, paint a picture, write a play, to be (inwardly?) creative? Which means, does creativeness demand expression?
Q: The moment you see you and act is the very moment of creation.
K: To discover something new, doing something totally new, that means, the past must end. One can 'live creatively', without doing any of these ( creative?) things, neither baking a brick, bread, painting a picture, writing a poem - that means, you can only do that when the mind is non-fragmentary, when there is no fear, when the mind is free of all the implications of the past, when the mind is free of the known.
Q: For me, creativity isn't a 'thing'.
K: You know, sir, yesterday, after talking about attachment, I was watching it, the mind was watching it all day, whether it was attached to anything, to sitting on a platform, talking, wanting to tell people, writing something or other, attached, person, ideas, chair - one has to find out. And in finding out one discovers enormous things, the beauty of freedom and the love that comes out of that freedom. And as we were talking of Creation, it is that the machinery of habit, the network of habit, one has to be aware, go into it, let it flow through you, you follow, like the river, moving, moving, moving. Let this enquiry, the learning, carry you all day, and you will discover enormous things.
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|Daniel Paul. Ireland 322 posts in this forum Offline||
Krishnamurti: Sorrow does not purify. Why is there sorrow? When the mind is stagnant, drugged to sleep by beliefs, crippled by limitations, and is awakened by the movement of life, that awakening we call suffering. Where there is the disturbance of our security through the action of life, that we call suffering. Instead of seeing that suffering is a hindrance, we try to utilize it to get some other result. Through an illusion you cannot come to reality.
Now sorrow is but the indication of limitation, of incompleteness. When one discerns the impediment of sorrow, one cannot make of it a means of purification. You must be rid of its limitation. You must understand the cause and its effects. If you use it as a means of purification, you are subtly deriving from it security, comfort. This only creates further hindrances, impeding the awakening of intelligence. Out of these many hindrances, these self-defensive memories is born the limited consciousness, the "I", which is the true cause of suffering.
I think that this deserves its place amongst k's teaching..for me it is a rare clear saying about "my" "pet" subject....
I do not wish to bring my "view" here, so I leave it as it is..yet bearing in mind that k let anyone to discover for oneself what this means as a "doing":
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|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
Sure, Dan, it's a very clear statement. However I've never seen sorrow as a 'limitation' - it is a limitation only if you believe in its 'redeeming' virtues. As I'm seeing it 'here and now' is that sorrow- from its most trivial to its most 'elevated' forms ( as in 'Jesus suffered for us all ') seems to be the direct or indirect result of our conscious (or un-conscious) collective 'choice' to stand firmly anchored in our own continuity in time. It's a choice that almost seems to invite inner decay and frustration. Now, what K seems to be doing rather than saying it explicitly, is to 'flow' and intelligently interact with the incoming challenges, which is giving a special quality 'fluidity and transparence' to our mind & heart. The point may be that before we did not know we had such an alternative 'choice'. So this might be his non-personal contribution for the spiritual developpment of mankind.
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|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
4TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 (reader friendly edited)
SELF-CENTRED THOUGHT AND FRAGMENTATION
K: Shall we go on with what we were talking about yesterday morning? Whether one can see the whole network of fears and escapes without analysis but 'observe' it directly , in which there is no analytical process at all.
Now what makes for this (inner?) 'fragmentation' ? Fear is a form of fragmentation, attachment is a form of fragmentation, as the attempt to be detached is a movement in fragmentation. I am first attached to my family, then I discover that ( the psychological dependence of my?) family causes pain & pleasure: if it is painful I want to detach myself from it, and fight attachment. So it is a movement (with)in fragmentation, and therefore there is no resolution in that fragmentation.
Q: Sir, but aren't these rishis 'enlightened' men.
K: The 'maharishis' and the 'rishis' and the yogis are they enlightened? You are asking my opinion? ( In this area?) only the 'fools' give (are making public their ?) opinions. Now, how do you know, you, know who is enlightened?
Q: You can experience yourself, if you observe. You have a method too in a way, I think.
K: No, sir, we are not showing you a method at all, learning is not a 'method': you are learning as you observe. If you observe that one system (of meditation) conditions the mind, makes the mind mechanical, then all systems are the same - that is, you learn. You learn what (following such?) a system does - through a system you (may or not?) have most extraordinary experiences but it is still very limited experience. This is so obvious.
Q: Couldn't it be that to start of with you could use the 'system', just to get an idea of the fragmentary state, and then from there to get the whole and watch oneself and all that ?
K: Wouldn't it be helpful to have a system to begin with, and then after a little while throw it off. Begin with the crutches and later on throw it off - hang on to the guru's strings and then let go later on ?
Q: But aren't you 'teaching'?
K: Am I? Probably the first few years, he (K) has been, you have heard this. But he has been saying for (the last) 45 years, that (in the process of a shared learning?) there is no 'teacher' and no 'disciple' – (since) one has perceived the truth that nobody can teach 'enlightenment' to another, through no system, through no meditation, through no discipline, one saw that 45 years ago. And you ask whether you are a 'teacher' or not . Teacher (traditionally?) implies one who has accumulated (practical experience and?) knowledge and transmits to the 'student'. We are not in that relationship here at all. We are 'learning together' - all (no-fragmentary?) communication means learning together, creating together, watching together. If that is understood then ( the quality of?) our communication is entirely different. But if you have a feeling that because he sits on the platform he (should) know better, that he is the enlightened one, I say, please don't attribute things to the person who is sitting here – since you know nothing about (the non-dualistic nature of?) 'enlightenment'. If you knew it or if you understood and lived it, you wouldn't be (sitting) here.
Q: Thought is only capable of giving attention to one thing.
K: Thought is only capable of giving attention to one thing at a time. Then are you saying that ( our self-centred?) thought is the cause of fragmentation? If my thinking can only give attention to that, and discard all the rest, then it must breed fragmentation: the very process of ( such) thinking is fragmentation. We are going to learn about it.
Q: If he does good to you, sir. If you do something and you experience yourself, and it is good for you, why shouldn't you do it? I mean, it's still fragmentary but isn't it better to have something fragmentary than nothing?
K: The teacher tells me something and I do it and in the doing of it I have great delight, great pleasure, and think that I have understood. What is implied in that? My craving for (psychic?) experience, my craving to understand - not 'myself' but what that (clever?) bird is saying, what the guru is saying. If the ( K type of?) guru said, look, understand yourself, that is far more important than anything else, don't try to understand me, but understand yourself, then you are 'stuck', so you'd rather follow than understand yourself.
Q: Because we are made from fragmentary processes.
K: You have an (inclination) for engineering, but why should from that faculty arise fragmentation? I have a 'faculty' for playing the piano - why should that bring about fragmentation. Aren't you putting the cart before the horse ? Is it the faculty that is bringing about fragmentation or the mind is ( already?) broken up and using one of the fragments, one of the faculties, and therefore further strengthening the division. You understand what I am saying?
Q: Is there a ( subliminal?) expectation?
K: We live in expectation and that very expectation is a form of fragmentation. We 'expect' ( some reward?) : is that the real reason, te real truth for (our inner?) fragmentation, expectation? That is one of the effects of fragmentation, like wanting success, that wanting success is the effect of my fragmentation - me, that is tremendously important, I want success - through painting, writing, this or that. But what is the basis of this fragmentation?
Q: Our senses are fragmentary.
K: Our senses are also fragmentary, the taste, the smell, the seeing, the listening, all the rest of it, it is all fragmentary. Is that what we are discussing? That is part of it - that is part of this fragmentation, but we are discussing why the mind, the brain, divides.
Q: It is not possible to think about the whole at once.
K: So you are saying that fragmentation exists as long as ( we are using our?) thought, which cannot think about the whole thing at once, that is the cause of fragmentation ?
Q: Yes, communication to other people is also fragmentary, now we are thinking about self-knowledge and not about mountain climbing. You can't put everything together.
K: Now let's be clear, what we are talking about here: of our ways of thinking, looking, listening, coming to conclusions. Why is there this ( concluding?) process which inevitably brings about fragmentation - that is what we are discussing.
Q: But discussing only this already prevents you.
K: So discussing this very issue is a form of fragmentation. But we are asking, why this fragmentation exists, why can't I communicate with you completely. And you convey to me completely. So let's go into this slowly and find out,- what is the (true) cause of this fragmentation.
Q: Is it because we cling to the idea of 'ourselves' ?
K: Yes, we cling to a (psychological?) 'conclusion' and that is the reason of fragmentation. Why do we cling to a fragmentation?
Q: I still think it is a ( question of?) communication, for instance, at school, you have lessons in English, in French and geography, it is fragmentary from the beginning.
K: You are saying, our whole ( concept of?) education is all fragmentary, and therefore our mind is from childhood, conditioned by this fragmentation.
Q: The very process of thinking, is ( aimed at) forming conclusions, you can't think without forming a conclusion.
K: So you are all saying, in more or less different words, that thought is the source of all fragmentation.
Q: We are saying it is the 'process' of thought.
K: Yes, thought, which is ( our self-centred?) thinking, is fragmentary. Is a fragment of ourselves.
Q: And all the results of our thinking, which is a fragment of ourselves, must result in further cleavages, further breaking up.
K: So you are saying to me, who am learning, as you are learning, that ( our self-centred?) thought is the source of all fragmentation. No?
( Brief reasoning detour : ) thought is the result or the response of memory. And memory is the past. And that memory of the past is always divided (temporally?) . Obviously : ( what happened in) the past, the ( what is happening ) today and the (what could happen?) tomorrow - the past experience, the present experience and the future (hopeful experiences?) . The ( same memory of my ) past that says, I haven't learnt, I don't know, and I I am going to learn from you. What do you say, sirs? Isn't that the major cause of fragmentation?
Q: Sir, you have already said so. I would think ( we'd better be) talk about time, the awareness of time is taking our attention away from the present.
K: Time divides - what is time? What is time?
K: Find out, sir - there is the 'chronological' time, by the watch - I have to go to the station, to catch a train, it goes by a certain time, and there is ( the psychological) time as ( my professional?) achievement, as ($$$ and?) success, or as I don't know enough, but I'm going to learn. All that involves psychological time. Which is (a temporal projection of?) thought that says, I don't know but you know and you tell me that I will know if I do follow these steps - so there is a division created by thought, which wants success. The success being not money this time – but 'enlightenment' or faith. Are you saying that ( our self-centred?) thinking is the mechanism that brings about this fragmentation, the ( same divisive mentality of?) thought that has said, you are a Hindu, you are a Catholic, you are brown and you are black, you are white, you are pink – the thought conditioned by the values of a particular society and that says, everybody who does not belong to (our?) culture is a barbarian. This is all clear, isn't it?
(Now, the 'action' part:) If thought is responsible for this fragmentation, what are you going to do about it? I have to earn a livelihood, I have a job - a doctor, professor, mathematician , whatever it is - and I have a family, my son, my wife, my daughter. And also there is me, with my problems, with my ambitions, with my successes. So there is livelihood, there is the family, there is the function and the desire to derive a status from that functioning, and the me - all fragmentary. Now what am I to do if I see that thought is responsible for all this outer & inner fragmentation?) . Is that so or not? We are learning - if the speaker is wrong, tell him, find out.
Q: But we are thinking all the time. We are thinking at this very moment.
K: That is the whole point. We are thinking ( dualistically?) and we say, I have to earn a livelihood, a family enjoyment, success, wanting to find out enlightenment, the (perfect?) guru all that. And ( supervising all these areas of interest ?) there is the 'me' (the 'thinker' who is thoughtfully?) muddling through all this.
Q: Isn't there something else in us behind this ( dualistic) process of thought ?
K: We will (eventually?) come to that. But you can't come to that without understanding (the dualistic nature of?) this machinery of thought. Now if you are absolutely clear that this (dualistic process of?) thought divides - thought divides ( places a safe time interval between ) the 'living now' and the 'dying tomorrow'. But the same (thoughtful?) thought says '( Eventually ) you'll (still) die', and I get frightened. Or it says, 'that was a marvellous pleasure, I must have more of it'. Or again, it says, you have done something which wasn't right (in Ojai?) a few years ago, be careful, don't let it occur again, don't let it be discovered. So ( this 'time' ?) thought is breeding fear, pain, pleasure.
Q: Is it our thinking itself that divides?
K: Or is it the (self-centred?) way we use our (capacity of?) thinking that divides ? Who is the 'I' that uses the 'thinking' which divides ?
Q: The ( controlling?) action of the same thought.
K: That makes three - the 'I', the thought and ( controlling?) action of that thought. So you've got it still more complicated. So, don't come to any conclusion, first listen to what the speaker is saying. I have to earn a livelihood, (or rather?) a livelihood has to be earned, therefore (the practical capacity of?) thought must be employed there. ( Then) I come back home and ( the same process of self-centred ?) thought says, my family, my responsibility. I have great pleasure in sex (with?) my wife - thought is in operation all the time, all the time breeding fragmentation, a 'breaking up' (of our existence?) - the teacher, the disciple, the success. So, what are you going to do (about it) ? knowing that (our traditionally dualistic?) thinking brings about ( inner & outer ? ) 'fragmentation' and (this resulting) fragmentation means fear, fragmentation means conflict, fragmentation means that there will be no (inner or outer?) peace whatsoever. You may talk about peace but there will be no peace as long as there is fragmentation by thought. So faced with this ( pretty serious?) fact, what is going to happen?
Q: Identify myself with the thought ?
K: But who is the 'I' (the entity in control?) who identifies itself with its thought ? Has not ( our self-centred?) thought created the 'I'? The 'I' being, ( the active memory of all ?) my experiences, my knowledge, my success, which is all the ( controlling by - ?) product of thought.
Q: Thought must end.
K: Thought must end - how is it to end? Listen, sir: thought must operate when you go home or do something mechanical, even to drive - you follow? And if you say, thought must end, then thought must end altogether. Then you can't earn a livelihood, you can't go home, you won't be able to speak. Sir, watch yourself, find out. There must be the (rightful?) usage of thought and also (psychologically -wise) thought sees that it does breed fragmentation. So what is thought to do?
Q: It seems that we come to this (fine ) point in almost every discussion - my question is: is that a question that can be actually answered ?
K: We're going to find out.
Q: I become afraid because I see a deadlock.
K: I am afraid (of getting totally stuck?) because I see a deadlock, an impasse, I don't know what to do. Now will you, knowing that you don't know what to do, will you learn? Will you learn, sir?
Q: If it is possible.
K: My question is not whether it is possible or not, but I said, will you learn about this ?
K: To 'learn' (about such subtle things?) , what does it imply. Curiosity, doesn't it ? Are you 'curious' to learn? Are you eager to learn, passionate to learn about this? Because (a total insight into ?) this may solve all our (inner) problems, therefore you must be intense, curious, passionate to find out. Are you, or are you going to say: so far I have functioned ( thinking safely ?) with conclusions, so I'll form another 'conclusion' (inferred hypothesis?) and act from that.
Q: Is it so 'one pointedness'?
K: Sir, it is (all about a?) mind that wants to learn, that wants to find out is like a child that says, I want to know what the mountain is made of.
Q: I need to be (inwardly ) detached to learn (this way ) .
K: Sir, why do you (have to) translate into your own words what one has said. I said (a) one must have great deal of energy, (b) one must be curious to find out, and ( c ) to find out you must be (earnest?) persistent, not just one minute to be full of curiosity, and the next minute say, Sorry, I'm getting bored. Then (obviously) you can't learn anything.
Q: Does this 'learning' guarantee me certainty ?
K: Listen to that question - I will ( be ready, willing & able to?) learn if it guarantees me complete certainty for the rest of my life.
Q: (In Spanish) This fragmentation gives me a sense of security and I cling to that security.
K: And when you come along and say, 'look what you are doing!' you are disturbing my (inward sense of ) security, I am therefore frightened, so...I don't want to learn. This is what you are all doing. I have found great delight in my writing a ( succesful?) book and I ( may ) know I function from fragmentation but that book gives me fame, money, position and 'for god's sake keep out. Don't talk to me, don't disturb me'. The house is burning but don't disturb me.
So, if (the dualistic usage of our capacity of ?) thinking is the source of all fragmentation and yet the (objective function of ) thinking has to be used, what is to take place, how is thought ( to know when?) not to function and yet to function? You follow the question?
If thought is (inwardly) responsible for this fragmentation and all ( our existential?) 'conclusions' are fragmentations : 'I must be secure, I am frightened of uncertainty'. But there may be a (holistic) way of living which will give you (not only) physical security, which is what you want, but freedom psychologically. And that freedom will bring about complete physical security. But you don't see this, so you are (hopefully?) going to learn (about it) .
K: No sir, it is not a (matter of ) linkage, you cannot put fragments together and make it whole. Many spokes of the wheel doesn't make the wheel - it's how you put the spokes (into the hub?) that makes the wheel.
Q: As we have to use thought but we don't want to come to fragmentation, can we just become conscious of this (subliminal?) tendency of thought to produce fragmentation - if you are getting conscious of that it doesn't...
K: That very 'consciousness' ( core awareness?) of this whole process brings about a different quality altogether. Is that what you are saying? Now is that what is happening to you? Be careful, sir, go very slowly into this. Thought must be exercised, thought must exercise, and thoughts also realizes that it breeds fragmentation and therefore conflict and therefore fear and all the misery in the world. And yet thought itself, you are suggesting, must be conscious of this whole process. Now see what happens. We said, (that the dualistic usage of our?) thought is the basis of fragmentation, therefore when thought becomes conscious of ( the fact that when it is splitting?) itself it breeds fragmentation...
Q: Just to be conscious of something which is happening (within itself?) .
K: Therefore what do you mean by 'being conscious' ?
Q: To 'see'.
K: Go slowly, now what do you mean by this (inner) seeing? Do you see this process mechanically, because you have intellectually understood it , and you see with the intention to apply these words and the intellectual conclusion to seeing? Be careful, don't say, no. Are you 'seeing (aided by?) an (intellectual) conclusion' or are you merely 'seeing'.
Q: It seems to me that if there is ( any need such ) a question at this point, it is again fragmentary. And if so, what has this whole investigation been(all about?) , what validity has it had?
K: I'll explain it to you: you come to this point and ask the question. And the lady says, who is asking this question, is it thought that is asking the question? If it is, then it is again - I am asking it because you are not learning.
Q: At this point I don't mind, it is presumptuous to say so, but may be you would not, but I do ask this question, at whatever point along the line...
Q: Sir, are you suggesting it is possible to carry on a non-dualistic life and still function in society?
K: I am showing it to you, sir. If you see this whole ( dualistic?) mechanism of thought, not just one part of it, the whole of it, the whole nature and the structure and the movement of this.
Q: How can you learn it quicker?
K: How can you learn it quicker - by listening now. (Laughter) You see, again the ( dualistic?) desire to achieve. That means you are not listening at all, your eyes, your ears, are fixed on getting somewhere. So, sir, my question then is, as a friend, asking, 'Do you see this whole thing?' And the friend says, for god's sake, you must see it, otherwise you're going to live a terrible, miserable existence, you'll have wars, you'll have such misery and sorrow, for god's sake see this. And why don't you? What is preventing you - your ambition, your laziness, your innumerable (and well organised?) conclusion that you have? Now, who is going to answer it?
Q: Why 'answer' it? You just 'do' it.
K: Just 'do' it !
Q: So, maybe it's just a matter of living 'now' . Because a lot of our attention, I don't know how much percentage is taken away, when we live in the past or dreaming of the future.
K: Can you live in the present? Which means living a life that has no 'time' - no (thinking about your) past, no (thinking about your?) future, no (thinking of your personal?) success, no ambition. Can you do it?
Q: Just a bit. (laughter) The very process to build something, let's say a house, supposes a 'programme'.
K: Of course, sir - look at it. To build a house you must have an architect. And architect makes a design, a plan and according to that plan the contractor builds. In the same way, we want a plan. You are the architect, give me the plan and I will function according to that plan.
Q: I wasn't saying this, we want to build a house which is concrete thing, we must plan certain things.
K: So you use thought.
Q: So we cannot live only in the present.
K: I never said that, sir. When you look at this question really carefully, if this is very clear, the nature and the structure of thought, then you will find that you can function from a state of mind that is always free from all ( the duality of?) thought and yet use thought. That is the 'real (purpose of?) meditation', sir : the mind that is so crowded now with the known, which is the product of thought, the mind which is filled with the past, knowledge, experience, memory, which is part of the brain, the whole of that is filled with the known. I may translate the known in terms of the ( unknown?) future or in terms of the present but it is always ( a mental projection?) from the known. It is this ( living exclusively in the?) known that divides: the 'knowing' of the past, This ( active knowledge of the?) past, with all its reservoir of memory says, do this, don't do that, this will give you certainty, that will give you uncertainty.
And (incidentally?) this demands a tremendous inward awareness, inward sense of order, not disorder, order. If you haven't got that you can whistle all day long.
Q: Is it not a method of procedure?
K: I just get up and do it naturally, I don't invent first a method and follow it, I see it. Oh Lord, you can't reduce everything into method.
Q: Can you ever empty the storehouse of impressions which you have had?
K: Can you ever empty the mind of all the known, which is the past. You've put a wrong question, it is a ( holistically?) 'wrong' question: who is the 'you' and what do you mean by 'ever'? Which means, it is (in the area of the?) possible. Sirs, look, we never put the impossible question - we are always putting the question (in terms of?) what is possible. If you put an 'impossible question' ( a totally challenging question?) your mind then has to find the answer in terms of the 'impossible' ( of letting go?) what is possible. All the great discoveries, scientific discoveries, are based on this, the impossible. It was impossible to go to the moon. Because it was 'impossible' (although... a great propaganda stunt?), therefore they (the 'rocket scientists' & ressourceful politicians?) put their mind (and a lot of public $$$?) to it and 300,000 people working night and day and went to the moon. But (inwardly) we never put the impossible question (since there are no personal incentives ?)- the impossible question is this, can the mind empty itself of the known - itself, not you empty the mind. That is an impossible question. If you put it with tremendous earnestness, seriousness, with passion, you'll find out. But if you say, oh, it is possible then you are stuck
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|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
5TH PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 ( reader frendly edited)
EXPLORING THE IMPLICATIONS OF INNER CHANGE
K: Shall we go on with what we were talking about yesterday? Or shall we approach this whole problem again from a totally different angle? I know you may not like the word 'discipline', but substitute the word (inner) 'order' instead of discipline, could we discuss this?
Q: Didn't you say somewhere, you once mentioned in one of the lectures, that you were doing two hours of 'exercises' or something like that - is that for the body or for the awareness?
K: Wait. We are going into all that sir. First let us see, do you want to go into this question of order?
Q: Aren't there more important things? For instance 'death'...
Q: What about responsibility?
Q: Education ?
K: Education? What do you think we have been doing during the last ten talks, but ( adult?) education? Now which do you want to take up ?
Q (chorus) : Discipline.... Prayer...... Consciousness.... Death.... Loneliness.
K: If you take up one thing, like social action, and responsibility, and if we go into it sufficiently thoroughly I think we will cover everything, (since ) every ( human) problem is interrelated with other problems. You cannot separate one problem and say, 'Let's discuss that'. They are all interrelated, aren't they?
Q: I have the impression that we are always talking here about an inward revolution, and we think a lot about that, but it seems to me awfully difficult to do any inward revolution, if you still remain in the same society.
K: Let's talk over that. If you remain in the same society, inward revolution seems terribly difficult, or practically impossible. Shall we discuss that?
K: I think most of us see the importance of a social change. Now how is this to be brought about? By physical revolution? Upsetting (destabilising?) society as it is and creating a new society? Let us talk it over. See what is involved in it.
Q: I have the impression it is ( structured around) property and it is already violent. So changing society, even if it implies some violence will never be so violent as private property.
K: All right sir, then how do you propose to do it? Give it all into the hands off the government? Let governments own it? Who will own it? A few people? Or many people? Or 'socialise' it? Everybody owns it? All these experiments throughout history have been tried. In India there was a period, I was told, when everybody owned the land. How do you propose when you have property, a house, a piece of land, and I have mine, how do you propose to change it?
Q: You should have the right to use it but not to possess it and sell it.
Q: Detachment ?
K: Sir do consider (the psychological aspect of?) it; having a house, a piece of land of my own, I feel safe, I identify myself with that - to 'me' that is very important. How will you take it away from me? By law? By revolution? And if you do, all the land owners will get together and fight you. This has been going on for a million years - you follow sir?
K: How will you change this sir?
Q: How will an inner revolution change this?
K: To me owning property, or not owning property, is of very little (psychological?) importance (since) the ( authentic spiritual?) riches are not in the house or in the land but somewhere else.
Q: I may be speaking for myself, but I can't help it, I resent this young man and the way he keeps leading us back to the social revolution. I feel you have something ( more important) to tell us if we would allow you to do it.
K: Look - I see the ( real) world as it is, property, possessiveness, domination, power, bureaucracy wanting to control everything. I see (the local) wars, I see the division of people through religion, politics, through nationalism and so on and so on and I see the necessity of a change. Right? Now where shall I begin, 'out there' or 'in here'? Or is it a combination of both, a movement of constant change, of constantly freeing the mind from its own conditioning, from its own possessive demands, from its own self-centred activities, from its own pursuit of pleasure and pain and division and so on. Right? Now where shall I begin, inner or outer?
K: When you say 'inner', you feel that the inner is dissociated from the outer. But the 'inner' is the result of the ( pressures of the?) 'outer' and the 'outer' is the result of the 'inner' (trends?) . We have created this society through our ambition, through our greed, through our competitiveness, through our comparing, and so on and so on, demanding for power, position, prestige - we have created this society.
Q: We had established in another talk that we had been conditioned by the society, marked in our childhood. Isn't this necessary to make it so that other ones are not conditioned because otherwise...
K: Right. That means you have to begin helping the child, to educate the child in such a way that he is not conditioned from the very beginning, which means 'special (needs'?) schools.
Q: How can any kind of education not be conditioning?
K: Sir, what are the factors that go into being (or getting psychologically ?) 'conditioned'?
Q: Not completely. It was there before we came.
K: You (the universal human being?) have been through this before. The society existed before I was born, our great, great parents created this society I was born in, I was educated in that culture, I ( have subliminally?) accepted the conditioning of this culture knowingly or not knowingly. So if someone being born in this culture says, ' I am conditioned by the culture in which I have lived', his ( moral?) responsibility is to free himself from the ( conditioning of the?) culture in which he has been brought up.
Q: He has to free himself from certain (root assumptions and?) beliefs which are not true.
K: We are talking about being free from all 'beliefs', not just true and false beliefs. Being born & being 'educated' one is not ( necessarily?) responsible, but you become responsible the moment you become aware that you are conditioned, and becoming aware that you are conditioned you finish it. Which means you are never conditioned.
Q: But you 'are' free.
K: If you 'are' free from all conditioning, you are 'awake'. That is quite a different matter. But in becoming aware of your ( particular?) conditioning it is your complete responsibility to see that you are ( getting?) free of it, otherwise you can't help society, otherwise you can't bring about a change. And if you are aware and you become utterly responsible, which means that you have got to free yourself from it, otherwise you are not an ( integrated?) human being, you are ( impersonating?) a 'fragment' of this whole structure.
Q: I see my conditioning now, and I make a statement about that, I speak out about it. And then other people...
K: Look sir, what is really important if what am I to 'do' given all these facts - all the facts, not just your fact and my fact, all the facts that are observed - what am I to do? I have been conditioned as a child, I can't help it, by the parents, by the society - you know, ( culturally ? ) conditioned. And (at first?) I don't ( even ) know that I am conditioned, I grow up and I realize, watching all this around me, that I am conditioned; and my (gut?) feeling is that I must change society. But ( holistically speaking?) I can only change both the outer and the inner when I become utterly responsible for (accepting?) my conditioning and be free of it. Are you? Unless you are (getting free of it?) you cannot possibly 'help' (in bringing a new?) society - full stop.
Q: How can you free them if they don't want to be freed?
K: I am not talking about the ( vast majority of?) people who don't (care or don't?) want to be free - I am talking of those people who are (still?) here in this tent after ten days. I say to you, look if you really earnest about bringing about a change in society you can only do it if you are aware that you are ( psychologically ?) conditioned and you are (breaking?) free from that conditioning .
K: No sir, it is not a slow process. Not a process of (temporal?) 'evolution'.
Q: The very idea of ( an evolutionary) time is part of my conditioning.
K: Part of your ( cultural) conditioning is to say it will take time.
Q: How can we determine that it is going to take time or not if we don't know what (this inner change?) is going to be?
K: I have to find out the truth of this matter, whether it is a matter off slow, gradual process or of an 'instant' process.
Q: How can we know?
K: I am going to learn whether this conditioning of the mind, the mind having been conditioned, to free itself from that conditioning, will it take time (In a nutshell?) I want to find the 'truth' of it. Am I approaching this problem of freedom with a mind that is conditioned to (its own continuity in?) time, that gradually I will (figure out how to?) do it? If it is conditioned to ( think of itself in terms of?) time, then become aware of it, aware of that conditioning and ( mindfully?) put it aside for the moment and find (the whole truth about?) it. That is, the time interval between 'now' and 'then' is time. Now if my mind is (culturally?) conditioned, to be ( or to break?) free of that conditioning, will it take time? This implying that ( the ultimate?) ' freedom' is ( mentally projected?) 'over there' and my conditioned mind is right here. And it must do certain (thoughtful?) things in order to arrive there. Right? Now what happens (inwardly during that projected ) interval between now and then?
Q: Further conditioning ?
K: Right. Further factors entering in, which distorts it, pulls you in that direction and then you are pulled back and so on. There is a constant ( give and take?) movement, which is pushing (& pulling?) you in different directions. This is so 'obvious' (logically?) . So if you admit time, which means ( a temporal ?) division between now and then, who has created this division?
Q: It is the ( controlling?) entity which wants the unconditioned state.
K: Of course sir. So the moment (our) mind admits ( to think in terms of?) time, this 'time' becomes a (psychological?) danger – since in that there is (involved, apart from wishful thinking?) laziness, postponement, in that there is a division between here and there, and ( not to mention that ?) all that implies an (all controlling mental ?) 'entity' which wants to reject 'this' and get to 'that' (ASAP?). So as long as this division exists in (our way of?) thinking, ( the natural entropy of ?) 'time' must also exist.
Q: But aren't we getting away from our original question?
K: Oh no, no. I haven't moved away from it at all.
Q: Can you demonstrate ( how you can change instantly something that?) you do not understand?
K: I don't know what you mean.
Q: It needs time (to understand all this?) .
K: Is this the first time you are listening to this madam? Is this the first time you are here?
K: I am so sorry. You see we are both of us using a different language. We have spent ten days or more, or perhaps five years learning about each other, so please if you don't mind, most respectfully and politely, listen first and get into it and you may understand it.
Q: Sir until this morning I thought it must take time but now at the moment I think it can be done 'instantly' and as a result of that your relationships change immediately with all those around you instantly, and then the world changes from that nucleus.
K: That's right. We must find out the truth of this matter - you follow? Whether time is necessary, or time is an impediment. We are conditioned by the ( widely spread assumption of our ?) society which says time is necessary (to achieve anything?) . And I say that (inwardly this?) may be wrong altogether, that may be my conditioning, therefore I must investigate, learn about it. And I see the moment time is allowed the enormous 'danger' that exists in the interval between now and then, so seeing that I reject time - not 'reject' (discard it since inwardly ?) it has no meaning. So ( the inner?) freedom may be (right) here, only I don't know how to look at it. I am going to find out how to look, I am going to learn. And I can only learn if I am not concerned with ( how long will it take in terms of ?) time - I don't know if you see that when 'this' must be changed to 'that' , there is a division, therefore time, therefore conflict.
K: Sir, do you mean to say the generals, the admirals, politicians all over the world, are going to change ( their inner life?) by listening to you and me? Certainly not. What we are talking about is ( applicable only?) 'if' you are serious, 'if' there is the real deep understanding that ( the present direction of our?) society must change.
Q: Is it a 'motive' to be responsible?
K: If I feel you should change according to my pattern, my philosophy, my understanding, then I have a motive.
Q: When I see that I am conditioned you say I am (becoming?) responsible ?
K: No. To be responsible 'is' ( synonimous with?) to be free of your conditioning. Not ( being responsible ) 'for' somebody else's freedom.
Q: When you say you want to be free, that also implies a motive.
K: No, I only use that as a ( metaphorical?) way of talking – since 'I want to be free' means again time. We are talking about the whole business of freedom from conditioning.
Sirs, can we go on from there? That is, have you got a ( personal?) motive which is ( becoming ) the (active) factor of your conditioning?
Q: Is there not a 'motive' in unconditioning?
K: Is there? Just let me (K) answer that: You observe the sorrow, the misery of the world, what is going on - right? - not observe intellectually, verbally but actually 'see' it. There is starvation, there are wars, the division between spirit and matter, you see all these (socio-cultural?) divisions. And you realize that there must be a 'change', naturally. When I have got a 'tooth ache' I must go to the doctor to remove it, do something about it. There is a motive in that, but I am talking of a 'deeper' motive.
Q: Are you and I without motive in being here? Are we talking about motive and just being here?
K: Have you a motive in being here? Find out sir what that motive is.
K: Sir, do go into this question a little bit. Are you acting according to the 'dictates' off your ( personal?) motive? Or are you (acting?) free from motive?
Q: I see the rules are wrong and I want to change them.
K: But if you are (still inwardly) conditioned, therefore your changing those rules will bring about another set of rules according to your conditioning.
K: Sir, please sir, could we stick to one thing and work it out together?
Q: Excuse me for going back one step. But are there not some kind of social environments that make this unconditioning more possible that others?
K: May be, but we are taking things as they are now, not about a ( brave new world?) society in the future. Look sir.
K: No, why don't you 'see' (it now ) ? Don't explain. I can give you ten such explanations.
Q: I am ( subliminally ) afraid of something new (and potentially destabilising?)
K: No. Sir, are you afraid of something new when you meet a tiger? You act.
Q: The problem with our conditioning is that it is 'unconscious'.
K: Therefore find out. Are you superficially conditioned or conditioned right through?
Q: I am ( inwardly ) 'blind' to the danger of conditioning.
K: Are you blind when your (inner?) house is on fire?
Q: She means that our 'blindness to the conditioning' is part of the conditioning.
K: Then what are you going to do? You can't have everything. You want to change society and you say I am blind to my conditioning.
Q: It is what is happening.
K: That's exactly my point. You talk about a change of society, which you really don't mean at all. If you really mean change in society you have to go very deeply into this question of conditioning. Whether it is superficial conditioning or deep, conscious or hidden conditioning, you have to enquire, you have to learn...
Q: Isn't the desire to change society a (psychologically correct way to?) escape from ourselves?
K: How can it be an escape when you 'are' part of the society? If you realize you are (inwardly) part of it then there is no escape.
Sir, look: one is 'conditioned' (culturally formatted?) . I want to find out if it is a superficial conditioning or a deep conditioning because as long as the mind is conditioned any enquiry into change has no meaning whatsoever. If we agree on that, see the truth of that, then we can proceed. Now what is the instrument which you are going to use to enquire? You understand? If it is the old instrument of analysis it has no value. Right?
Q: As soon as I ask a question there is a division between...
K: Sir, I ask a question not from an intellectual point of view, not from a verbal point of view, the mind says it is wanting to find out the truth of something, it is not an intellectual enquiry, it is not an analytical thing.
Q: But there is a ( subliminal?) division, isn't there?
K; That is why I asked : what is the motive in your enquiry. If there is a (personal?) motive in your asking then that motive is going to dictate your observation, analytically or non-analytically.
K: So you are saying, you don't see the danger of conditioning because it is not 'immediate', it is not something that really disturbs you.
Q: It is not right here.
K: Yes, that's what we are saying. Why isn't it?
Q: Sir, isn't also that people want to change their conditioning because they have ( some prioritary?) notions of security.
K: Yes sir, therefore I have to find out what that 'security' means. Is there security for a man who is conditioned? Find out sir. Look, I am ( culturally ) conditioned as a Jew, is there security for me?
K: As long as I am ( inwardly) conditioned in nationalism, or any other ( cultural ) division, fragmentation, security is not possible. Look you have had two wars.
Q: Yes, sir, that's true. But people are feeling secure in nationality, feel secure in their private property, feel secure in their...
K: Do 'you', who have been listening here, sitting here, hour after hour for ten days, feel secure in nationality?
Q: I don't say we do.
K: I am asking you. Secure in your belief, in your conclusion, in your hope, in your aggression? Do you? Don't talk about others. You started out this morning wanting to help society, change society, and you see you really don't mean it.
K: No, sir. It repeats itself because we are conditioned by a new conditioning. Before it was Capitalism, then later on Marx, Lenin and so on, we are conditioned by this or that, and we are talking about all conditioning.
Q: It is not possible.
K: Look, if you say it is not possible then let us decorate the cages be live in - right? - hang up pictures of this or that, make lovely things of our cages, our traps. If that is all you want I am afraid I won't play that game with you. But the moment you admit the possibility of it, which means a tremendous thing, then you are altogether 'thinking differently'.
Q: I am puzzled by your approach to 'motive'. Is motive and attachment the same thing?
K: Yes sir.
Q: Sir, you asked the question: why don't you see the danger as really as a physical danger. What makes one really ask such a question?
K: I am asking it (with an educational purpose?) Apparently you don't face it. Apparently it is not a danger to you. It is not a danger to the young or to the old.
Q: But if we see there is no security in nationalism, people think there is security there...
K: But sir, ( being attached to one's?) nationality is something very superficial. You can put that aside very quickly but there are much depending conditioning like 'conformity'. Go into it sir. Find out how you conform. Therefore find out whether you are conforming and you will find out only when conformity becomes a tremendous danger. And that makes you conform to the society in which you live, or change that society in order to conform to another pattern of society. Therefore the enquiry into conditioning implies not only superficial conditioning as nationalism, but the most fundamental conditioning like acquisitiveness, like competitiveness, comparison, conformity, find out. Put your teeth into it and find out. If you have that - conforming, acquisitive, wanting to dominate, changing this society, to something else, has no meaning.
K: Sir, are you aware of your ( cultural) conditioning? Are you aware that you are conditioned as a Dutchman? As a Jew? As a Hindu? And if you do something as a Dutchman, it will be equally destructive. You may write books about all the goodness of the world but if you are at heart ( culturally) conditioned your action will be destructive and bringing misery.
Q: But if you just have God and nothing else, no creed, and nothing else, just God, you take away God and what do you give for that?
K: If you take away God what do you put in its place? Freedom from fear (of the Unknown?) .
Q: What do you give back in return?
K: I am telling you madam. Freedom from fear needs no belief. We have our gods as yours and the Hindus, the Muslims and the communists, have their gods because they are all frightened.
Q: Don't you believe in spiritual powers?
K: Sirs, the 'mysteries' that we invent are rather silly but there are tremendous mysteries if we can free the mind from its (self-centred?) conditioning. You will find out the greatest mystery, and the beauty of that mystery.
Q: Can one be aware of our conditionings as long as they are subconscious?
K: Right, how can one be aware of the 'unconscious' conditioning? Do you really want to go into this so deeply that it means that you will completely expose all your unconscious beliefs, dogmas, traditions, dreams, hopes ?
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6TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970
INTEGRATING THE FRAGMENTED CONSCIOUSNESS
K: We are going to learn together this morning if we can, what is below the conscious layers, and seeing the many layers (underneath?) then ( proceed to?) to discover for oneself the ( active or dormant ?) content of our consciousness, whether this 'content' makes up the consciousness or the consciousness with its frontier contains 'what is'.
Please sirs this is very important for us to find out because we have ( endlessly?) trained the 'conscious' mind, we have drilled it, educated it, forced it, shaped it, according to the demands of society, or according to our own impulses. And aren't the deeper layers 'uneducated', utterly untouched and only we have cultivated the superficial layer? What do you say?
Q: Sir, how can we know about our 'unconscious'?
K: All right sir, let's begin: when we use the word 'know', what do we mean by that? I 'know' something that has happened yesterday. All our 'knowledge' is ( coming from processing the memory of ?) the past - isn't it? Therefore 'knowing' implies ( being familiar with what we have experienced in?) time. So how can the superficial mind, learn about the deeper layers ?
Q: Keep the superficial mind still then it can learn about the deeper levels.
K: When the superficial mind is still then only there is a learning of the deeper layers. And what is there to learn ( to gather knowledge about?) in the deeper layers? You assume there is the 'unconscious' and there are many things in it. That's what all the 'professionals' say, the (psycho?) specialists – aren't they ?
Now do you see ( your) consciousness as a whole, or do you see it with one (very knowledgeable?) fragment (attempting to?) examine the other (forgotten?) fragments? Do you see it partially or 'wholly' , as a total movement, like a river that is moving? Then ( the next experiential question is:) how is one to observe this movement without a fragmentation?
Q: May I say something please? You speak about an 'unconscious' mind, but how can you (consciously?) speak about something which is 'not conscious' ? We can speak about the conscious. Please define ( the terms) 'unconscious' and 'conscious'. The question is: can we know the unconscious?
K: We asked this question earlier: are we aware of the many fragments that compose the 'conscious'? One ( knowledge addicted ? ) fragment trying to become aware of the many other fragments? Or are you aware of the total movement of consciousness without any division?
Q: Intellectually I may answer 'why we divide them'.
K: Please, we are not 'analysing'. When there is analysis there is the ( subliminal duality between?) analyser and the thing analysed. One fragment assuming the authority of analysis and examining the other parts. And in this division arises the ( things of which one is?) conscious and the ( stuff of which we are?) unconscious - which implies that the conscious mind is ( actually?) separated from the rest. And trying to answer this through ( analysing your?) dreams, through various forms of intimation, hints - all arising from a false assumption that the 'superficial' (self-conscious?) mind is separate from the other, which means we have never felt the whole movement of consciousness as a ( dynamic?) whole. If you would, this question doesn't arise at all.
Q: Obviously some people are suffering from neurosis without knowing the origin of their neurosis - isn't that ( causation locateds in?) the unconscious?
K: Do you not suffer from any 'neurosis'? Does it mean that you are all free from all neurosis? Please this is not a silly question (meant to put you down?) . Are you aware that you are neurotic in some form or another?
Q: Who is deciding if one is 'neurotic'?
K: Do please 'listen' (carefully ? ) to this. When there is any exaggeration of any fragment then neurosis takes place. Right? When you are highly intellectual, that is a form of ( urban?) neurosis, though the highly intellectual is highly regarded. The person who 'holds' on ( or got competely identified to ?) to certain beliefs - Christian, Hindu, Buddhist, Communist, this or that, any ( strong) attachment to any belief is (eventually leading to?) a form of neurosis. ( not to mention that?) any (psychological?) fear is a form of neurosis, any ( psycho-) conformity is a form of neurosis - you follow? And any form of comparing yourself with somene else is ( a potential factor of?) neurosis. Aren't you doing all this?
K: Yes sir. Therefore you are 'neurotic'. (Laughter) So, the exaggeration of any fragment of our whole consciousness (which contains many fragments) , is an ( incipient?) form of neurosis. Wait sir, get it into your hearts, feel it, get involved in it, apply ( the truth of?) it to yourself and you will see for yourself . As we are (psychologically structured now?) we have a 'divided' (self-locked ?) consciousness. In this 'division' ( or self-divisiveness?) there are many, many sub-fragments, the intellectual, (the emotional, the psycho-somatic?) - many, many divisions and emphasis on that division is neurotic, which means that a mind 'emphasizing' (or giving full priority to?) a 'fragment' cannot see clearly. Therefore this brings about 'confusion' (a lack of inner clarity?) because each of these 'fragments' demands its own expression, and when you emphasize one, the others are clamouring (or waiting in line?) . And this clamour is confusion and out of that confusionarises every the desire to fulfil (oneself) , to become, to achieve, all are ( holistically speaking?) 'neurotic' impulses.
Q: But also, for instance, neurosis can also be to suffer from something and you don't know really what you are suffering from. For instance, somebody doesn't dare to go through a square and it is obviously not the square that he is frightened of but something in the unconscious.
K: Look this is a terribly serious stuff : you are afraid to cross the ( village?) square, you are afraid to let go your past, you are afraid to be (regarded as a?) 'non-Christian', this or that, and how are you to know that you are ( unconsciously?) neurotic? Is that the question sir?
Q: Not really.
K: Then what is the question sir?
Q: Sometimes you suffer from something, and obviously the thing you (may think that you) suffer from is not the real reason. For instance, you don't dare to be alone, it is not the fact itself but it is something else in the 'unconscious' itself which gives you the fear.
K: You're saying that neurosis is only a symptom, the cause is in the 'unconscious' ?
Q: Could be.
K: Could be....and probably is. Then what is the question?
Q: It's (how to get rid of this?) neurosis.
K: Sir you are not following the whole (picture?) . When we have understood this whole structure then we can go to ( solve?) the particular, but to start with the particular we'll end nowhere.
Q: But when you talk about 'seeing the totality' of our consciousness, what does this 'seeing' actually mean ?
K: Sir, do you listen to the (noisy?) movement of that (Saanen stream) totally? Just do it sir. Listen to that stream, and find out if you are listening completely, without any movement in any direction, only ( being?) there. Then when having listened, what do you say?
Q: Recognition plays no part in it.
K: That's right sir. Recognition plays no part in it, you don't say, 'That is the ( Saanen ) stream to which I am listening' or 'you' as an entity listening to the stream, there is only the 'listening to the sound'. You don't say, 'I know it is a river'. So let's go back. I want to go into this so much, please let's move together.
Q: Is our emphasis on fragmentation the essence of neurosis, or is it the symptoms of neurosis?
K: It is both the essence and the symptoms.
Q: Being 'intellectual' is the essence as well as the symptom?
K: Isn't it? I emphasize (and take pride in?) my intellectual capacity. Right? I think I can beat everybody at argument, I have read so much, I can correlate all that I have read, and write marvellously clever, 'intellectual' books - isn't that the very cause and the symptom of my neurosis?
Q: It seems to be a symptom of our...
K: Wait. You are saying that is a symptom, not the real cause, I say, let's look (at it holistically:) . Is the mind, our whole consciosness, undivided and therefore the cause and the effect are ( perceived as being ?) the same (time-projected movement ) : what was the ( previous) cause becomes the effect, and ( later on ?) this effect becomes the cause of the next movement ? There is no definite demarcation between ( a psychological?) cause and ( its ) effect, what was a 'cause' yesterday has become the 'effect' of today ( which in turn?) becomes the cause of ( what I will do?) tomorrow. It is a ( cyclic, repetitive ) movement, it is a 'chain' (self-sustained process?) .
Q: But isn't it essential to see this whole process rather than just...
K: That's what we are doing and that is not possible if you emphasize the intellectual, the emotional, the physical, the psychosomatic, the 'spiritual' and so on. Right?
K: Yes, if you identify yourself with any one of the fragments obviously it is the same process, which is the process of being identified with the one and disregarding the rest, is an (incipient?) form of neurosis, contradiction.
Q: You can only say that the identification with one fragment ( took place?) because you feel that you are incomplete so that...
K: That's right. You feel you are incomplete therefore you try to identify yourself with many other fragments. Now who is the ( supervising?) 'entity' that is trying to identify itself with the many? It is one of the (all controlling?) fragments, therefore ( holistically speaking?) it is a 'trick' - you follow? And we are doing this (on a regular basis?) . I must 'identify' myself.
Q: Isn't it better to identify yourself with more fragments than with one ?
K: No, not better. Let me explain again once. There are many fragments - right? - of which 'I' am ( the all controlling one?). One of the fragments says, it brings about confusion when I identify myself with one fragment therefore I'll identify myself with the many other fragments. And it makes a tremendous ( good will?) effort in identifying itself with the many fragments, with the Christians, with the Hindu, with the Buddhist, with the Communist, you follow? But who is this ( politically correct?) 'entity' that tries to identify itself with the other fragments? It is also a 'fragment' isn't it? Therefore it is a game it (our fragmentary consciousness?) is playing by itself.
Now let's proceed, there is so much in this, you are just remaining on the very surface of all this. Nowdo we 'see' (the fact that ?) there is not actual division at all. Right? Non-verbally, see it, feel it, that the observer is a fragment which separates itself from the rest of the fragments and is observing. If (and?) when the mind realizes this fragmentation and the futility of itself (constantly) separating, then it sees (its own?) 'movement' as a whole.
If you cannot (see?) this you cannot possibly put the next question, which is: What is beyond the 'conscious' ? So we have to find out, if you are serious, (a) what is consciousness and (b) when are you aware that you are conscious ?
Q; When there is pain ?
K: The lady suggests you are (becoming 'self-) conscious' when there is pain, when there is conflict, when you have a ( personal?) problem. Otherwise, if you are flowing smoothly, harmoniously living without any contradiction, are you ( self-) conscious at all? Are you ( self-) conscious sir when you are supremely happy?
Q: What do you mean by 'being conscious'?
K: The moment you are ( becoming?) 'conscious' that you are happy, is happiness (still?) there? The moment you say, 'My God how joyous I am !' - can you ever say that? If ( bother to?) you say it , it (Joy?) has already moved away from you.
Q: Well, you are then conscious of that.
K: So you are only 'conscious' of something that has happened, or actually ( self-) conscious when there is some conflict, pain, or when there is actually awareness that you are confused. Right? So any disturbance in this ( living consciousness) movement is to be ( self-) conscious.
Q: Sir when there is a feeling of loneliness and when the mind does not interfere, isn't the mind 'whole' in that state?
K: If there is no discord at all in your life would you (bother to?) say, 'I am conscious'? When you are moving, living without any friction, without any resistance, without any battle, there is no (self-consciousness?) - you are not saying 'I am'. Right? It is only when you are saying, 'I (hope I?) will be better' or 'I am being (as good as it gets?) ', then you are ( self-) conscious.
Q: Well the ( fullness of ?) 'being' never comes.
K: Do take a little time sir, you are too quick. Move into this very slowly, you will find out something extraordinary, if you go into it.
Look sir, we have just discovered something : that there is ( self-) consciousness only when there is ( an effort of?) 'becoming', or trying to 'be' (something or other ). 'Becoming' implies (an inner) conflict, 'I will be', which means conflict exists as long as the mind is ( getting psychologically ?) caught in the verb 'to be' - please see that. And our whole culture is based on that word 'to be'. 'I will be a success', 'I am a failure', 'This book is mine, it is going to change the world'. You follow? So as long as there is a movement of ( self-) becoming, in that there is conflict and that conflict makes the mind aware that it is conscious.
Q: Can one be conscious of this (self-sustained inner) conflict?
K: Of course sir, otherwise you wouldn't be (self-) 'conscious'.
Q: Could it be that you are so caught up in conflict that you don't see that you are in conflict?
K: Of course, it is a form of ( self-sustained?) neurosis.
Q: Well I can't see how...
K: Sir, look. Have you ever been to a mental hospital ? I was ( as a visitor) there, taken by an analyst, and every patient from the top floor - where they are the most violent, caged in - down to the lowest floor where they are more or less 'peaceful', are all in conflict, all of them are in conflict, which was exaggerated conflict - you understand? Only they are ( kept ) inside the building and we are outside. That's all. (Laughter)
Q: I am trying to distinguish between consciousness and awareness.
K: The whole movement of ( our self-) consciousness is ( getting personally involved in ) becoming and being. Becoming famous, becoming a social worker, helping the world - you know - becoming, or to 'be' ( as in 'I am' already rich/famous/...? ) . Then you can ask a totally different question, which is: what is beyond this ( self-conscious?) movement of 'becoming' and 'being' (somebody ?) So I realise that the total movement of (my) consciousness is (engaged in?) this movement to 'be', or to 'become' (something) , or 'not to be', or 'not to become' (something else?) .
When I say 'I realize it' , am I realizing it as something I have seen outside of me, or do I see this movement as the very essence of 'me'?
Q: It is exhausted.
K: Exhausted - which means what?
Q: It wears out.
Q: Aren't there other kinds of dreams in which...
K: First listen to this. Get order. This movement of the daily life continues through sleep because in this daily movement through sleep there is contradiction, there is disorder, disharmony. And the brain during sleep, through dreams, through various forms of non-dreams, tries to bring order in itself, in its own ( existential?) chaos. Now, if you put order during the day, when it sleeps the brain does not necessarily need to put things in order.
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|Fri, 16 Sep 2016||#459|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
7TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970
HOLISTIC INTELLIGENCE AND THE 'THINKING' MONKEY
K: We'll go on from where we left off yesterday. We were considering the nature and the structure of what our ( everyday) consciousness is. As we were saying, that without understanding the ( conditioned ?) content of this consciousness, without understanding the fragmentary nature of our consciousness, whatever our action may be, it must produce confusion. I think this must be very clear. It's like giving a great deal of attention to one fragment, like the intellect, or the body, or belief. And to say to oneself, all these fragments must be put ( glued?) together or integrated has no meaning, because then the problem arises, who is to integrate it. And the effort of integration. So there must be a way of looking at this whole fragmentation with a ( quality of?) mind that is not fragmented. And one asks the question, is there an action which is not fragmentary and which does not contradict another action which is going to take place next minute.
If the ( psychological) content of our consciousness - my despair, my anxiety, fears, pleasures, the innumerable hopes, guilts, and the vast ( dualistic?) experience of the past, then any action springing from that consciousness can never free the consciousness from its limitation. Got it? . My consciousness is the result of the culture in which I have lived. That culture has encouraged and discouraged various forms of activities, various forms of pursuits of pleasure, fears, hopes and beliefs. That consciousness is the 'me'.
So the first point (1) is whether our mind realizes all the activity it indulges in or is forced to do, all its activity is the movement within the consciousness with its content. And realizing this, what is the mind to do? Can it ever go beyond this limited consciousness?
Now the second point (2) is, this little pool with the little frog - it is a good simile - may extend, expand and widen the pool, but the space it creates is is always limited by the centre. If you have a centre, the circumference of consciousness, or the frontiers of consciousness is always limited, however it may expand. That little (frog or?) 'monkey' may meditate, may follow many systems, rejecting one, taking on another. And that little monkey will always remain. And therefore the space round it and the space it will create for itself is always limited and shallow. So that is the second question.
The third point (3) is, what is ( a consciousness?) space without a 'centre'. We're going to find this out.
(1) Can this consciousness with its limitations, at whose centre is this everlasting mischievous ( frog or?) 'monkey', can it go beyond itself? (pause) Can the 'monkey' - if you don't mind, I'll stick to that word - can that monkey, with all its ( good?) intentions, with its aspirations, with its vitality, free itself from its conditioning and so go beyond the frontiers of consciousness which it has created? Can this ( psychological?) 'monkey', which is the 'me' , by doing all kinds of things - meditating, suppressing, conforming, being everlastingly active, can its movement take it beyond itself? Which is, does the ( conditioned) content of our consciousness (which) makes the 'me', the monkey, and therefore the attempt on the part of the monkey, the 'me', to free itself, is still within the limitation of (its traditional?) pool. So my question is, can the (inner?) 'monkey' be completely quiet, to see its own frontiers, to be aware of the extent of its frontiers, and whether it is at all possible to go beyond it?
K: Sir, do you notice for yourselves, that you are always acting from a 'centre'? Do you notice this? This 'centre' (of self-interest?) may be a motive, a fear, a (personal) ambition - you are always acting from a centre, aren't you? All our ( psychologically motivated?) action as far as we know now, is from a centre, whether that centre identifies with the community or with a philosophy, it is still the (same ?) centre which has identified (itself) with that. Are you aware of this action going on, always? Or are there moments when the centre is not active? It happens, suddenly you are looking, living, feeling without a centre. And that is (entering into?) a totally different dimension (of consciousness?) . And thought begins to say, what a marvellous thing that was and I'd like to continue with it. Then the remembrance of that which happened a few seconds ago becomes the new 'centre' through thought ( through thinking about it?) . Are we aware of this? And are we aware of the ( self-enclosing) space that 'centre' creates round itself, isolation, resistance, escape - space? As long as there is a centre there is the space which the centre has created round itself.
And so I want to learn, how that 'centre' (of self-interest) comes into being - is it the result of this society, the culture, or is it a 'divine' centre which has always been covered up (smothered?) by the society, by the culture - outwardly, its been covered up. The Hindus and others call it the Atman, the great thing inside which is always being smothered (by the tough coditions of our material existence ?) . And therefore you have to free the mind from the smothering, so that the 'real thing' can come out.
Q: You say sometimes to help society, to do social service, as if helping society or doing social service was doing something for somebody else. But I have the feeling that I'm not different from society, so working is a social thing, it is working in myself, it's all the same thing - I don't make a distinction.
K: But even if you don't make the distinction - I'm not being personal, sir, does the centre (of self interest?) remain ?
Q: It should not.
K: Not 'should not'. Then we enter into quite a different field - should, should not, must, must not - then it becomes 'theoretical'. The actual fact is, though I recognise the 'me' and society are one, etc., etc., is there the centre still operating. So, my question is, I see as long as there is any movement on the part of the monkey, that movement must lead to some kind of fragmentation, illusion and chaos. Put it round very simply - that centre is the self, is the selfishness that is always operating, whether I am 'godly', whether I am concerned completely with ( the welfare of?) society and say, I 'am' society - that centre is still operating. Then the next ( experiential?) question is, ''How is that centre to fade away ?'' Through determination, through will, through practice, through various forms of compulsive neurosis, compulsive - you know - dedication, identification? All such movement is still part of the 'monkey (tricks'?) . So if the mind says, I see this very clearly, there must be a complete attention. In that ( non-directional?) attention, is the 'monkey' still operating? If I want to (really) 'listen' to you I must give my attention, which means my mind, my heart, my body, nerves, everything must be in harmony (in order) to 'attend'. The mind not separated from the body, the heart not separated from the mind - it must be a complete harmonious whole that is attentive, that is attention. Does the ( totality of one's?) mind attend so completely to the ( psychological?) activity of the monkey, watching it, not condemning it, not saying it's right or wrong, this or that, just watching the tricks of the monkey ?
Now, in this ( direct ) watching there is no ( time left for?) 'analysis'. The moment one ( proceeds methodically to?) analyse one of the fragments, the monkey is ( subliminally?) in operation. So does the mind watch with such complete (uncompromising?) attention to the movements of the monkey, and what takes place when there is such complete attention? Are you doing it?
Q: I feel passive.
K: Don't say yes or no - learn about it. Is there? And what is the quality of that attention in which there is no centre, in which the (inner?) 'monkey' isn't playing tricks?
K: I don't know, sir, find out, learn, which means to give a sustained attention, not a fleeting attention, a sustained attention to find out the quality of the mind that is so completely 'attentive' ('attending' completely?)
Somebody said something to me yesterday which was not true. Did the 'monkey' come into operation and want to say, look you're a liar? Or the ( all inclusive?) movement of that attention - in which the (thinking?) monkey is not operating - 'listens' to that statement which is not true and doesn't leave a mark ? Got it? When the 'monkey' response then it leaves a (psychological ?) mark.
So I am asking, can this ( universal quality of?) attention 'flow' (freely?) , not 'how can I have continuous attention', because then it's the 'monkey' that is asking. But the mind just 'moves' with it.
K: Sir, attention means the 'height' of energy, isn't it? In attention all your energy is there, non-fragmented. The moment it gets fragmented and an action takes place, then the 'monkey' is at work. But the (thinking) monkey is also learning - has become sensitive, has become aware, and it realizes the waste of energy and therefore, (it gets quiet?) naturally. It is not an (actua) division between the (thinking ) monkey and 'attention'. If there is such a division then that ( holistic quality of?) attention becomes (labeled into mental concepts such as?) the 'higher self', (and) all the tricks the monkeys have invented. But it is a total movement of attention.
Now when there is no centre, when there is the complete 'apogee' of (one's total?) attention, you know, the 'height' of attention. In that 'high' of attention what has happened to the mind that is so highly attentive, all the energy there, not a breath of it wasted. What takes place, what has happened?
Q: There is silence.
K: Oh no...
Q: There is no self-identification.
K: No 'monkey tricks'. But what has happened, not only to the (physical) brain, but to the body? What has happened to the quality of a mind that has become so highly attentive, in which all energy - what has happened?
Q: It becomes quieter ?
K: Look sir – the very quality of the brain which has invented the (thinking) 'monkey': doesn't the brain become extraordinarily sensitive? And when you have got such tremendous energy, unspoilt, unwasted, what has happened to the whole physical organism, what has happened to the brain, to the whole structure of the human being - that is what I am asking.
Q: It wakes up and it becomes alive. It learns.
K: No. Sir, it has become alive to learn, otherwise you can't learn. The moment you begin to question, begin to learn, you are beginning to be alive. That is not my question. What has happened to the body, to the brain ?
Q: It's alive.
K: ( This is your homework for?) tomorrow, sir! Please, do watch yourself, pay attention to something so completely, with your heart, with your body, with your mind, everything in you, every particle, every cell - 'attend' to something, see what takes place.
Q: The centre is gone.
K: Yes, sir, I agree the 'centre' (of self-interest?) doesn't exist but the body is there, the brain is there - what has happened to the brain?
Q: It rests ?
K: Look, what is the (true) function of the brain ?
Q: Order ?
K: No. Don't repeat after me, for god's sake. What is the brain - it has evolved in time, it is the storehouse of memory, it is matter, it is highly active, recognising, protecting, resisting, thinking, not thinking, frightened, seeking security and yet being uncertain - it is that brain with all its memories, not just yesterday's memories, centuries of memories, the racial memories, family memory, the tradition - all that, that is the content is there. Now what has happened to that brain when there is this extraordinary attention?
Q: It is 'new'.
K; I don't want to be ( psychologically?) rude, but is your brain new? Or is it just a ( convenient?) word you are saying.
K: Please, what has happened to this human brain that has become so mechanical, responding to (everything ) according to its ( cultural ) conditioning, background, fears, etc., pleasure and so on, this mechanical brain, what has happened to it when there is no waste of energy at all?
Q: It is getting 'creative' ?
K: We'll leave it till tomorrow
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|Sat, 17 Sep 2016||#460|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
8TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1970 (reader friendly edited)
GOING BEYOND THE LIMITATIONS OF OUR DAILY CONSCIOUSNESS
K: Yesterday we were talking over together the nature of consciousness. And in talking about it, we went into the question of what is attention. And we said, this quality of attention is a state of mind in which all energy is there, highly concentrated, and in that attention there is no observer, there is not centre as the 'me' who is attentive. This morning we are going to learn together about what happens to the mind when there is this extraordinary attention, when there is no ( psychological identification with the ?) centre as the 'observer' or as the 'censor'.
And ( not to mention that?) to observe 'what is' you need ( a non-disipating?) energy. I need ( all this?) energy when I really, desperately want to listen and understand what you are saying. But if I am only casually listening, that is a very slight energy that soon dissipates. So to understand ( the truth about?) 'what is' you need energy. Now, these 'fragmentations' of which we are, are the division of these energies: the 'I' and the 'not I', violence and the non violence, they are all fragmentations of ( our total?) energy. And when one 'fragment' assumes the authority over the other fragments, it is an energy that functions in fragments. So the( holistically inclined?) mind sees that all (thinking in terms of psychological?) fragmentation (such as my belief and your belief) , is (a dissipation?) of energy.
So our consciousness is (encompassing?) the totality of these ( interacting ?) 'fragmentations' of energy. And as we said, one ( core element?) of this fragmentations is the 'observer', is the 'me', the (thinking?) monkey, that is incessantly ( pretending to be?) active.
The (holistically inclined?) mind can sees what ( the psychological?) fragmentation does, outwardly and inwardly: outwardly the division of nationalities, beliefs, religious dogmas, division, my god, your god, my belief - outwardly. In social action, division, political action, division, the Labour Party, the Conservative, the Communist, non Communist, Socialist, the Capitalist - all created with the desire of ( our self-centred?) thinking which says, 'I must be secure'. And inwardly thought has put together this 'me', through the same impulse to find itself in security, safety. And in its desire to find ( the best?) safety it has divided ( the total consciousness?) energy as the 'me' ('my' consciousness?) and the 'not me' (everybody else's) . And therefore bringing to itself insecurity. Now can the mind see this (human consciousness?) as a whole? And it cannot see it as a whole if there is an (ongoing ?) fragmentation which observes.( In other words) we are asking, what is the quality of the mind that is highly attentive, in which there is no (internal?) fragmentation? That is where we left off yesterday.
I don't know if you have ( as assigned for homework?) 'gone through it', enquired, or learned from yesterday, and (anyway ?) the 'Speaker' is not a ( traditional?) Professor teaching you or giving you information. But to find that out (experientially) , there must be no inner fragmentation, obviously, which means no (sense of?) effort - with an (effort -) distorted mind you cannot possibly understand what it is to be completely attentive and find out what has happened to a mind that is so utterly aware, utterly attentive.
There is an (experiential?) difference between ( seeking inner?) security and 'stability'. It is the (thinking?) monkey, the everlasting 'me' with its thoughts, with its problems, with its anxieties, fears and so on, that is always seeking security, because it is afraid to feel uncertain in its ( physical?) activity, in its thoughts, in its relationship - it wants everything ( to run safely and smoothly ?) so it translates ( its need for inner ) security in terms of mechanical 'certainty'.
Now ( as an 'in class' assignment?) which is it you are doing in your everyday life - is the ('thinking ) monkey', in its restlessness, seeking security and not finding it in one direction, it goes off in another direction, which is the movement of restlessness? And in this restlessness, it wants to find (or optimise its inner sense of?) security. So what is it that you are doing? Seeking security in your restlessness? You know, this desire to be secure is one of the most curious things: its (personal achivements in terms of?) security must be recognized by the world. I write a book and I find in (writing that?) book my security. But the ( value of that?) book must be recognized by the world, otherwise there is no ( $$$ and long lasting material ?) security. So look what I've done. My security lies in the ( constantly changing?) opinion of the world . 'Oh, my books sell by the thousand !'. And I have created the ( cultural?) values of the world in seeking security through a book, or through whatever it is, depending on the world (opinion) , which means I am (psychologically?) deceiving myself constantly ( and/or living pretty safe materially?) . Right? Oh, if you saw (the metaphysical inconsistency of?) this...
K: So the desire for thought (for the 'thinking' monkey?) to be secure is the way of uncertainty, is the way of insecurity. Now, when the mind is completely attentive, in which there is no centre, what has happened to the mind that is so intensely aware - is there in it ( any need for seeking its own ?) security? Is there any sense of restlessness - no, don't please ( politely?) 'agree' - this is a tremendous thing to find out, because we want to go beyond this. You see, sir, most of us are seeking a solution for the misery of the world, we are trying to find out a way of organizing society in which there will be no social injustice – and man has sought God, Truth, whatever It is, through centuries, and never coming upon it, but believing in it.
K: Is it even 'intellectually' clear? Then what do you do, what is your answer?
Q: It is no longer isolated, there is no fear.
K: Sir, unless 'it is so' with you, don't say anything, because it has no meaning. You can (always say ) I feel this - but if you are really serious, you want to learn about it, then you have to go into it, it is 'your life' (homework?) - not just this morning. This is not a 'weekend religion'. This is (all about?) a way of living in which this ( consciousness?) energy is not broken up - if you once understood this thing, you'll have an extraordinary sense of action.
Q: Sir, are you asking, what do you do with the 'monkey' within us ?
K: No, I am only putting that question to see where you are. So there is one of the fragments, that is actually (the central part of?) 'what is', one of the fragments of this broken up energy, knowing that one of these fragments is restlessly seeking security - that is what we are all doing. And that restlessness ( of the 'thinking?) monkey' goes on endlessly, all that indicates a mind that is pursuing a way of life in which it is only concerned with (its own?) security.
Q: Mechanical activity stops completely.
K: Mechanical activity stops completely. You understand what I'm saying, my question? When you are so attentive, is the mind still seeking? Seeking ( psychic ?) experiences, seeking to understand itself, seeking to go beyond itself, seeking to find out right action, wrong action, seeking a permanency on which it can depend, permanency in relationship, or in belief or in some conclusion, is that still going on when you are so completely aware?
Q: The mind does not seek anything any longer.
K: You know what that means, not seeking anything ?
Q: What happens to the mind when it stops striving?
K: Have you ever known, walking or sitting quietly, what it means to be completely 'empty' (inwardly?) - the 'emptiness' of a mind that has finished with all the movement of search.
Q: All 'is' and I 'am'.
K: Who is this I that says ' I am'?
Q: ( The thinking?) monkey.
K: Do look at it - what am I? Don't repeat what the propagandists have said, what the religions have said, what the psychologists have said - what am I? What are you? Who is the one who is identified with the house, with the husband, with the money, with the name, the family, which is all what? ( Emotionally charged images and ?) words. No, you don't see this. But if (you eventually manage to?) see this, that you 'are' a bundle of memories and words, the restless (thinking?) monkey comes to an end.
K: You have to earn a livelihood, you have to go to your home, you're going out of this tent.
Q: We can forget for now about 'going to your office'.
K: You may give it up, I'm not - don't bring in the office.
Q: Surely the question is, how can I be (inwardly?) empty if the memory is there operating - this is the question.
Q: It is split, part of the mind is empty and another part not.
K: Look, sir, you are throwing words at me – but I want to tell you a very 'simple' thing: there is no such thing as ( psychological?) security, this restless demand for security is part of the 'observer', the centre, the (thinking?) monkey. And this 'restless monkey', which is ( the self-centred process of?) thought, has broken up this world and has made a frightful mess of this world, it has brought such misery, such agony. And, thought cannot solve this, however intelligent, however, clever, however erudite, however capable of efficient thinking, it cannot, thought cannot possibly bring order out of this chaos. There must be a way out of it, which is not (based on using?) thought - in that state of attention, in that movement of attention, all sense of ( psychological?) security has gone because there is ( a deeper sense of ?) stability. That 'stability' has nothing whatsoever to do with ( this self-centred?) security - when thought seeks security it makes it into something permanent, immovable, and therefore it becomes mechanical. Thought seeks security in our relationship and creates in that relationship an 'image'. And that (self?) 'image' becomes the 'permanent'. In ( subliminally creating) that ( self?) image thought has 'identified' itself and established ( the 'I' ?) as the permanent thing.
And outwardly this is what we have done : 'Your' country, 'my' country, 'my' God - all that silly stuff. Now when the mind has left ( behind?) all that, left it in the sense that has seen the utter futility, the mischief, and it has finished with it, then what takes place in the mind which has so completely finished with the whole concept of ( psychological?) security, what happens to that mind which is so 'attentive', that it is completely stable ?
Q: The moment I am attentive, I am not seeking. But this attention may cease, then I am seeking again.
K: Never - that's the whole point. If thought ( the thinking brain?) sees that there is no such thing as ( psychological?) permanency, sees it, thought will never seek it again. Which is, the brain, with its memories of security, with its cultivation in society, depending on security, all its ideas based on security, its morality based on security, that brain, has it become so completely empty of all movements towards security ?
Q: Maybe a real understanding is a kind of direct (non-verbal) contact with the thing you are trying to understand. And consequently there is no need for words which ( psychologically- wise ?) are an escape.
K: That's it. Can you communicate without words, because words hinder. Look sir, can I 'communicate' (share?) with you without (using?) words, the quality of the mind that is so extraordinarily attentive and yet able to function in the world without breaking (its total?) energy into fragments? You've understood my question?
K: Now, can I communicate that to you without the word?
K: I can? How do you know I can?
Q: I think you can.
K: Look, I have talked for nearly three weeks, explained everything, gone into it in detail, poured one's heart into it - have you understood it even verbally ? And you want to understand something non-verbally, this can be done (only) if your mind is in contact with the 'speaker' with the same intensity, with the same passion, at the same time, at the same level, then (it?) will communicate. Are we listening now to the rattle of that train, at the same moment, with the same intensity, with the same passion ?
Q: Not all the time.
K: Don't say that, not even for a minute !
Q: How do you know?
K: I don't 'know'. But if you are (intensely passionate) , then you will know what it means to be attentive, and therefore no longer seeking ( psychological?) security, therefore no longer thinking in terms of fragmentation. So, sir, look what has happened to a mind that has really gone through all the things we have been talking about, what has happened to the ( inner quality of a ) mind that has really 'listened' to this?
(a) First of all, it has become sensitive, not only mentally but also physically - given up smoking, drinking, drugs, down that drain that goes by (the Saanen?) river. And when we have discussed, talked over this question of attention, you will see that the mind is no longer seeking anything at all, or asserting anything. Such a mind is completely 'mobile' (fluid?) and yet wholly stable.
Then (b) out of that stability and sensitivity it can ( see and?) act without breaking up its (own intelligent?) energy into fragments.
And ( c ) such a mind - what does it find, apart from ( the right) action, apart from ( an immovible inner?) stability and all the rest, what is there? You understand? ( Since immemorial times?) man has always sought for what he considered God, Truth, always striven after it out of his despair, disaster, death. And (when he) thought he found it, the discovery of 'that' he began to organize (rationally?) . And, you remember that 'famous' (K ?) story – about the devil and his friend who were walking one day down the street and they saw a man in front of them picking up something very shiny. And the man looked at it in great delight, ecstasy. And the friend of the devil asked, ' What did he pick up ? Oh, the devil said it is a part of the Truth. And the ( devil's?) friend says, then it's a very bad business for you, if a man has found Truth on a pavement, you will have no place. To which the devil said, ' Not at all my friend, I'm going to help him organize it'.
So sirs, that (integrated mind?) which is stable, highly mobile (fluid?) , sensitive, sees something which has never been found, which means, (inwardly thinking in terms of?) 'time' for such a mind doesn't exist at all - which doesn't mean he's going to miss the (local?) train. Therefore there is an (inner) state which is 'timeless' and therefore incredibly vast.
Now, sir, I could go ( deeper? ) into 'it', which is something really most marvellous if you come upon it, but the ( verbal) description is not the (timeless being) described. It's (left) for you (as homework?) to learn all this by looking at (and into?) yourself - no book, no teacher can teach you about all this – so don't depend on any 'spiritual' organizations.
So ( for parting words :) one has to learn all this out of oneself. And 'in there' the mind will discover things that are incredible. But for that there must be no inner fragmentation, and therefore an immense stability, swiftness, mobility. And to that mind there is no time and therefore this whole concept of 'dying' and 'living' have quite a different meaning.
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|Sun, 18 Sep 2016||#461|
|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
1ST K PUBLIC DIALOGUE BROCKWOOD 1970 (reader friendly edited)
THE 'OBSERVER' AS THE PSYCHOLOGICAL ROOT OF CONFORMITY
K: So what shall we start with?
Q: Could we discuss the application of these talks as a means of education, in other words, an active thing.
K: Do you want to discuss about education or something else?
Q: Like the idea of a school for pre-adolescents.
Q: Don't you think that it is possible to have a school whereby these young people would never be conditioned?
K: Perhaps we approach the question differently: how to bring about an education, or to educate a child, a student, and ourselves not to imitate, not to conform. Would it be worthwhile to discuss the implications of conforming and whether it is possible not to conform at all, but yet live in this society (and make it better?) ? Shall we start with that?
K: Right. Before we try to find out how to educate our children not to conform, shouldn't we find out if we are conforming - the parent, the teachers, the educator, the human being, are we conforming? Aren't we following a certain (competitive?) pattern , accepting formulas and fitting our life to that formula?
Q: Sir, if we do not follow these systems that exist in our society, how can we educate our children to go through examinations.
K: Don't let's talk about (educating the ) children for the moment. Let us talk about ourselves who are responsible for these poor unfortunate children. If we are conforming. then we will always subtly or brutally bring about an educational system that will make the child or the adolescent ( learn to?) conform. This is so simple. If I am ( psychologically?) 'blind' I can't help another. Inwardly we are more or less 'blind' if we don't know at what depths (and in what way?) we are conforming.
Q: But isn't (the core of our psychological) conditioning the (dualistic) way of looking at the world as 'oneself' and the 'outer world' as two separate things?
K: I said that this division as the 'me' and not 'the me' the outer and the inner, is another ( subliminal?) form of ( cultural) conformity. Sir, let's get at the 'principle' of it, not at the peripheral conformities, but at the root. Why does the human mind ( has this natural tendency to?) conform? Once the central issue is understood then we can deal with the outer, with the peripheral conformities.
Q: Sir, I am very unsure if I don't (have to?) follow a certain pattern.
K: He says, if I don't follow a certain pattern, established by a particular society and culture, I shall be thrown out. You see you are always discussing what to do under a 'given' structure of a society. That's not the ( right?) question. The question is, is one aware that one is conforming? And is that conformity peripheral, or is it very profound? Until you answer this question you won't be able to deal (holistically?) with the problem, whether to fit into a particular society that demands (or not?) conformity.
Q: Is it possible that like any other species we also have this natural ( herd instinct) to conform.
K: Yes. We know this. This whole process of education, all our upbringing is to conform, why? Do look at it. The animal conforms.
Q: To preserve the group.
K: To preserve the group, to have security, to be safe. That's why we conform. ( But ) does that conformity lead to global security? I mean, to call oneself an American, or an Indian, does seem to give a ( certain) sense of security. Doesn't it? To identify oneself with a particular community appears to give security. But this very division ( on the planetary scale) is one of the major causes of war, which means no security. Where there is division which comes about through identification with a particular community, hoping that community will give security, it is the very beginning of destruction of (our global) security. This is so ( holistically?) clear. So when that's clear we have finished with ( our psychological?) identification with a community through which we hope to be secure. Once you see the 'poisonous' nature of this (psychological) division between you and the community, and/or identifying with the community in the hope of security, when you see the truth of it, you no longer want ( to achieve a higher degree of psychological?) security through ( identifying with the (B P ?) community.
Q: Is there not another point: the (comforting ?) feeling to belong to (the 'bestest/noblest/richest'?) community?
K: Yes, sir. I belong to a particular group, it gives me satisfaction, it makes me feel warm inside, it makes me feel safe.
Q: It much more than to be safe, it's a 'nice' (and positive?) feeling.
K: Yes, sir, I belong to this community of Brockwood. It gives me a nice feeling. Which means I want to belong to something (worthwhile ?) . Right? Why? Sir, let us tear all this apart and look at it. Why do I want to feel comfortable within ( such?) a blasted little community? Sorry!
Q: Because I feel insufficient in myself ?
K: I am feeling lonely, unhappy, haggard, ( a psychologically ?) miserable entity, and I say, my God, if I could identify myself with a large community I would 'lose' ( and forget about?) myself in that. This is so 'simple'...
Q: We want communion with other people.
K: How can you have (an authentic) communion with other people when you are ( subliminally?) seeking security through other people?
Q: It is not ( necessarily ?) a matter of security.
K: Sir, ( suppose that?) I feel comfortable, happy, with a small group of people, a particular community, why?
Q: Because I am frightened of the others ?
K: I don't like the others. I don't like their looks, their smell, their clothes, their beards, their hair. I like this group. And that group gives me a great sense of warmth.
Q: We want extension.
K: Extending what? My loneliness, my fear, my misery, my sense of lack of certainty? When I am clear, certain, you know, vital, I don't need to identify myself (psychologically?) with anything.
I don't know why we waste time on this ( 'happy community'?) thing. We ought to go much deeper than this : any form of ( psychological ) identification with a group, however comfortable or satisfying it is, this identification implies a psychological well-being in division, and therefore ( containig the seeds of its own?) destruction, but also it brings about a conformity of the group as against another group.
K: Yes, but (you stlll have to?) 'do' it!
Q: It doesn't always seem that we are identifying when we are doing it, but as we are (busy?) 'working together' , it slips over somehow.
K: Is co-operation ( implying a group mentality based on ?) imitation and conformity? Am I co-operating with you 'about (in order to achieve ? ) something'? Or we have a ( genuine?) 'spirit of co-operation' in which there is no ( place for?) conformity? I don't know if you see. If I am 'co-operating' because I hope ( or intuit that ?) through that co-operation I will gain a personal profit, then it's not ( the spirit of free ?) co-operation. But if I have this spirit of co-operation...
Q: ... I can go beyond the 'me' ?
K: Madam, that's just it. Do we have this 'spirit of co-operation', the feeling? So ( if not?) let's come back to this ( basic ?) thing does one know that one is conforming, why one is conforming, and what is the necessity to conform?
Q: It presents a (comforting?) image of 'sameness'.
K: Sir, just listen to my question - do I know through (examining my?) actions that I am conforming, or do I know I am conforming not through action? The two (are qualitatively?) different kinds of knowledge, the discovery that I am conforming through ( examining my) action leads to the correction of action. I discover I am conforming through a particular action , and then I say to myself, to change, to bring about a change in conformity I must act differently. So I lay emphasis on ( the corrective?) action, not on the ( inner?) movement that brings about that action.
Q: Sir, I don't understand how you can observe the nature of your conformity without the action that reveals it ?
K: Sir, how do you know that you are conforming?
Q: Through observation.
K: Through observation, you say. The 'observer' (controlling entity?)
K: Therefore he 'is' the (active?) source of all conformity, and what he is doing is the result of this ' flow of conformity' , ( manifesting itself?) as the observer, as the censor, as the traditionalistic Englishman, and so on. So when we are asking the ( triple) question, who is conforming, what is conformity, and why does one conform, I think the answer to all that lies in the 'observer'. The observer is the (cultural?) censor. And when this censor becomes aware of himself by condemning or justifying. And that condemnation, or justification, is the result of his conformity to the pattern of a particular culture in which he has been brought up.
Q: But somehow in that 'stopping' there is the seeing of it.
K: Sir, I think I get what you mean. But does that happen?
Q: Well it's the only time when one gets a glimpse of it.
K: Yes. You are asking me to be aware of the 'observer' (subliminal interference?) . This 'observer' is the very essence of conformity.
Q: It goes back into ( analysing its available?) memory to try and find out.
K: Which means what? Any ( thoughtful?) response from the 'observer' is the response of (its own cultural?) conformity - full stop!
Q: But has the observer actually an instrument that isn't contaminated?
K: We are so near it, let's push ( the enquiry deeper?) . We have come to the point when we say the observer is the very essence of conformity. How does the observer know (or realise that?) he is the very essence of conformity? Is he aware of himself as the ( active?) instrument of conformity, and that whatever his answer is conforming.
K: Therefore what have I found?
Q: That there is also something beyond conformity ?
K: No, listen sir - what has the observer found when he responds to a ( immovible?) challenge, and finds that whatever his response, it is a response born of conformity. He has discovered that. What does that mean?
Q: He has discovered ( the truth about?) himself. It sees that if he has an answer, it must be conformist.
K: So what has happened to the 'observer'?
Q: He keeps quiet?
K: Sir, you are just playing with words. Do find out what happens to you when you have discovered for yourself the truth - the truth, not an idea - the truth that any form of response on the part of the observer, and all our responses are on the part of the observer, then what do you find?
Q: Sir, is not our realization of that itself the result of the observer in the sense that the observer ( is constantly ? ) separating himself.
K: That's what you are saying, which means another reaction of the observer which is born of another conformity. He may separate himself into a hundred parts, and say, I remain. And this division indicates that any reaction on the part of the observer comes out of this enormous weight of conformity. I have discovered the truth of that. The observer has discovered it. He hasn't separated himself as a further observer, he has seen this. Now what has happened? What takes place when the observer (the observing mind?) 'sees' (the truth of?) this?
Q: How can the 'observer' discover this?
K: Wait sir, I'll answer that question, you'll see it in a minute. Does the 'observer 'become aware of himself through ( a newly created ) division of himself? You understand my question, sir? Does the observer become aware of himself as the source of ( psychological?) conformity through (another self-) division? So he does not become aware through any division. Let's be clear. Then how does he become aware? If you ( the non-culturally conditioned part of brain?) see the falseness that the observer ( subliminally cheats?) by (pretending to?) become aware of himself through a fragment of which he is, then how will he be (totally) aware of himself?
Q: If there is no fragment by which he can become aware of himself, then he is not (active) ?
K: No, you see. If the observer does not become aware through (subliminally generating a new controlling ) fragment of which he is part, then how will he know '( realise the truth?) that he 'is' the source of all conformity?
Q: The question is then: the fragment is aware of the totality ?
K: Right, let's put it that way : can one fragment be aware of the total? Obviously not. ( So, since we got stuck?) Let's begin in a totally different way: Are you aware of the (observer-observed?) division in yourself? Are you aware when you look at a tree, or at the sky, or a cloud, that you are looking with a division, with eyes that are always looking at everything through division?
Q: It does not touch our awareness immediately, but ( eventually?) one is out of that division.
K: No, sir. I want to begin right at the other end, so begin anew. Can you look at anything with eyes that are not touched by ( a sense of self?) division? Do you look at your wife or husband without the ( self-protecting mechanism of creating an ?) image (about her?) and therefore look without division?
Q: The only way to do that is by the senses. When I look at you, you are what you are, I hear you but there is no division, there is only you and not a 'me' that looks at you.
K: So here it is fairly simple, isn't it. Because I don't interfere with your (personal) life. Me sitting on the platform, you sitting there you can ( comfortably) observe what is being said. But if I what I say touches you, hurts you, flatters you, then you look at me with different eyes, don't you?
Q: Only by my intellect.
K: Only 'by intellect' is good enough. You look at it with division. Right? Now, can you look at me who insults you without this division, without the image that you have created through my words of insult?
Q: Only if I can see you, the insult and the image at once.
K: Look, sir, I have insulted you, or flattered you, and you have built an image about me. Next time we meet you look at me through that image. Now can you look at me though I have insulted you, flattered you, without the image?
Q: Only again by the senses.
K: No, no, sir.
Q: If not, it is getting complicated.
K: No, madam, you make it all so complicated. Keep it very simple. I have insulted you, or flattered you. You have ( subliminally formed?) an image of me. Now I want to look at you though you insult me, flatter me, nag me, without building an image. Now is that possible?
Q: For me, that which comes in the way is my own reaction to what I see, not so much what people say but what happens in me when this is said, and to see that.
K: Obviously, sir. Obviously.
Q: How can you...
K: I am going to show you in a minute, listen sir. You have insulted me, or said, what a marvellous chap you are. And can I look at you without any image though you have insulted me? And when I look at you without the image our relationship is entirely different, isn't it. Then it's much more vital, much more close, much more real. So the 'image (- making' process ) is the factor that divides. Right? Now is it possible to be free of the mechanism of building images? That is, can the mind as it is being insulted and flattered, can that mind at that moment be intensely aware and not create an 'image'? If it is ( non-personally?) attentive at that moment you have stopped (the process of?) image building. That's all. It's as simple as that.
Q: If I look at you now I do not have any image, I do not have your name, I do not know you, though I just hear your voice. If I wish I can think about you.
K: Right, sir. But can you do the same with your intimate friends?
Q: Why not?
K: Not, 'why not'. Do you do it?
Q: I would answer, yes.
K: Then what happens?
Q: You are free.
K: Look, sir, we will come back to this question of conformity but we are trying to find out whether the mind can look without division. And it's one of the most extraordinary things to find out, to learn, because then conflict comes to an end. And conflict can only come to an end when there is no machinery the forms that image, and the machinery is the 'observer'.
So (to wrap it up:) this mind has learnt that every form of division inwardly as well as outwardly must spring from the 'observer' (controlling mental mechanism) who must 'divide' (our everyday ) life, with all its conflicts and jealousies and anxieties and all the rest of it. So in asking myself the question, at what level am I conforming, and why am I conforming, this mind has found it conforms whenever there is the demand for security, where one seeks certainty, either in a family, in a group, or in the ideation of a god, or non-god, all springing from this source as the 'me' and the 'not me'. So can this mind live in this ( real?) world without any of this ( self-created ) division?
Q: Is this a gradual process, like you can spend a life time it seems?
K: No, no. You can see it instantly and it is finished. It is like seeing instantly the (immediate danger of this psychological?) 'precipice' , you don't take a life time to look at the precipice.
Q: But isn't a lot of chaos in there ?
K: There is a lot of chaos, not only outside but inside, a lot of confusion, disorder.
Q: It seems that you should be doing something, going to be propagating...
K: Sir, what are we doing now? The speaker is doing all the work and you are listening. If you go away without having learnt the lesson, then you will do propaganda. But when you do propaganda it becomes a lie because it (the inner discovery?) is not yours. If it is yours, you are building, you are creating, you are living, you are vital.
Q: But doing this you want to be in contact.
K: You are in contact, sir. You see you are in the greatest contact with the world, not through words, not through magazines, books and lectures and philosophies and beliefs, you are directly in contact with this terrible world.
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2ND K PUBLIC DIALOGUE BROCKWOOD 1970 (reader friendly edited )
THE HOLISIC APPROACH TO 'SANITY'
K: What shall we talk over together? I am sorry it is such a rough morning.
Q: I have been told that you are going to speak next in Perugia to a group of writers and scientists who are very much concerned about the 'killing of this earth'. I wondered if these people and others are really concerned about the gradual killing of the earth ?
K: Oh, I seen with the gradual ( increase of ) pollution and destruction of the earth and so on. Do you want to discuss that? Or it might be rather worthwhile to talk first about what is 'sanity'. Shall we?
K: I wonder what is ( mental?) 'sanity'. To be sane, healthy, to think clearly. And would not any fragmentation of the mind be ( at the origin of?) 'insanity'? The exaggeration, or putting all your thought and energy in ( developping?) one fragment, one fragment among many others fragments which make up the (common ?) human mind ; wouldn't you call that 'insanity', or (dis-) balance - putting all our energy in one direction, like sex, like earning money, like enjoyment, pleasure, or the pursuit of a fragment which is called ( the search for?) God. Would you call any of that imbalance? What do you say, sirs?
Q: I think if it is putting so much tension in one fragment to the exclusion of other fragments...
Q: The other parts will be 'unbalanced'.
K: So you will consider that giving emphasis to one and not consider the rest it is obviously not ( leading to?) a harmonious living, and therefore not ( the action of a?) 'sane' (mind) . Now, don't we do this in our daily life? When one worships sex as the supreme thing in life, or taking drugs and thinking that is going to bring enlightenment, final illumination, or concentrate on earning a livelihood and the (resulting ) money, prestige, and position - all those indicate a mind that is not (truly?) harmonious, doesn't it. Or a mind that is concerned entirely with ( accumulating a wealth of?) knowledge, or technique. What do you say? Are we in that sense ( mentally?) 'balanced' human beings? Obviously not. And an unbalanced ( consciousness of?) humanity, as it is, must produce all kinds of catastrophes - wars, pollution, destruction of the earth, bringing about a constant ( trail of?) misery. If that is so, what then shall one do? This is supposed to be a discussion, not a (moralising ?) talk by the 'speaker'. So what shall I do when I realize that my whole life is based on ( the fragmentary activities of ?) thought? Do I realize that my (self-centred) thinking is only a fragment, a part of a whole?
Q: I think one should perhaps differentiate between 'thought' as a ( general concept?) principle, and an individual's thought.
K: Is there a difference between thought as a principle and my individual thought? I am not saying there is not, I am just asking if there is a difference between individual thinking and the 'collective thinking' which man has gathered hrough centuries upon centuries as knowledge - scientific, technological, knowledge of nature and so on and on. Is there a difference between the particular thinking of an individual and the collective accumulation of the 'thought of mankind'? What do you say, sirs?
Q: I don't think so. The individual thinking is influenced by the collective.
K: Sir, you say that 'thought' (our thinking?) is conditioned by the culture, the society, the environment in which he lives, therefore there is no division between the individual thinking and the collective thinking.
Q: The collective thinking seems to be made up of ( a generalisation of the?) personal experiences.
K: That's what we are saying, sir.
Q: And it( the collective thinking?) seems to be in touch with your 'individual' thought; itseems to be necessary if you are going to have any self-awareness.
K: Therefore you are separating individual thought from the collective thought. You think that there is 'individual' thinking?
Q: I am not (100%?) certain...
K: I am just asking. You say that there is an individual thinking apart from the collective. Is your ( self-centred?) thinking different from my ( self-centred?) thinking as an individual, or is all thinking more or less the same?
Q: If our individual (thinking) reacts to ( the collective thinking of?) society, the individual's thoughts must be exactly ( of the same nature as?) the society's thoughts.
K: Obviously, sir. I don't quite see (any) basic difference between the collective thought and the individual thought, because the 'individual' (thinking) is part of the collective (general mentality?) .
Q: May be we misunderstand each other's words, but it seems to me that the reason for all these wars, and everything, is that all the bad (hard?) feelings that people have about each other. It seems to be that they are thinking for themselves, and they find that what they think is relatively different from the collectivity thinks.
K: Look, sir, is your thinking different from mine coming from India, or from Russia, is your thinking different?
Q: The things that we think about (are different ) .
K: Not what you think about, but your thinking process ?
Q: Oh, no, that's the same.
K: So the thinking process of human beings is more or less the same. Conditioned (formatted?) according to their ( cultural) background as Catholic, Protestant, Hindu and so on and so on. Right? And there may be ( local) modifications of that thought. As a German, I may think differently from you who are American because I have been conditioned by the German culture in which I live. But the process of thinking is the same, isn't it, thought I call myself a German, and you an American, the process, the 'mechanism' - the mechanism is ( the response of our past?) memory (organised as?) knowledge (and acquired through?) experience. If you had no ( verbal) knowledge, no ( learning?) experience, you couldn't speak.
So ( in a nutshell:) (our everyday?) thinking is the response of ( our past experience stored as?) memory. That memory may be a little less dogmatic, a little less assertive, a little less aggressive, but it is still the response of memory. And is your memory so very different from mine, as the German, as a human being? Please, sir, this is quite important, go slowly in this.
Q: It depends whether it is from the 'conscious' or the 'unconscious'. The problem arises when different people have a different awareness.
K: We will go into that madam - I am not saying that what you say is not true - but I am not at all sure that our ( everyday process of?) thinking is not more or less the same. You, conditioned by the culture in which you live, and another conditioned by his particular culture, whether that culture is superficial or deep, whether it is 'conscious' or 'unconscious', it is still part of the (same mental ? )mechanism, or process of thinking. Isn't it?
Q: May we say that perhaps if the process if the same, there is difference in emphasis, in our different capacities?
K: But thinking is the same mechanism.
Q: Yes, indeed.
K: That's all that we want to establish first.
Q: So, the thought-energy is all the same.
Q: Like the computer ?
K: Quite right, sir. You are saying, We have got computer-like (culturally programmable ?) minds. And some are well informed, more alive, but it is a computerised (culturally standardised ?) mind that is ( in charge and ?) functioning all the time.
Q: No, sir. It is playing the same record(s ?) all the time.
K: It is playing the same old record all the time with varying themes, depending on the circumstances. Therefore can ( my self-centred ?) thinking however capable, however efficient, however knowledgeable, can that bring ( inner ?) freedom to man? Freedom from fear, from anxiety, from guilt, from sorrow. You understand my question? Is sorrow different from my sorrow? Is your sense of guilt different from another? Is your sense of despair different from another, or your loneliness, your misery, your confusion?
Q: It never will.
K: How do you know?
Q: It is obvious, sir.
K: Why do you say that, sir? I am not saying you are right or wrong, I want to learn. Why do you say thought can never free (the human mind of its ?) jealousy, or anxiety?
Q: I have found that if you (try to ) understand a person's motive for doing something you can be much more tolerant, understanding, less jealous by using your ( thoughtful ?) understanding.
K: When you use the word 'understanding', what does that word mean?
Q: Understanding the 'cause' of it. And it has to start with thought. I have to pay attention to the fact that I am jealous. I have to 'think' about the situation first. Then in that process you find you can change your living, your thinking, your attitude, as I become clear.
K: You are saying that through the exercise of thought, there is an understanding of jealousy and therefore freedom from it. Is that so?
Q: It seems that one comes to a less intense form of jealousy.
K: Sir, let's enquire into this particular thing. We say, by exercising thought we can learn more about jealousy and are therefore free from it ?
Q: ( My self-centred ?) thought.
K: ( In short ?) thought.
Q: No, I disagree very profoundly: jealousy is an emotion, it is a sense of loss.
K: Which is part of ( our self-centred ?) 'thinking-feeling'
Q: You are making it (sound as ?) an infantile thing. It is not. If you understand what you have got, and if it even matters that you have got it, and you mature to the point that you understand, it doesn't matter.
K: I understand that, madam, just go slowly. If you had 'feeling' without ( its associated ?) 'thought' would you call it 'jealousy'?
Q: I would (still) feel jealous.
K: I become conscious of a ( painful ?) feeling which I call 'jealousy'. The word 'jealousy' is remembered from the ( collective memory pool of ?) past jealousies. Which is, a (specific) response of memory to a particular feeling which has been ( collectively labelled and ?) recognized as jealousy. Right? Whether that response is the outcome of conscious memory or unconscious memory we will leave that for the moment. So the feeling is recognized as 'jealousy' through an (emotionally loaded ?) word which thought has given meaning to.
Q: The recognition is thought, but the feeling comes first.
K: I am saying that. I have a ( painful ?) feeling, then I recognize it as 'jealousy'. How do I recognize it as 'jealousy'? Because I (or others ?) have had it before. I associate the present feeling with ( the emotionally charged memory of ?) a past feeling which I have called jealousy. So it is still within the field of thought (in the field of the 'known' ?) .
Q: A baby can become angry, so can an animal.
K: But isn't there an operation of 'thought' (of a response of the past experience ?) also going on, in ( the mind of ?) a dog?
Q: ( Perhaps, but ?) it doesn't 'know' it.
K: Therefore let us 'babies' and 'dogs' alone. Let's talk about ourselves.
Q: We are babies. I think you are very infantile too !
K: I quite agree, I quite agree. But I want to find out if being infantile, whether that 'childishness' is the result of thought.
Q: I think it is the result of lack of thought.
K: Therefore what is maturity?
Q: Ability to 'face truth' in your conscious mind.
K: Which means able to face facts, able to face 'what is'. And not go round it, not escape from it, not cover it us, not condemn it, not judge it, not give various evaluations about it. To face 'what is'. Right? What prevents it?
Q: ( The sub-conscious ?) fear (of the 'unknown' ?) .
K: What is this fear? Go slowly. Without recognising a new feeling, has it any significance? ( Suppose that ?) I am full of 'antagonism' today, I feel this. Now, without giving a name to it, which is the response of ( my past ?) memory, which is the response of 'recognition', this feeling has no ( long term ?) meaning at all. I just feel something. It is only when I recognize (and label it ?) by using a word such as 'aggressivity' that it has significance; and the recognition is a process of thinking. Right? So (we have experientially proved that ?) without 'thinking' (about it) a (gut ?) feeling has very little meaning.
Q: Can I say something? You started by talking about 'sanity'. I work in a mental hospital. The psychotics do not seem to have this (thoughtful ?) 'sense of recognition', so it is very hard to communicate with them.
K: Yes, madam, I understand all this, (but I was) asking myself (as a relatively rational person ?) : has 'feeling' any significance apart from (being associated with our self centred process of ?) thought?
K: Yes? Before you say, yes, let's find out. ( Suppose ) I feel a great sense of tenderness, a sense of 'love'. Can thought be related to it? Go slow, go slow. Then it becomes 'pleasure', doesn't it, then it must be translated in terms of recognition. Is 'love' a product of (our self-centred ?) thought?
Q: I don't think one can answer that.
K: Wait, we are going to answer it.
Q: People only seem to be able to achieve 'love', or go beyond it, by using their minds to understand themselves.
K: Now, is that so? By understanding themselves they go beyond the travail of ( sensory ?) love? That is, love is not pleasure. Love is not desire.
Q: All of it, and pain.
K: Oh, so 'love' is pleasure, desire, pain, sorrow, jealousy, hatred. Where do you draw the line?
Q: I think love goes beyond emotion. We get confused with our emotions and call them 'love' and 'anti-love'. But we have to use our minds.
K: We are using our minds now, as we are discussing. What is the thing we were trying to discuss?
Q: You were saying, can thought dissolve the problem of fear and pain ?
K: Yes, can thought solve the problem of fear? And is not fear the creation of ( our self-centred way of ?) thinking ?
Q: Unless thought sustains the feeling , this feeling (of fear) evaporates very quickly, but if thought gives it a drive in time, it sustains it.
K: Now sir, let's begin: you know what 'fear' is, don't you ? We all do: the fear going out in the dark, we are afraid of somebody, or of death. Right? We all know this fear. How does it come about? I go out in the dark and suddenly I am afraid.
Q: Isn't it a physical reaction?
K: Which is, the feeling of insecurity. Suddenly finding myself in the dark in a strange place, and the feeling of uncertainty, insecurity. What has brought about that feeling of insecurity?
Q: It is the thought that something might happen to one.
K: Isn't it? Something might happen to one, sudden danger, feeling of insecurity, feeling of being lost, where you might get attacked and all the rest of it. All that is the result of ( our own) thinking, isn't it ? It may be instant (subliminal ?) thinking. If there was no thought I wouldn't be afraid of the dark, I would walk through it. It's only the swiftness, the rapidity of this thing has brought this feeling of uncertainty. Otherwise I wouldn't be afraid of the dark.
Q: There must be a first time. The fact that the first time I was afraid I didn't know what it was.
K: I said it was (a sub-conscious ?) thought that was so rapid of which you are unaware. The next time it happens you say, well, I have had this (feeling of) 'fear', I won't be afraid so much; and the third, tenth time you have got used to it. We are pointing out that a thought has bred fear. Whether that thought is so rapid, of which one is not aware, not so rapidly it thinks about what is going to happen tomorrow: I might die, I have done something in the past, all that is a process of thinking whether it is instantaneous or gradual. Therefore fear is the product of thought. Like (the experiencing of a ?) pleasure is the product of thought. No? I had the most extraordinary enjoyable evening yesterday in the woods, walking, looking at the sunlight, it was marvellous. And that was a delight which I would like to have repeated tomorrow. And this (instinctive) demand for 'repetition' is the machinery of thought, the process of thinking. It's so simple. It's ( experientially ?) obvious.
Q: If I do not recognize my feeling as (fear or) jealousy, does not there remain sorrow?
K: If I do not (intellectually) 'recognize' (and label) my feeling - what is the next thing?
Q: Does there not remain sorrow?
K: Ah! If I do not recognize the fear or pleasure, or guilt and so on, it has no profound affect?
Q: Sorrow remains.
K: Does it? You see, when we use this word 'sorrow', what do you mean by that word? What is the content of that word? There is a tremendous quantity of ( personal and collective ?) self-pity in sorrow. No?
Q: Is not the question when you have the feeling like jealousy, if you don't recognize it, is that feeling painful?
K: Have you ever tried this? You have a feeling, can the mind remain with that feeling without 'naming' it? Without recognition? Then what is it? Is it pain? Is it sorrow? Look, the moment you say, it is pain, there is the process of thinking involved in it.
Q: Is not sorrow the basis of all our life?
K: Is it? That's why, sir, when you use the word 'sorrow' we must go into it. Sorrow. What does that mean? Sadness, grief, the feeling of insoluble problems of life, feeling the death of someone, feeling loneliness, feeling deeply frustrated, not being able to do anything in this world and so on and on and on. Right? All that is implied in the word 'sorrow', isn't it? Now 'who' is feeling all this? Who is ( the self-conscious entity ?) feeling the loneliness, the despair, the utter misery, confusion, aggression, violence, who is it that is feeling all these things?
Q: I think we are, in a big psychic self.
K: Which is that?
Q: Most of us have two frames of being, one is our 'thinking self' and one is the 'un-thinking' one.
K: All right. You think there is a superficial (self) and the other more profound. How does this 'division' arise? You must answer all these questions.
Q: There is a 'deep self'.
K: What is this 'deep self'? And what is the 'superficial self'?
Q: There is the 'conscious' and the 'unconscious' (self).
K: Conscious and unconscious. Why do you divide it?
Q: Because only a little bit is lit by our awareness -the conscious self, and what is unlit is our unconscious self.
K: Therefore you say there is no division really.
Q: No, not really.
K: So there is only a ( dualistic, inwardly split ?) state of mind in which there is the division as the thinker and the thought. As the experiencer and the experienced, as the observer and the observed. The 'observed' we say is the superficial, the 'observer' is the profound. Right?
K: No, no, don't say, maybe. Examine it, find out, we want to learn.
Q: I think the problem is our lack of ( inner ) awareness.
K: You see, in this (inward) awareness - 'who' is it that is aware? So we realize there is a division in (our inner) life, in me, in you. Oneself is made up of many fragments. One of these fragments is the ( all controlling mental entity of the ?) 'observer' and the rest of the fragments are the 'observed'. The observer (may eventually ?) become conscious of the fragments, but it does not realise that itself is also one of the fragments; that (even if he's in charge with supervising them ) he is not (qualitatively ?) different from the rest of the fragments. Therefore you have to find out what is the observer, the experiencer, the thinker. What is he made up of, how does it come about this division between the observer and the observed? The observer, we say, is one of the fragments, the ( moral or cultural ?) 'censor'. Right? The censor is the result of the social conditionings. Right? Social, environmental, religious, cultural conditioning: this is right, this is wrong, this is good, this is bad, I must do this, I must not do that, which is, the (composite ?) result of the conditioning of the society, of the culture, of the religion, of the family, of all the race, and so on.
Now, to be free of this conflict one has to find out if you can look without the ( controlling mentality ?) of the censor. That is to be (choicelessly ?) aware - to be aware that the 'eyes' of the censor are the result of our cultural conditioning. And can't our eyes look with freedom, look innocently, freely? Otherwise this (hidden ongoing) conflict will exist, and therefore neuroticism and all the rest of it follow from this conflict. So you have to solve (holistically ?) this question, learn about this, whether the mind can look without any conditioning. Which means without the (controlling interference of the ?) censor, without the observer. Because the observer is the source of all conformity. And when you are conforming there must be contradiction, and therefore conflict, which are all the result of thinking.
So ( to recap:) the thinker is not separate its thought. So the observer is not separate from the observed. And when this is (seen as ?) an actual reality, fact, truth, 'what is', then ( our inner ) conflict (of interests ?) comes to an end.
Q: Sir, the sunset you talked about, if you observe it and it was so divine, then at the moment when you are not doing it, you are still observing, then...
K: Do listen to this, sir, this is quite extraordinary if you go into it. You saw that sunset yesterday. It was a great delight. It has left a (subliminal ?) memory and its response through thought, is, 'I wish I could have more of it'.
Q: Can there be thought without the observer?
K: The inevitable question comes next : can the mind be free of all this conditioning, (by realising that its essential ?) conditioning is the observer, and not what he observes. Right? Suppose that this mind is conditioning by a culture which has existed for five thousand years in India, and when it meets a different culture, the Catholic, it says, My God...! The observer rejects it , and therefore conflict. So the inevitable next question is: can the mind, the brain cells themselves, be free of all ( its dualistic ?) conditioning as the 'observer', as a (mental) entity that is conforming, (heavily ?) conditioned by its environment, culture, family, race - you follow - conditioned. If the mind is not free from ( its dualistic ?) conditioning it can never be free of conflict and therefore neuroticism. Therefore unless you are completely free (of the observer-observed duality ?) , we are unbalanced people. And out of our unbalance we do all kinds of mischief.
So maturity is not a frame of mind but a freedom: freedom from conditioning. And that freedom is not obviously the result of the (dualistic action of the ?) 'observer', which is the very source of all memory, of all thought. So can I look with eyes that have never been touched by the past? And that is 'sanity'. Can you look at the cloud, the tree, your wife, your husband, without an image? To be aware that you have an 'image' (making mechanism ?) is the first thing, isn't it. To be aware that you are looking at life through a formula, through an image, through concepts, which are all distorting factors. So to be aware of it. And to be aware of it without any choice. And as long as the 'observer' is ( pretending to be ?) aware of these then there is distortion. Therefore can the mind observe without the 'censor'? Can you listen without any interpretation, without any comparison, judgement, evaluation, listen, to that breeze, to that wind, without any interference of the past?
Sorry, I have taken the show away!
Q: If I see the tree and am delighted, and thought ( is subliminally ?) slipping in and says, 'That is an oak tree', it is just ( reduced to ?) words. (But the question still remains :) can we see without the observer?
K: Yes, sir, that's right. You do it. (Start by ?) looking at a tree without naming it, without the interference of the knowledge about trees, just to look. What takes place when you do so look?
Q: You become ( one with ?) the tree.
K: No, madam, that is an 'identification' with the tree. You are not the tree, are you. I hope not!
Q: It is the feeling of a profound relationship.
K: Look, madam, profound relationship implies a relationship in which there is no 'image' (making) . Obviously. If you have an image about me and I have an image about you, our relationship is between two images, which is built up by thought. Right? Therefore there must be freedom from the machinery of the 'image'. Therefore can I look at a tree without the 'image' of the tree? Which means, can I look without the 'observer', without the 'censor'? Then what takes place? ? Who created the (psychological distance ?) between the tree and you? We are not talking about the physical distance, but the psychological distance between you and the tree, who has brought this about? The ( self-centred process of our ) thinking, the observer, the censor. No? Now when that observer, that censor doesn't exist, but only look, what takes place?
Q: The 'distance' between the tree and you is not there any more.
K: The psychological distance between you and the tree has disappeared. Right?
Q: Then the tree is part of your being.
Q: There is a sense of 'communion' ?
K: Madam, I am asking, what takes place when the 'observer' is not (interfering with the direct perception) ?
Q: What happens when you (K) do it?
K: When I do it? Are you interested theoretically?
Q: No, actually.
K: Then you'll have to do it yourself, haven't you ? Are you asking it as an example to copy, to verify your own particular experience, and so on? So what is important ( experientially ?) is not what happens to the speaker when he looks at the tree, but what actually takes place when 'you' look.
Q: With ( all due ) respect, there were several answers given here, which I suspect came from their personal experience, but you don't accept it.
K: No. ( Because ?) I am not sure they are not repeating. Look, madam, what happens when you, when one looks at another, husband, wife, or children, or the politician, without the image, what takes place?
Q: The mind 'turns on', lights up.
K: I give it up! If you would (honestly) say, I really don't know - right - then we can proceed; but when you say 'it is this', 'it is that', I am not sure if it is real. When you say, really, ''I have never done it'' - that means tremendous (learning ?) discipline, it needs tremendous attention - not on the part of the observer. If the observer ( is pretending to ?) become attentive he is still separate.
So ( to wrap it up ?) what takes place if you have really gone through this, not according to me, I am not the ( 'Brockwood ?) Oracle', you will see it for yourself when the psychological space disappears there is a direct relationship. Isn't there? And if you have no image, what happens? Isn't that is 'love' is (all about ?) ? Which has nothing whatever to do with ( the pursuit of ?) pleasure.
We started by asking what is ( a holistic ?) 'sanity'. There it is! A mind that is conditioned is not sane.
Q: When there is no psychological space between the tree and the observer, the experience must be the same for everyone.
K: You have asked a question, sir, look at it, first look at the question. When you look without the 'observer', will it vary according to the individual. If there is no observer at all, is there ( a sense of self-conscious ?) 'individuality'? 'Individuality', as we know it is fragmentation.
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|Dan McDermott United States 126 posts in this forum Offline||
K.:he censor is the result of the social conditionings. Right? Social, environmental, religious, cultural conditioning: this is right, this is wrong, this is good, this is bad, I must do this, I must not do that, which is, the (composite ?) result of the conditioning of the society, of the culture, of the religion, of the family, of all the race, and so on.
Can we say that 'who' he is referring to here is the "natural I", the one we wake up in the morning with, the 'relatively' continuous one we go through life with? The one trying to figure this all out?
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Whether it's 'natural' or not, it's 'me', yes. I am that conditioning.....or put differently....the 'me'/self is that. The one trying to figure it out is surely part of that too...a fragment..conditioned along with all the other fragments in consciousness. The examiner is the examined.
Let it Be
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1ST K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SIDNEY 1970 (reader friendly edited )
HOW TO SEE CLEARLY ?
K: What would you like to talk over?
Questioner: Could we speak of death?
Krishnamurti: Shall we take up the last question and then we can include all the other questions in it ? The question is, now can one see things very clearly without prejudice, without bringing our own particular opinion, conclusions, our own form of conditioning? Without all that is it possible to see, totally, the whole vast spectrum of life?
To 'see clearly', now what does it imply? To see (or perceive directly ?) without any image, to see things actually as they are without any form of conclusion; is that possible at all? I want to see not only outwardly what's going on: the wars, the contradictions of nationalities, the (cultural) differences, the fragmentation caused by religions, but also I want to see very clearly what's going on within myself, within the skin, without any distortion. Distortion comes when there is any kind of (mental ?) effort. Is that at all possible? Can we discuss this?
Questioner: Just because you become aware of a certain conditioning doesn't automatically mean that you conquer it.
Krishnamurti: I'm going to show it to you in a minute. Go slowly, have a little patience please. I said 'be(come) aware of one's conditioning'. How, what does this awareness mean?
Questioner: To become 'conscious' of it ?
Krishnamurti: To be aware, to be conscious, to be sensitive; what does it imply (experientially ?) ? We are trying to find out what it means to be aware, ( for instance to be ?) aware of this hall, the proportions of it, the colour of it, the steel beams, the cross-beams, the bricks, the windows and aware of the people sitting in it, the coats, the colour - to be aware. Now are you (choicelessly ?) aware of all this if you begin to say 'I don't like that colour', 'I don't like that particular dress, or whatever it is'? The moment there is a certain kind of (cultural) prejudice stepping in you are not ( purely ?) aware. Right? I have learnt one thing. This is a process of ( interactive ?) learning, isn't it? I've learnt that there is no ( free ?) 'awareness' if any form of like and dislike comes in.
Questioner: But, Sir, we don't 'see' it.
Krishnamurti: Why why don't we see your (cultural) conditioning as a Christian or whatever it is?
Questioner: Because it's a ( psychological) protection.
Krishnamurti: Which means that you don't (really) want to see that you are ( culturally) conditioned, since if you saw it there might be certain action which might lead to ( some psychological ?) danger? Therefore you don't want to see, therefore you are not ( non-verbally or 'choicelessly' ?)aware.
Questioner: Fear of being ( left) alone.
Krishnamurti: Look Madam, we are all ( getting) 'conditioned' by the society in which we live, and we are (inwardly an 'imprinted' ) part of that conditioning, part of that society. Now, when we are (becoming) aware of what is (really) happening in the whole world - the appalling brutality, the violence, the destruction, the misery, don't we feel we have to act?
Questioner: You really don't 'see' it !
Krishnamurti: Don't I? I say I am seeing it.
Questioner: When you become aware in the (total ?) sense you have to become involved and when you become involved it's pretty painful, arduous; only a little bit joyful.
Krishnamurti: You are already coming to a (personal ?) conclusion. I don't think it is 'arduous' at all. It is very simple (in terms of direct perception ?) . Please go with me a little, you will see what is involved in it. So, if I become aware of it, then what takes place?
Questioner: You start seeing your 'limitations'.
Krishnamurti: You see that and what takes place?
Questioner: You see it as limited. It's 'incomplete'.
Krishnamurti: That's only a (post facto ?) conclusion. But what actually takes place?
Questioner: You are free ?
Krishnamurti: You are not 'learning' from (direct ) observation. So what takes place when I am (becoming) aware that I am ( culturally ?) conditioned (to think ?) as a Hindu?
Questioner: There is an emptiness within the mind.
Krishnamurti: Is that so? If I am (becoming) aware that I am a Hindu with all its tradition and all the rest of it, who is it ( is it a supervising entity ?) that is aware of this conditioning?
Questioner: 'I' see the conditioning in my mind.
Krishnamurti: Who is it that sees the conditioning?
Questioner: The 'I'.
Krishnamurti: Who is the 'I'? In that (first level of inner ?) awareness there is a ( subliminal ?) division between the observer and the thing observed. Are you quite sure (to see it ?) ?
Krishnamurti: Learn Sir. Don't say yes, no. That prevents you from (further) learning, from observing. I want to see what happens when I become aware that I am conditioned. (a) Do I really want to be free of that conditioning?
Questioner: The 'thing' created by the conditioning.
Krishnamurti: Who is the 'censor' (the 'controlling' entity ?) . Therefore, you see, there is a 'division' (a subliminal separation ?) between the censor and the thing he condemns or approves. Why is there this division?
So I ( the enquiring mind ?) say to myself 'why' does this division exist at all, because if that division doesn't exist then the whole problem is changed. It's because of that division there is (arising an inner ) conflict, isn't there? I see (from my culturally biased reactions that ?) I am conditioned, and that there is a division, then the I, the observer, the censor, the thinker says - I(hope to ) get rid of it, so I should do something about it because the has separated itself from (coming in direct contact with the ?) things observed.
Questioner: Is (this seeing through the 'image' ?) the same thing as 'seeing' blind?
Krishnamurti: Have you tried to concentrate on anything? What is involved in this 'concentration'?
Questioner: The 'experiencer'.
Krishnamurti: Who is this experiencer? Who is the 'thinker'? Is there a 'thinker' apart from (the self-centred process of ?) thought?
Questioner: The 'thinker' is distilled memory.
Krishnamurti: Which means there is no 'thinker' if there is no (self-centred ?) thinking.
Questioner: There is no thinker with no thought, but there is ( a ) 'consciousness' without thinking.
Krishnamurti: When you say 'consciousness', is it made up of the content or separate from the content?
I'll show it. You can see (in the outer world that ?) where there is a division there must be a conflict (of interests ?) , as between an Englishman and a German - (the mentality of nationalistic) division produces inevitably conflict. Now, inwardly we can see the root of all division in human beings is the ( dualistic) division as the observer and the observed, ( which extends outwardly in the division between ?) 'we' and 'they', 'my' God, 'your' God and all the rest of it. ( and the 1000$ question is:) Can this division disappear altogether? Otherwise we shall live in conflict (or in a self-conflicting consciousness ?) .
Questioner: There is such ( a dark ?) fear (only ?) at the thought of losing our 'centre', our ( self- ?) control.
Krishnamurti: I am coming to that, Madam. You are not doing this, you are not learning, not following this tremendously (subtle yet ?) important thing.
Questioner: We must just relax and become aware there is nothing to fear.
Krishnamurti: Alright, Sir, fear. Do you want to discuss this ( unconscious ?) fear?
Questioner: Let's finish this.
Krishnamurti: If we could understand what is happening in the world, outwardly, the constant fragmentation, the businessman and the scientist, the religious man and the layman, the guru and the disciple, the teacher and the follower; the poor chap, the rich man - division.
Questioner: Is it not the ( karmic ?) residue of the past?
Krishnamurti: It is, but that doesn't solve the problem. Why is there this contradiction in me and in you, this hypocrisy, why? Weekend religion and the rest of the week (metaphorically ?) 'butcher' people. Why this contradiction?
Questioner: We want to be the best, important.
Krishnamurti: Is that it? We want to be important?
Questioner: We move away from what we are to what we think we should be.
Krishnamurti: Which means what?
Questioner: That we are in ( living in ?) contradiction.
Krishnamurti: Go into it a little deeper. Why is there this 'contradiction' (conflict of interests ?) ? One of the major reasons for this (inner) contradiction is non-acceptance of 'what is'. Which is, I have an ideal of what I should be. That's one factor. The other is, I'm always living in ( the field of ?) comparison, comparing myself with somebody else or with a principle or with an ideal. This means I never accept ( to look directly at ?) the fact of 'what is'.
Questioner: Then you have to be as jealous as you are ?
Krishnamurti: This is not ( done in order ?) to have a (compensatory ?) reaction about it - but just observing it.
Questioner: As soon as you start observing it you are separated from it.
Krishnamurti: When you are observing (non-personally ?) , when you are giving full attention to the thing you are observing, is there a duality? You don't 'do' these things, you are just 'playing' (mind games with ?) with it. Look Sirs, have you ever given attention to something completely? Do you know what it means to give attention?
Questioner: In this case there is none.
Krishnamurti: Have you done it, Sir?
Questioner: I have tried.
Krishnamurti: You can't 'try'! Have you ever given attention completely, totally to something? Are you giving attention completely now, to what is being said? Are you? Obviously not. To give attention means to give your mind, your heart, your 'whole being' to find it out for yourself.
Personally I have no 'ideals', no 'beliefs', no 'conclusions', only what actually 'is'. That way you can avoid all ( forms of inner) hypocrisy. (Suppose that ?) I see actually that I am (getting ?) angry. Then what takes place? You see one of the ( self-blocking ?) difficulties is, we have come to the (generally accepted) conclusion that the human beings cannot be changed ( including that ?) I cannot change myself. Don't you say that?
Now, is it possible to change ( the psychological nature of ?) 'what is'? I've come to the ( contemplating ?) point when I'm not moving away from what is, neither verbally nor intellectually nor in any ideological sense. I remain actually with 'what is'. Then what takes place?
Questioner: The 'I' disappears ?
Questioner: Then I am the 'present' ?
Krishnamurti: No, no. When you say 'I am' - who is the 'I'? You 'are' ( the impersonation of ?) that anger, you 'are' that jealousy, you 'are' that violence. Then what happens?
Questioner: It changes. The confusion goes away?
Krishnamurti: What takes place when you don't (mentally ?) 'move away' in any direction from 'what is', it doesn't matter what it is?
Questioner: You become (one with ?) the ( what is ?) 'observed'?
Questioner: No reaction?
Krishnamurti: Let me approach it differently. I have never looked at my ( psychological ?) conditioning. I've accepted it. I have lived with it. I've been (culturally conditioned as a ?) 'Hindu' and I have lived with it for 80 years . You (K ) come along and point out to me that I am ( culturally) conditioned and I begin to realize the implications of that conditioning; what it does, how it destroys (the inner sensitivity ?) , how it separates. In observing all this , the mind has become (inwardly ?) sensitive, which means 'intelligent'; observing itself directly in its ( 2-way ?) relation with the world it has become extraordinarily sensitive. Right? Now, that ( newly awakened ?) 'sensitivity' and that 'intelligence' is not 'personal'; ( the intrinsical quality of a holistic ?) intelligence is never personal, it's not 'my' intelligence. I don't know if you are following. The moment it is (getting) 'personal', it ceases to be (holistically ?) intelligent.
Questioner: We can't feel it.
Krishnamurti: Are you ( trying to be ) aware with your 'feeling'? You are aware with your mind and with your heart. You can't say I am aware with my feeling, or aware with my intellect. That's only another division. You're aware 'totally'.
(In a nutshell:) if you want to learn (about yourself) , look (non-verbally ?) . Can you look at 'what is' without the word? The (observation based on verbal recognition ?) is anchored in the past. The 'word' is the ( response of our past experience ?) and the word prevents you from looking (anew) at what is. So can the mind look at ( the dynamics of ?) 'what is' without the word and therefore not calling it 'jealousy' at all?
Questioner: You are 'seeing'.
Krishnamurti: You are just guessing, for the love of Pete!
Questioner: It really is 'what is'.
Krishnamurti: I have looked at 'what is' with the word 'jealousy' - an association with ( my experience of ?) the past. That's simple. So I am looking at what is with the 'eyes of the past'.
Questioner: But what is (the direct perception of the ?) the 'now'?
Krishnamurti: The ( direct perception of the ?) 'now' is only possible when you can look without the (aid of ?) words - without the (known experience of the ?) past. (Eg: Suppose that ?) I am (getting ?) greedy. That's a fact. Can I look at that (ongoing) 'fact' without (using ?) the (culturally loaded ?) word 'greedy', because the word 'greedy' has innumerable (bad ?) associations of non-virtue, it should or should not be. The word with its associations is rooted in the (collective experience of the ?) past. When I say 'I'm greedy', I am really looking at something which is new with the (knowledgeable ?) eyes of the old. Can I look without the 'eyes of the past', without (using ) the ( incriminating ?) word? (If ?) you do it, you will see what takes place.
To put it round the other way (in the relational context ?) , can you look at your wife or husband or your friend without the ( comforting ?) image you have built through thirty years or ten days about that person? Can you look without the image? You (apparently ?) can't, can you - but why not? I have lived with my wife for thirty years, she has nagged me, bullied me, I have dominated her and we have built images about each other in our relationship. Can I look at her or him without (my self-protecting ?) image? Then what is my relationship with my wife? Is it a relationship between two (convenient ?) images which we call love, relationship? The 'image' is ( synthesising our shared experience of ?) the past and that image has been built through constant repetition - adding (& updating ?) - you know what takes place. That relationship (based on ?) the 'image', is always based on the ( our self-centred experience of the ?) past therefore it is not a relationship at all.
Therefore, I see now that (the intricate dynamic of ?) 'what is', can be understood only when one can look without the image, without the word, without the (mental ) symbol. Then the mind meets the 'new' with a (sense of ?) freshness. The feeling of greed which arises is 'new' but the ( all controlling process of ?) thought says it is greedy. The word establishes it in the ( logic of the ?) past. Therefore (I assume that ?) I cannot do anything (constructive ?) about my greed. I can only suppress it, fight it and so on, but, when the mind can look at that greed without the word then the mind is a fresh mind, then it can deal ( holistically ?) with whatever there is.
I'll put the problem differently (socio-politically ?) . There is a challenge in this world that there must be a different order of things because there is tremendous social injustice, there is brutality, such appalling violence. That's the ( global) challenge. You have to meet it (creatively ?) since these challenges are always new, but the (specialised human ?) mind meets it with the old mind. So the (fragmentary or specialised) response to the (global) challenges is inadequate and therefore there is conflict. Whereas if the mind can look at the challenge without the response of the past there is a totally different kind of action.
Questioner: Isn't it making another (psychological) problem when I say ''I have to look at something as it is now?''
Krishnamurti: There is no (such) problem if you are in the act of learning. If I am 'learning' about my (ihnherited ?) violence it's not a problem, but if I come to it with a decision that there must be no violence, or violence is justified, that brings a problem. But if I see human minds are (traditionally ?) violent and aggressive, but want to learn about it all, I don't make a problem of it.
Questioner: What is a (psychological) 'problem'?
Krishnamurti: A thing that you cannot 'solve' (or end ?) . You carry it over the next day, you carry the (unsolved ?) burden with you. Whereas, if you say I will learn what is involved - which simply means to observe it.
So ( to recap:) the mind which began out of confusion now becomes clear. It is learning, not 'following' anybody, it is learning through (its own non-verbal & , non-dualistic ) observation. The mind becomes highly sensitive which means the (psycho-somatic) body also becomes sensitive.
Questioner: Could we consider the things you say in a radically different context, such as in meeting ( the 'real life' ) adversity?
Krishnamurti: You are saying, here we are and for an hour we have talked, we have understood somewhat, then we go outside and in 10 minutes we forget all about it and we are again caught in the ( dealing with adversity ?) trap. Is that it?
Questioner: It is the activity - but I have tried to participate in it.
Krishnamurti: Is the activity of your own (free will ?) or imposed by another? Is the speaker 'imposing' these things (on you) or are you ( personally involved in ? ) watching your own activity? If you are (learning to ?) watch (non-dualistically ?) your own activity when you go outside you will still be watching it, you will still be learning about it. But if you have only been 'forced' to listen to that speaker for an hour, then it (the learning) is not yours, then you are caught in the ('reality' ?) trap. If it is yours, not another's, then you cannot lose it, you become a light to yourself and not the light of somebody else.
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2ND K PUBLIC DIALOGUE , SYDNEY, 1970
THE HOLISTIC APPROACH TO SELF-KNOWLEDGE
K: What shall we talk over this morning together?
Questioner: I would like to talk about education, not education only for the young but for the old as well; and, about religion, not my religion or their religion but religion, God, the truth, and about the dignity of man, to be one with life, all life.
Krishnamurti: Is that what we all want to discuss?
Questioner: Could we bring self-knowledge into that?
Krishnamurti: I think we can begin with what is 'self-knowledge' and go into this question (of holistic ?) education and so on. Would that be all right?
Krishnamurti: I believe the Greeks and before them the Asiatics, started to find out what is 'knowledge' and what is the 'self'.
And when we say 'self-knowledge', is it that we want to understand a 'self' which is ( assumed to be ?) 'permanent' - or is it a 'learning' about the movement of (our 'self-centred' consciousness ?) ? There are two things involved in this. One, to study something (static) that is there, like the microphone; I can study it, I can learn about it and it is (not moving from) there. Now, is the 'self' (always ?) there, or is it a movement, something that is constantly in motion, and therefore not 'permanent' (not always identical with itself ?) ? One has to find out: is the 'self' (consciousness ?) something that endures, that is 'permanent' or is it something that is constantly in motion, constantly changing. So when we say 'self-knowledge', is it the knowledge of a 'self' which is the permanent, or the understanding of what the 'self' actually is? Is the self something 'static', enduring or is it something that has to be understood (as a constantly changing 'movement' in time ?) ?
Questioner: What do you (K ?) mean by the 'self'?
Krishnamurti: We are going to find out together. You know, as we said yesterday, (an authentic ?) 'communication' implies understanding together, learning together, sharing together, otherwise there is no (shared ?) communication. So, it is not 'what I mean', but let us find out together what we mean by the 'self'.
What is this 'self' that is always asserting (itself ?) , the self that demands fulfilment, the self that perpetuates itself through ( strong attachments and?) identification, the self that is constantly in action and creating its own (identitary ?) centre and therefore isolating itself. What is this 'self'? According to the Christians it is the 'soul'; according to the Hindus - the 'atman', and so on; therefore when we talk about the 'self' what do we mean by that word, the 'me'?
Questioner: Where do we actually look to find out? What do we watch to find out?
Krishnamurti: To find out what the 'self' is, one has to watch its activity, actually its daily action, in our relationships, otherwise you cannot examine it. Living is ( being in ) relationship, so one can find out what the 'self' (really) is only in relationship. So, what does it mean to be related?
Questioner: To be in communication with other people and the environment.
Krishnamurti: To be in contact, to respond to any kind of challenge, is also part of relationship. Let us go slowly. What is (our daily ?) relationship? I am related to my wife, to my husband, to my family. There is a relationship, that is, I am in contact not only physically but also psychologically.
Relationship means contact, ( a sense of ?) being together. But am I (really) related, in contact? Apart from physical contact with my wife, with my husband, with my children, am I related? Are you?
Questioner: On rare occasions.
Krishnamurti: On rare occasions. Then you are not related to your wife or children or neighbours except on rare occasions. Is that so?
Questioner: Not always, sometimes it's bad and sometimes good.
Krishnamurti: Madam, let's be simple about all this. I am married - I'm not, thank the Lord - I'm married and I am supposed to be in relationship with my wife. Apart from the physical contact, sexual and so on, is there any relationship at all?
Questioner: Is it just a series of habits?
Questioner: Isn't the relationship just conditioning?
Krishnamurti: I go to the office, I am ambitious, competitive, and worshipping success. And my wife also pursues her own ambitions, her own greeds and all the rest of it. We may meet physically but psychologically we are ( pretty much ?) isolated, aren't we? Except ( the romantic moments ?) when I say: 'I love you'. Look what happens (inwardly) . I have lived with my wife for twenty years or ten days. During that time I have built a (pretty realistic ?) 'image' about her. She has responded in a certain way, nagged me, got angry, this or that and I have built an image about her and she has built an image about me.
Questioner: Because I don't know myself.
Krishnamurti: But, the fact is you have an image, isn't that so? Is not that 'image' (an active component of the ?) the 'me'?
Questioner: Is the 'image' necessarily entirely wrong?
Krishnamurti: I don't say it is right or wrong. It is a (psychological ?) fact.
Questioner: Aren't you forgetting 'affinity'?
Krishnamurti: Affinity, love, tenderness, goodness, that is the (emotional ?) outcome of this interaction between the two (self-centred ?) images. If we refuse to face this fact then we wander off into a kind of abstraction.
Questioner: Isn't this happening just on the 'personality' level, whereas we can look at ourselves in terms of the 'higher' self ?
Krishnamurti: The higher self and the lower self, the soul and the body, we'll come to that. ( But in the context of our daily relationships ?) the 'me' is a ( self-stichting ?) 'bundle of images', memories, which has been built through centuries. The father says 'me'. The mother says 'me'. And the child also says 'me'.
Questioner: How does the 'self' perpetuate itself?
Krishnamurti: The self perpetuates (itself) through ( a constantly refreshed and updated ?) 'identification', doesn't it? With my son, my wife, my house, my furniture (and with my future 'goals' ?) .
Questioner: Or with my 'troubles' ?
Krishnamurti: My troubles, my anxieties, and all the rest of it. This ( self-stitching process of ?) identififying oneself with 'something' (or other) perpetuates ( is giving a 'future' to ?) the 'me'. ( I may identify myself with my furniture which is very old, and I value it because one day I will sell it and I will get lots of money. So, the (mental 'image' of my ) furniture has become more important than 'me'. See the 'tricks' which we are playing on ourselves and each other. Through identification with that, 'that' (the object of my identification ?) becomes all important, not the ( good old ?) 'me' which identifies (hides ?) itself (behind these self-stitching images ?) .
Questioner: Does this mean then that the 'search for truth' equates with a constant review (and updating ?) of our images?
Questioner: So, (basically) we identify because we are afraid to look at that which we 'are', we feel safe in ( our 'imaginary' ?) possessions.
Krishnamurti: We are 'learning' about ourselves aren't we? Are you learning about yourself as we are talking, watching yourself, watching how you respond, how you identify, why there is this division between me and you, we and they, why all this battle all through life?
Questioner: If we didn't have all these 'images' there'd be no 'self' ?
Krishnamurti: Madam, this ( image making mechanism ?) is what is going on in our (psychological ?) life, isn't it? Why does this happen, who is responsible for this?
Questioner: What gives life to the 'image'?
Krishnamurti: What do you think?
Questioner: It's all a process of the 'me', a (mental) device whereby if we have a success, we want to repeat it.
Krishnamurti: So, Sir, I am really concerned to learn about myself. To learn means I must observe, I must learn, find out what it is. so will you discard completely what others have said (on this matter ?)
Questioner: Is it possible to discard what we have heard, when we have listened and found out?
Krishnamurti: I am not interested at all what others have said ( regarding self-knowledge ?) . I have never read books on what the others have said, fortunately. I want to find out, so I look, I observe, I can observe that only in my ( daily ?) relationship; how I react, anger, jealousy, hate, envy, violence, domination, suppression; I watch the whole movement (of my responses ?) , So, it is important to find out 'how' I watch, not what I watch. The manner of watching, the art of observing is much more important than the thing you observe. The 'art of seeing' is much more important than that which you look at. Now, how do you look? Please apply yourselves, and find out how you look.
Questioner: By being open to what you see ?
Krishnamurti: No, Sir, let's begin very 'simply'. How do you look at a tree?
Questioner: I am looking at the tree without thinking. I don't think: 'isn't that beautiful ?' It just 'is'.
Krishnamurti: Just find out: do you look at it with the word? Do you look at the tree with the word, that it is an 'oak' tree, an 'eucalyptus' tree ?
Questioner: No, I look just for enjoyment.
Krishnamurti: Wait Sir, we are coming to something much more complicated - you will see presently how complex it becomes. The tree doesn't affect you. It doesn't touch you 'psychologically' (personally ?) . You can observe it casually. You can observe it without the word, without botanical knowledge, you can look at it without any thoughts.
Questioner: When I look at a tree, I am part of that tree, because to me it is something alive and it is something that I am part of .
Krishnamurti: You say you are part of that tree. Do you know what that means?
Questioner: How can I describe that which is a wondrous state of being?
Krishnamurti: I will show you: when you look at something, at a tree or a cloud, a mountain or water, you look at it with a 'space' (a psychological distance ?) between you and it. There is not only the 'physical' space but the (psychological ?) space created by ( the self-centred process of ?) thought. That tree is in 'my' garden. There is this ( 'mine' vs 'not mine' ?) division.
Questioner: It is something quite new.
Krishnamurti: It is not a question of something new, Madam, but to do it.
Questioner: I mean it is 'new' in the doing.
Krishnamurti: This 'doing' is ( in terms of a time-free perceptive ?) action, not you 'think it out' and then 'act'.
Questioner: Is this the case when someone is totally absorbed in something?
Krishnamurti: A child is getting totally absorbed in a toy, if you give him a new toy he plays with it for the rest of the day and there is no mischief. Most of us do the same, we want to get absorbed in something : the religious person is supposed to be absorbed in the idea of Jesus, Saviour, Christ, God. He is ( indeed getting ) absorbed but he still doesn't know anything about himself, so that is a very easy (mental) trick, to be absorbed in something so as to forget yourself.
Questioner: Isn't that good to 'forget yourself'?
Krishnamurti: Can you (really ?) 'forget yourself', though you have identified yourself with something? That very identification is the continuance of the self. And I don't want to look at myself ( beyond the image I'm identified with ?) because I am frightened to look at myself.
Questioner: I meant by absorption, not to have thought coming in when I look at a tree.
Krishnamurti: You see, Sir, a whole question is involved in that. When the observer separates himself from the thing observed that division brings conflict. People have tried centuries ago taking a form of drug that destroys the time and the distance - space - so that there is immediate perception. Now they are taking LSD and various forms of psychedelic drugs. You know all about it? Every colour becomes extraordinarily clear. The ordinary leaf that I look at as I pass by becomes a leaf with such colour, such potency, such beauty, such vitality, and that's tremendously absorbing because the ( psychological 'distance' or ?) division between the 'observer' and the (thing) 'observed' disappears. You are directly in contact. That same thing can happen but with much greater reality when (and 'if' ?) you understand this whole process of building images.
Questioner: Couldn't you think without memory?
Krishnamurti: You cannot Sir. Amnesia. You couldn't go home if you didn't think, if you had no memory. You would just be wandering about.
Questioner: Can there be a (pure) consciousness without thought?
Krishnamurti: Is (our everyday consciousness ?) made up of the content or is it independent of the content? Isn't it ( tainted by its active psychological ?) 'content', the ( self-centred ?) thoughts, the anxieties, the miseries, the suffering, the ambition, the violence, that makes up ( our self-)consciousness or is our consciousness empty of all that? The ( psychologically active ?) content makes the consciousness, obviously. Let's leave that for now.
We think thought can solve all our problems. It can't. Thought being (the response of our ?) 'old' (experience) cannot respond to the new, and life is new. All this which is happening ( within and ?) around us is totally new, and thought is always responding in terms of the past. Look Sirs, a 'psychological' revolution is absolutely necessary, because we have to change (inwardly) , we have to bring about a totally different way of living. And thought, the ( educated response of our ?) 'past' tries to understand the present but it has never succeeded. Go into this seriously to find out how to act, without the ( psychological support of the ?) past. We must have ( objective) knowledge to function; to go to the moon requires tremendous scientific knowledge.
Questioner: Thought? Memory?
Krishnamurti: Thought, memory; but how does that operate? Let's take a simple example: You tell me what a marvellous person I am. I like it (because you confirm my existing self-image) . (And from the same stroke ?) I have also built an image (of you : ) 'you are my friend'. But if (later) you say something which I don't like, I have formed another image (updating the old one ?) . So, this 'image' (making) pattern is based on the pleasure principle. Watch it in yourself. I have built an image because you have said something pleasurable or not pleasurable. I carry that image when I meet you next. I am that image. Next time I meet you, 'you are my friend' and so on. Can this ( mental ?) machinery stop? That is, when you insult me, to be completely attentive at that moment, attentive in the sense of listening to you totally, without any reaction, neither accepting nor rejecting your insult, just listening completely, which means complete attention (or attending completely ?) . This ( non-reacting attention of the ?) mind listening to the insult and to the flattery doesn't leave a mark, therefore no ( need to create any ?) 'image' (about anybody ?) , and therefore it is an (image-free ?) mind that is so sensitive, alert, watchful that the ( image-creating ?) 'me' doesn't exist, because the 'me' is the image (making mechanism and its 'imaginary' collection ?) .
Questioner: You have often used the word 'conflict'. Does this necessarily mean a negative state or can it be a positive one?
Krishnamurti: Can conflict be 'positive' or 'negative'? You have ( accumulated a whole collection of ?) conflicts, hundreds of them: in the office, at home, when you are playing golf, when you are doing anything there is this battle going on, and from that battle, neurosis; you know, the whole pattern of modern existence; quarrels between husband and wife, the constant striving, struggling - why? First of all, one has accepted it as a 'natural' thing. You have lived with it for so long that you have accepted it. You don't say to yourself I must find out, why? Why should I live this way? I will show the mechanism of it: conflict exists because there is (in us a dualistic mentality ?) duality . That is simple isn't it? Duality is ( breeding its own ?) contradiction: 'I must be'. 'I must not be'. Conflict exists because you have the ideal of 'what you will be' and the ( subliminal) fear of what you might be (of what might happen if the ideal situation is not achieved ?) . Conflict also exists because we are always comparing ourselves with somebody who has a bigger car, bigger house, better jewels. All our (social ?) life is (based on ?) comparing. So comparison, ideals, principles, ( fool proof ?) formulas - all these create a duality. So you never see actually ( the actual truth about) 'what is' (or what you are ?) .
So, once the mind is free from all comparison, which means ( a herd mentality based on ?) imitation, conformity, obedience to a principle, to an idea and so on, then the mind observes actually 'what it is'. To observe actually what is... am I looking at it through a ( knowledgeable screen of ?) words? Am I looking at myself with the (mental) 'image' which the words have created, 'I am dull'? Am I looking at myself with a series of associations, a series of words, a series of conclusions, or am I looking at myself without any of these?
Questioner: Are impulsive feelings a direct response to living?
Krishnamurti: What do you mean by 'impulsive'? You mean spontaneous? Are we ever spontaneous or are we always (spontaneously ?) responding (according ) to our conditioning, though we may (improperly) call it 'spontaneity'? The other day I met somebody who came to see me, and that person said: ''I am free at last, I have gone into this question of freedom greatly, studied it, and I am free, and therefore I have become a Catholic''. (Laughter) You may laugh, but that person was very serious and he is spreading what he thinks is truth. He thinks that it is spontaneous because he is free. So to understand what 'is' freedom, and therefore the action in freedom, one has to go into this question of the conditioning of the mind, the whole conditioned mind, how the mind is conditioned by propaganda of ten thousand years: the religious, the political, the propaganda of the family. we are slaves to propaganda. Can the mind observe all this propaganda and be free of it? Then only, can you talk about freedom in action.
Questioner: Listening is the hardest thing, I've found.
Krishnamurti: I wonder why. Do you ever listen (totally) ? Or do you listen 'partially' (in the self-protected mode ?) ? There are two things involved aren't there? There is 'hearing' and 'listening'. When you 'hear' (verbally) you may either agree or disagree, you say - I agree with him, because I like it or I don't like it, he is convincing or he is not convincing. But when you are actually 'listening' (non-verbally ?) , that means giving your complete attention, what takes place? What takes place when you are giving your whole attention, attention being your mind, your heart, your nerves, your body, everything... listening? Your mind is completely quiet isn't it? Not arguing, agreeing, disagreeing, opposing or forming any opinion. It is an act of complete listening. In that act of listening there is actual communion, isn't there? Communion, in the sense of complete relationship. There is no misunderstanding. And we never do this. We never give our whole attention to anything. We only have learnt what it is to concentrate. To concentrate means exclusion. Therefore, concentration is not attention. In attention there are no 'borders'
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|John Perkins... United States 11 posts in this forum ACCOUNT DELETED||
"What are actually the K-Teachings?"
John Raica's thread question here can be read two ways. There is the way that John has himself followed it up, which is to pick out certain elements of them that might be seen as key: and there is the sense in which the question might be intended to mean eg. 'are the Teachings the result of some sort of critical and minute intellectual examination of the world of man?'; Or 'might they be the result of some altogether 'higher being' whispering as it were, in K's ear for sixty years?'; Or again, 'could they result from an individual's brain becoming attuned to the universe of which it is an integral part, and the mouth and voice box of that person then simply acting as an implement to spew-forth the 'vibrations' it feels? It boils down I think to whether we choose to emphasis the 'are' or the 'actually'.
Perhaps other people can imagine possible alternative options in the 'are' reading to my three, that we might be interested to peruse?
If, John Raica, you should consider this perhaps something of a corruption of your thread and you would rather, on that account, that I shift it to a new title - and if you'd have no objection to that - (I'm wary of flooding your previously essentially 'four thread' forum with too many additions), please say so and I'll be happy to comply. Or even if you'd be happier if I scrapped it altogether. I'm easy on it.
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Hello John. I didn't explain myself clearly. By the 'two possible readings' of the thread question, as the latter one what I intended would place the emphasis on the word 'What'. By this, what I would be asking is 'what might be their very nature and derivation?' In other words, to give one possible example, might K be an implement (the mouth piece) of the universe? Or might he have been an extraordinarily clever prankster? Or might his intellect have been so overreachingly massive as to leave all the rest of us (almost literally) 'in the dark'?
Does this make any clearer what I was trying to get across? Or do I still leave it as clear as mud?
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Yes, this is what I was driving at, but I have a very specific take on this matter.
It appears to me that everything living thing that could be said to have consciousness acts, in a sense, as an instrument of the universe. An examination of eg. a spider's brain will in no way indicate its capacity to produce the engineering miracle that is its web. And this is true of a veritable myriad living creatures. It seems to me in fact that every living creature that doesn't have an 'I' blocking its path, can (and does) perform to the full capacity of its sensory system (to include the brain) to interact perfectly with the universe in its entirety.
K, having a human brain and with the 'I' out of the way, does what all such human brains would (or will) naturally do, which is to describe for his fellows the phenomenon of 'universal consciousness'; their, as it were birthright.
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|John Raica Canada 516 posts in this forum Offline||
Yes, but I would rather call this 'I' the survivalistic, or temporal, meant basically to protect one's physical body, family, tribe, etc. As for the deeper zones of our consciousness there may -or not- be an 'individuality' beyond that of the earthly survival. And I agree, this 'terrestrial' interface being set aside, the universality of the human consciousness can express itsel freely
But I would like to add to my previous post that regarding the universal 'source' of the Teachings, it may be much more a matter of pure and intelligent form of energy - which simply 'is' and 'gives light' - and in that 'light' of universal intelligence the human brain can 'see' the truth or falseness of everything. If this is the case, then K actually re-discovered most of these Teachings by his own direct observation of how the human brain works in its various inter-relationships - therefore himself being the 'first beneficiary' of it ( see also his saying that 'We don't all have to be Edisons, (since if the electricity & wiring has been provided and the electrical 'wiring' already installed ?) we can simply turn the 'light switch' on '( see also ' Be a light for yourself ! )
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1ST K PUBLIC DIALOGUE BROCKWOOD 1969 (reader friendly edited)
ATTENTION AND ENERGY
Questioner: To observe the process of duality does the mind function as a mirror to observe the observer?
Krishnamurti: Is that the only question you would like to discuss? Perhaps if we put half-a-dozen questions together, we might find the central issue which will cover all the other questions.
Questioner: Thought appears to be quite separate. If one can become aware of what is happening in ( the area of our everyday ) thinking, it appears to be separate from the 'observer'.
Questioner: Could we discuss what it means to bring the 'observer' to look deeply within?
Questioner: Sir, could we also discuss this question of energy? It seems to me that we fritter away what little energy we do have in various automatic habits.
Questioner: Could we talk about the use of drugs as a means of coming upon self-awareness?
Questioner: One more question. When some characteristic response comes up in me and I go into it as deeply, as thoroughly as I can, for the time being, under that observation it dissolves or goes away. Then a few days, or a few minutes later, it is there again. And then maybe I try to see it clearly again and it may dissolve and come back again. The question coming out of this is: if it comes back, is the problem really solved, or is it (going on) within me all the time? Then is this 'true work', or whatever you want to call it?
Questioner: Must one go through some psychotherapy first? Does one have to have some ( basic inner) clarity before one can go on to deal with the problem of duality? Mustn't one be at a certain point of health?
Questioner: That is interesting, Sir, because so many people are neurotic or disturbed in specific ways which they have difficulties with.
Krishnamurti: I think we have had enough questions. All right, let's take that question, shall we? Perhaps if we take that we can cover all the others.
Questioner: Sir, isn't a great deal of this due to our not giving these small ills attention, because we let our imagination dwell on them and they become much larger than they really are?
Krishnamurti: I'm just finding out whether a sick person, who is (struggling ?) physically, has the energy to look at himself. We are not desperately ill, but we are not in the best of health; we are always slightly on the verge of being ill. Will such a state allow me to look at myself? Or is that slight ill health going to become a barrier to looking at myself?
Questioner: In order to look at yourself, mustn't you be rid of all worry? Mustn't you cut yourself off from the world, from its troubles and your troubles? If you have worries you won't be able to look at yourself.
Krishnamurti: You are saying, are you, that one must completely retire from the world..?
Questioner: ...and worry. just forget about it, that's the thing.
Krishnamurti: That is, withdraw completely and look at oneself. Is that possible? How do you discover what you are? Only in relationship, in communication with another.
Questioner: I mean, if we do have ( our own) worries it will be a lot harder.
Krishnamurti: Then I have to watch my worries, how they come about, whether they are self-created or being imposed and so on, I have to enquire into that. But to say I must withdraw from all worry and then look at myself, that is impossible. Even if you withdrew into a monastery or became a beggar wandering about - as is done in India - you would still be in communication with others.
Questioner: What about meditative love, won't that shoot through everything, make everything clear?
Krishnamurti: How can I have this 'love' and meditate, when there is all this confusion in me? So, being somewhat neurotic, can I look at myself? Will my neurosis allow me to look at myself? If it is very deep mustn't I have some therapy, both physical as well as psychological? Mustn't I go to an analyst and under that therapy begin to discover myself? This is really quite a deep ( and costly ?) problem for human beings. (Suppose ?) I have been ( psychologically ) wounded in my youth - emotionally - and that wound remains and (subliminally ?) shapes my outlook. And if the ( psychological) memory of that (hurt) is so strong, then what am I to do with that wound, which may have been inflicted by the family, by the father, the mother, the environment - how am I to be rid of that memory, that conditioning?
Questioner: Not only that, Sir -but I can't even find (identify) that 'memory', or I mistake it - I am looking at the wrong thing.
Krishnamurti: Yes, I may look at the wrong thing, I don't know what has wounded me or what has disturbed me, I've been analysed for the last ten years, spent enormous sums of money, everybody has been trying to help me out of this conditioning. Then what am I to do?
Questioner: You have to 'live in the present', absolutely.
Krishnamurti: Madam, how can I live in the present? Please put yourself in that position: when I do know that I am slightly, or deeply unbalanced, can I be aware of it? Can I see that I am unbalanced, sexually, physically, emotionally? . Can I become aware of it ? Or if you you show it to me; am I willing to look at it?
Questioner: It seems to me, that the really essential factor in psychotherapy is not the ( amount of ) knowledge or experience of the analyst, but the freedom which exists in that relationship.
Krishnamurti: That is the question, isn't it? Freedom. Am I free to listen or am I resisting?
Questioner: If you are 'free to listen' you have already made a step (in the right direction) .
Krishnamurti: Quite right, I am 'breaking through'. But if I don't listen, what happens then?
Questioner: What about ( psycho-therapeutical ?) drugs? Would that help?
Krishnamurti: Would a drug help me to look at myself - to look at my fear, at my neurosis? Or would the drug give me an 'artificial'(-ly stimulated ?) experience?
Questioner: Sometimes that experience helps you to look at yourself.
Krishnamurti: Therefore I get dependent on the drug.
Questioner: You don't have to.
Krishnamurti: Wait, I take the drug, LSD or whatever it is, and it helps me to watch myself. And the (intensity of) watching fades away; I cannot watch myself all the time, all my old conditioning comes up and prevents me from looking because I'm afraid to look at myself. The drug may help me to (momentarily ?) quieten that fear, so that I can look. But the fear is there.
Questioner: The fear is there, but sometimes it is an unknown fear and the drug brings it out into the air.
Krishnamurti: Yes, Sir, sometimes it may help one to bring it out. But surely that's not good enough. I can also take a drink sometimes and become relaxed. All my conditioning (temporarily ?) breaks down. But that doesn't last long.
Questioner: After the drug has worn off you would forget everything, wouldn't you? Would you forget even what you had learnt whilst you were under the drug?
Krishnamurti: Probably not - I don't know if you have taken it, I have not. But I feel that to depend on something for ( your direct ?) perception, chemically, or through repetition of words or drink and so on, indicates that there is ( a blocking ?) fear. And that ( unknown?) fear is only exaggerated, sustained by (the drug) dependence.
Questioner: We talk about drugs, but I think that we don't have a clear idea what we mean. I think that we have prejudices. We say,'This is a drug' and that we call 'natural'. And I think something like fresh air can be a drug also. For instance, we might be living in a city like New York. I'm not able to see clearly and it's because of this (polluted) air; I have to get out into the country and breathe fresh air. To me that's a drug. I mean, anything that we reach out for in order to change, in order to become more sensitive, we can look at as a drug.
Krishnamurti: Sir, I don't know if you have ever fasted - just for the fun of it. If you have, it gives you a certain perception, you become much clearer if you do it only for a few days. If you have fasted for a few days, it makes the body extraordinarily sensitive, alert, watchful. But... will you keep that up, will you fast every two weeks in order to watch yourself all the time, to become more alert?
Questioner: Sir, the drug is supposed to be a kind of vehicle to take you to yourself through all your inhibitions, your fears and all the things that keep you from knowing yourself. You may know them then, but I think you would only get a lasting effect, if you went into yourself without drugs. If you got to know your fears - which you don't with drugs - and finally reached yourself, wouldn't you know yourself a bit more? You would not have to take a drug every day to find out. I mean, if you reached yourself without drugs, if you went through your fears, you would know yourself far better. With the drugs, you get to yourself, but you don't see your fears, your inhibitions, you don't see what is blocking you (in your everyday life) . You understand better, if you understand what is blocking you.
Krishnamurti: That is what we are saying. Put it in any way you like. Take what is much simpler and more direct: I am in relationship with my wife, with my friend - whatever it is. Why can't I use that ( interacting ?) relationship to watch myself ? There is my life right in front of me, every minute I'm living in relationship.
Questioner: But you said before that (most of us are ?) neurotic.
Krishnamurti: Wait a minute, if I am neurotic, will drugs help me to get over my neurosis? So you are saying, take them for a while, take them once, so as to get over the first step?
Questioner: Must I use all these (artificial) means, or do something else? If I take no drugs, what shall I do to (in order to be able to ) look at myself?
Krishnamurti: All these are ways of 'escaping from oneself' - drugs, entertainment, cinemas, books, all kinds of things which are part of (our modern) life. But I say, let's find out if there is not a simpler way.
Questioner: If I don't know ( the actual causes of ?) it, can I deal with it?
Krishnamurti: If I don't know that I am 'off balance', if I won't listen to anybody - that (incapacity to listen) is part of my neurotic (steady) state .
Questioner: Someone like this is usually very dependent on other people.
Krishnamurti: Yes. So what am I to do?
Questioner: Well, I think that when we learn something, when we 'know' something, then it is changed.
Krishnamurti: Not quite so easy, Sir! I know I dislike (some ?) people - that is part of my neurosis. I have been hurt by people, they have brutalized me - at school, or later, in ten different ways. They have made me a hard, (shrewd & ?) cruel entity. I know it - but I can't get rid of it just by knowing it. Then I want to find out how to get rid of it, how to become fairly quiet and gentle. . Can I undo ( or delete ?) all the (psychological ?) damage that has been done to me?
Questioner: You just mentioned 'suffering', Sir, and it seems to me that for many people that becomes the central issue because they struggle to get out of that suffering.
Krishnamurti: Yes, Sir, that is so. We are putting the same thing in different words, aren't we? The conflict, the pain, the confusion, the misery - the 'seed' is there, which is producing all these things. So how am I to be rid of it?
Questioner: You've often spoken of the need to see that we must change totally. And you've also spoken of the fact that we have to look at ourselves without wanting to change what we see. Isn't there some kind of contradiction there?
Krishnamurti: Is there?
Questioner: To me there is, I don't fully understand that.
Krishnamurti: Can I look at one thing so 'completely' that everything is included in that? Let's go slowly. I am aware that I am neurotic and I know the cause of this imbalance. Merely knowing it doesn't resolve it - I go on being neurotic. Now what am I to do? It's like a compulsive eater who has to eat enormous quantities all the time. He knows he is compulsive, people have told him to watch it - but he goes on.
Questioner: It seems to have its own 'momentum'. If there is something (deeper) which gives it a momentum it's hard to stop.
Krishnamurti: Sir, let's try this: each one of us must know his own particular (neurotic ?) 'kink'. Knowing it, let us see if the understanding of the cause which has brought this about will end it.
Questioner: Do we really understand the actual cause of it? We see the superficial cause and we think we see the 'real' cause - if there is a cause in that sense.
Krishnamurti: There may be ten different causes (at various levels ?).
Questioner: Even the psychologists say that if we know it only intellectually, not dynamically, we haven't really seen it.
Krishnamurti: That's the point. It is one of the most difficult (psychological) things to say, 'one cause has produced this effect ' - there may be many different (intermingled ?) causes. Also, there is something much more involved in this - whether it is ( an actual separation between a ?) cause and its effect. The cause becomes the (further) effect, and that effect becomes the (next) cause - this ( causal continuity ?) goes on all the time; that is quite a different matter (to be explored later ?) .But (for starters) let's look at this: knowing the cause 'intellectually' - can I dissolve it? I can't. So, we have to find a way of dissolving (deleting ?) it completely - and what is that?
Questioner: Don't we have to look at it in action?
Krishnamurti: I feel angry, violent, and I hit you. Must I go to that extent?
Questioner: No, but we know (from listening to you) that if one looks at anger at the time (it occurs) , the anger dissolves.
Krishnamurti: ( To recap:) The mere knowing of the cause and its effect doesn't dissolve it. Therefore, I must enter (delve ?) into it, I must have a (passionate ?) feeling about it. And I haven't got it - what am I to do? I can see intellectually why I am in this state and there I ( move to something else or ?) stop. How am I to feel (about solving ?) this thing so strongly that I 'do' something about it?
Questioner: In psychotherapy ideally one forms a (working ?) relationship which ( helps you) go inside of this, because somebody else is going inside it with you.
Krishnamurti: You mean that someone (knowledgeable) is helping you to go into yourself, into this whole problem. Whether it is the guru, or the psychoanalyst, or your friend - someone else is helping you. Now isn't this what is (subliminally ?) being done now? Don't call it 'group therapy' (but a 'shared learning' ?) . Isn't this what is going on now?
Questioner: By 'now', you mean 'here'?
Krishnamurti: Here. You tell me that I am ( psychologically speaking ?) 'neurotic' (out of balance ?) and I listen to you. I say, 'Yes, you may be right, I (kind of ?) know it intellectually'. But you ( K) say, 'Don't look at it intellectually, let's go into it together more deeply, emotionally and feel it'. You are 'helping' me but there is a point (of your direct perception ?) where you cannot help me any more.
Questioner: Sir, must one not do away with 'aids' and 'escapes' to start with? - they must be out of the way.
Krishnamurti: Now I've reached the point when I see I must tackle it deep down, in the sense that I must 'feel it' with my whole being. You have ( therapeutically ?) helped me to come to that point (of having an insight into it ?) . After that I have to do it by myself.
Questioner: One feels one often lacks the energy (or the 'enthusiasm' for doing it ?).
Krishnamurti: Wait a minute, we are just coming to that. You have 'helped' me to (honestly ?) watch myself and become aware of my 'neurosis', together we have gone into this up to a certain point. All that has required ( a sharing of ?) energy and attention; I've listened to you because I really want to solve this problem. It is a tremendous burden for me, I can't get on with people, I am feeling miserable and unhappy. And you have helped me to come to that point, first intellectually, then a little more deeply. Now I am (left ?) there and you can't help me any more. Can you help me to go much deeper or can you only help me up to a certain point?
Questioner: How do I know I have reached this point?
Krishnamurti: I've tried, I've experimented, I've tested ( done my 'homework' ?)
Questioner: It can be of tremendous value to be helped up to that point.
Questioner: Our questions may be part of the trouble. Perhaps it is because we start out with the idea of someone 'helping' us.
Krishnamurti: I'm coming to that, Madam, you'll see it in a minute. What is involved in this question is: you have (already ?) helped me up to a point.
Questioner: Sir, once this (K ?) person has helped you, isn't there a danger that you might be dependent on him and you don't really 'feel it' for yourself?
Krishnamurti: I am questioning the whole ('group therapy' ?) method, Sir! I am saying to myself, you are supposed to have helped me, you have led me, we have walked together up to a certain point.
Questioner: But then won't you become dependent on me (on K) when we get to this point?
Krishnamurti: Why can't I realize this at the very beginning? Why should I go through all this to come to that point?
Questioner: No one in the world can help you all the way.
Krishnamurti: Don't say that! You have helped me to realize that you cannot help me. Do see that point, Sir. Please have the patience. We have walked together, you have pointed out the dangers, you have shown my states to me very clearly, both verbally and non-verbally. You have 'held my hand' - you have done everything. And I say, but that's very little, it helps only to a certain degree. So suddenly I realize: why should I have (to rely on ?) your help at all? Why can't I do this myself right from the beginning?
Questioner: If one gets to see that, then one has reached a certain intelligence.
Krishnamurti: Therefore, what does that mean? Can I see that point (right from my ?) my neurotic state? A dozen things are offered - drugs, analyst, sunshine, group therapy, individual therapy, sitting (silently) together for twenty four hours, feeling more sensitive by touching the trees - they are doing all these things (for fun & profit ?) . Some people may say, 'I need all that'. If you want to do that, all right. But ( as a mature person ?) I am saying to myself, must I go through all this - go to college to become sensitive? Or I overeat, indulge sexually, do all kinds of things in order to destroy my sensitivity and then I take a (magic ?) drug to become sensitive - you follow? Therefore I am saying to myself, how am I to become extraordinarily alert to ( psychological danger of indulging in ?) my own 'neurotic' state? What will give me the (passionate ?) energy, the drive, the intensity to say, I'll go through it myself right from the beginning?'
Questioner: Maybe a 'crisis' could mean anything in relation to this ?
Krishnamurti: Crisis means a shock, a major challenge, something that demands your attention. A 'crisis' is only possible when there is a challenge. And if you respond to it actively, adequately, the crisis is not a (blocking ?) crisis. But I cannot - I am weak.
Questioner: Doesn't the very 'wanting to do it' give you the energy?
Krishnamurti: The very 'want' is a waste of energy! Wait, can we discuss that (academically ?) for the moment - how to bring all one's energy into this?
Questioner: The looking on the unhappiness in the world and the desire to understand myself.
Krishnamurti: ( unfortunately ?) I haven't that 'desire' - the whole world is helping me to 'escape' from ( honestly facing ?) myself. The religions, the books, the philosophers, the analysts, everybody says: for God's sake don't (bother to ?) look! (Laughter) Our 'desire' is for greater (and more diversified ?) sensations. I desire that in the looking at myself I'll have greater pleasure; otherwise I won't have desire. If there is no reward, why should I have a desire?
Questioner: Is it possible to be in pain and not desire to be out of pain?
Krishnamurti: Sir, if you have got toothache, it is a natural thing to get rid of it, isn't it? And sometimes you can't. If you have a headache or whatever it is, you take aspirin, and if it goes on what do you do then?
Questioner: You just suffer the pain.
Krishnamurti: If you identify yourself with the suffering, there is conflict, isn't there? But if it is not so violently painful, I can 'watch' it (unfolding ?) . There is no identifying with the pain, no saying I must get rid of it, I must fight it, resist it.
Questioner: Isn't acceptance ( another form of ?) resistance?
Krishnamurti: Sir, have you never noticed, if a dog is barking all the time and you cannot do anything about it, what do you do? Resist it?
Krishnamurti: What happens then - you are fighting it and you become more and more awake.
Questioner: Can't one go the other way round so that one becomes more relaxed?
Krishnamurti: So what do you do?
Questioner: You can 'listen' to it.
Krishnamurti: Which means what? Don't resist it - listen to it, don't fight it, go with it. In India it happens often that a dog is barking for hours. Either you fight it or you go with it, join it. In the same way, when there is great pain, unless it is unbearable, I go with it - there is no resistance, no saying, `I must get rid of it immediately,.
Questioner: I think if something is important enough to the well-being of the brain, then the energy is concentrated there, but if it is not important enough there will be no energy.
Krishnamurti: So you are saying, Sir, if the thing is important enough, there is the energy.
Questioner: But all I know is, one has only to observe it to get over it.
Krishnamurti: If you are interested in getting rid of your fear, then you have the energy. That is what you are saying. But if I am not interested?
Questioner: I didn't say 'interested', I didn't say 'intellectual interest'.
Krishnamurti: How do you bring about this vital interest to face fear? One says take a drug or do various things that will help you to look, to be really involved in it.
Questioner: I come to a point where my mind puts the 'fear' into words. And I see that even my mind is a sort of analyst.
Questioner: It cannot help me further.
Krishnamurti: So the question now is: how do I have enough energy (for this inner observation ?) ? I need energy to look at myself - whether I am neurotic, imbalanced, afraid, whatever it is.
Questioner: May I ask 'why'? I don't quite see 'why' we need energy to look?
Krishnamurti: ( Frictionless ?) energy means attention, doesn't it? There is that aeroplane - to listen to it completely without any resistance is "attention", isn't it? To listen to that noise completely you need attention, which is - your total ?) energy focussed to listen.
Questioner: I mean, does (this listening?) use up energy?
Krishnamurti: No, on the contrary. It is only when I resist it, when I am inattentive, that I lose energy. If I listen to that aeroplane wholly, I've much more energy. The inattention wastes energy.
Questioner: And the attention brings that energy (together) .
Krishnamurti: It is energy - it doesn't get dissipated, on the contrary, it builds up more and more.
Questioner: I see that, Sir. But before, it sounded as though you were saying that you must find a lot of energy before you can look.
Krishnamurti: No, on the contrary. So can I 'attend completely', in order to observe? Then the problem arises, is the 'observer' different from the (inner) thing which is being observed? - which was a question raised at the beginning. If there is attention, all the one's energy focussed in looking - is there a (self-conscious ?) 'observer' ? If there is, then there is inattention. Because the 'observer' has got his (cultural ?) prejudices, his (knowledgeable ?) opinions, he says, 'This is good, I'll keep this but I don't want that', he is fighting to gain pleasure and/or to avoid pain; he is avoiding or accumulating. And that is ( leading to ?) a ( time-spread ?) dissipation of energy. So, can one attend without this 'observer'? ( yes, if ?) I actually see the truth that (in the context of a holistic perception?) it is a waste of energy to look with the observer.
Questioner: Then in that state does the mind function as an (objective) 'mirror'?
Krishnamurti: So (to wrap it up :) what have I learnt this morning? I have learnt - I am learning rather - that deep (inwardly) nobody can help me. That is a tremendous realization (to start with ?) . Whoever wants to help me (at those levels ?) , is helping me according to his conditioning. He says, 'I know better than you do, let me help you'. Or, " I'll be a companion, we'll walk together, we'll watch things together". And here I have discovered, that if I have to do something ultimately myself, why don't I start (by being independent ?) right from the beginning?
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It's interesting to reflect, John, on how far we might be prepared to extend this 'body, family, tribe, etc' scenario you describe, before we might be willing to stop calling thinking of it as 'I'. Or, to paint the same picture from the other direction, working backwards from the universe in its singular entirety as it were, at what point we might like to consider the 'I' makes its appearance?
Indeed. And what it would express, of course, would likely be, as I suggested, its own consciousness; what else? In other words, K's teachings do nothing more than essentially to describe K himself; which is the universe.
Which, I think, would be to say the same, wouldn't it?
Yes I gather what you are saying. I believe I've seen biblical stuff to the very same effect, though unfortunately I couldn't for the life of me say where.
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2ND K PUBLIC DIALOGUE BROCKWOOD 1969 (reader friendly edited)
A HOLISTIC APPROACH TO 'LEARNING'
Krishnamurti: What shall we talk over together?
Questioner: Can we discuss how craving sustains conditioning?
Krishnamurti: Could we approach all these questions (the 'holistic' way ?) by enquiring into what we mean by 'learning'? And perhaps we could then understand conditioning and the attention of awareness which does not waste energy, and so on. Could we begin there and then bring all the questions into that?
What does (this holistic ?) 'learning' mean? It is really quite a complex problem; it needs a great deal of enquiring into it, thinking about it - perhaps more 'feeling your way' into it.
Questions: Sir, I think (this natural) curiosity is one of the essential ingredients of learning, because otherwise you are forcing yourself to do something.
Krishnamurti: Quite. Otherwise it becomes mechanical, mere cultivation of memory. So we say curiosity is necessary. Now, am I really curious to find out for myself whether that statement has any meaning for me at all ? When there is ( an authentic ?) curiosity, there is ( a passionate ?) energy, isn't there? I am not 'casual' about it, I am not (scholastically neutral or ?) indifferent, I am really curious. And that curiosity gives me an impetus, a 'drive' to find out.
Questioner: In fact, don't we have to consider the motive of the curiosity ?
Krishnamurti: ( The human mind is naturally ?) curious - there is no (personal ?) motive . If there is (such) a motive, there is no (authentic) curiosity. I want to learn because I am curious (to find out the truth of this matter ?) . If it is in order to gain more money (or scholastic prestige ?) , that is not curiosity; the ( personal) motive then is becoming much more important, more vital than curiosity itself. So, am I curious without a motive? I want to find out whether this ( holistic) statement that "resistance is a waste of energy" is true or false. When a first-class scientist is exploring, he is not (at every moment ?) driven by a (personal) motive ( since his wealthy sponsors are paying for his research ?) . A person who has a ( background) motive that he might achieve great fame and money and all the rest of it - such a person is not an (authentic?) scientist. He is just using (his) 'science' for his own benefit.
Questioner: I don't quite follow you. We were talking about 'resistance', and you were saying just now that curiosity channels energy naturally. So then where is the resistance?
Krishnamurti: No, I (just) wanted to (check out ?) if I am really curious about (inquiring on ) resistance as a waste of energy.
Questioner: I see, thank you.
Krishnamurti: That is what was asked - I am taking that (psychological resistance) as an ( in class ?) example. Shall I look at my 'resistance' (or reluctance ?) as a fragmentary process? I may resist because what you say may be true, and I want to resist because I am frightened of you (of my audience) . I am frightened of not being able to 'sit on the platform' - you follow what I mean? So shall I examine this statement applicable to myself in myself, in fragments?
Questioner: Yes. It wouldn't be wise.
Krishnamurti: Or shall I be able to look at it (holstically) , learn about it as a whole? ( Clinging to a ?) belief is a form of resistance - I am a Hindu, or a Muslim or a Christian - and there is a (psychological objection or ?) 'resistance' against all other forms of belief. If I am a Communist and I reject everything else.
Questioner: So anything that impinges on the mind...
Krishnamurti: Wait, don't come to (forming ?) any ( final) conclusions. I have found something: any form of ( personally biased ?) conclusions is a resistance. I conclude "that this is wrong and that is right" and I resist what I consider 'wrong', and hold on to what I consider 'good'. Therefore I resist.
Questioner: I don't see how this whole form of resistance expresses itself other than through lots of little resistances.
Krishnamurti: Yes, I quite agree. But I have put that question - shall I learn from each example or is it possible to learn about the whole of ( nature of my psychological ?) resistance - not bit by bit?
Questioner: Do you mean that there is a common factor at the back of every form of resistance?
Krishnamurti: Look - I am resisting in various ways. My question would be: why am 'I' resisting for? Not the ( particular) reason of it. I want to see the (truth of the ?) 'fact' that I am 'resisting' (opposing resistance to any incoming personal disturbance ?) . First I must realise the fact that I am resisting. At the moment I am (becoming) aware that I am resisting, there is already the discovery of the cause. I am resisting you, because I (may ?) think I am much more intelligent, superior, more spiritual than you, and what you say might put me down in front of the others; therefore I am going to resist you (with all my intellectual capacity) . My mind is curious, and therefore I find out ( the uncomfortable truth about ?) why I am resisting - not only (here to) you, but I see the whole ( inner implications ?) of my 'resistance'. I have formed a (strong political ) 'opinion' and I stick to it and I resist every other opinion. Now why do I have 'opinions' at all? I recognise ( that getting strongly attached to any ?) 'opinion' is a ( subliminal) form of (psychological ?) resistance. Now I am going to learn, and with that sense of urgency and energy I find out why I am resisting altogether. Is not my whole life a way of resistance? I think I am somebody, I have an (most excellent) image of myself and I don't want you to destroy (or undermine ?) that image. Or I have various forms of beliefs, dogmas, knowledge, experiences, which have given me a certain vitality, strength and a technique to tackle life, and I am going to resist everything else.
Questioner: You mean it is a selection of one set of possibilities as against another?
Questioner: And therefore you are resisting the others. And that forms your particular 'character'.
Krishnamurti: That's right. The Greek (root) word character comes from 'engrave'; engraving (imprinted ?) on the mind - that is my 'character'. My mind has been engraved upon and I have a particular character - strong, weak, purposive, direct, dominating, this or that. And ( once imprinted ?) the (characterial ?) 'thing' that has been engraved on my mind is going to continue, (and/or) resist everything else. So I am asking myself, 'Is my ( psychological) life a form of (active) resistance ?'
Questioner: Yes, because with that resistance I build up my (psychological) 'security'. I feel secure in that and I am afraid to let it go
Krishnamurti: Are you saying, Madam, that resistance is a form of building up ( our inner) security? I am not saying it is not, I am just asking - is it? I don't want to reduce it to one word - this is much too explosive - you cannot just say that one word explains everything.
Questioner: One of the things one might be resisting is embarrassment, or shame.
Krishnamurti: Of course, all that is implied. I don't want to examine each detail, but see this whole problem of ( opposing a mental ?) 'resistance'. Is my life based on ( this self-protective ?) 'resistance' , because I have (to protect my personal ?) image of what I am, or what I should be, or what I want to achieve?
Questioner: What gives the energy, the (vital) force, to this image that one has of oneself? Why is it so strongly engrained in the mind?
Krishnamurti: That is fairly simple, surely (a mental extension of the survival instinct ?) . Every form of influence is continually impinging on my mind - the family, society, my own desires.
Questioner: Isn't it that all these different resistances are a means of protecting this 'image', defending it?
Krishnamurti: Is that what you have found, Madam? Is that what you have learnt?
Questioner: Yes. Sometimes.
Krishnamurti: Now you see what has happened? My (natural) curiosity has aroused a tremendous energy in me to find out. And I am looking, watching where I am resisting. I want to learn, because I see any form of (inner) experience has to be tested (individually) so one can say 'that is so'.
Questioner: Is not this 'resistance' in the fear one has of death?
Krishnamurti: Yes. That is also included. So shall we go along? I hope you are all as 'intense' about this as the speaker is, because I really want to find out if there is any ( un-conscious ?) form of resistance in me. I want to learn about the (imaginary ?) idea that I am a great man, the idea of ( achieving) success, popularity, reputation, being a (spiritual ?) leader - all those (psychological ?) 'horrors'. Is my mind resisting anything? ( If yes ?) the mind has taken a 'position' with regard to politics, economy, religion, the family - you follow? And it is ( subliminally ?) unwilling to move from there.
Questioner: When we speak of resistance, the mind starts resisting (its own ?) 'resistance'.
Krishnamurti: Yes, and ( following one's cultural) tradition is also a (form of psychological) resistance. So I want to find out if I have a (cultural) 'tradition' (to defend ?) .
Questioner: Are we afraid that if we don't 'crave' we would cease to live?
Krishnamurti: There are the natural biological urges and demands, and (surreptitiously our self-centred?) thinking takes hold of them and transforms them into 'appetites'. Then ( the 'thinker' in charge with all its ?) thinking says, 'I must be wise in my (controlling my ?) appetites'. So there is a battle going on between two (levels of ?) thought. The (lower ?) thought that has created the 'images' of the sexual demands, and the (more thoughtful part of the same ? ) thought that says 'be careful'. So (the controlling part of ?) thought forms a resistance against the (lower part of ?) thought which has created the picture, the sensation, the (craving) volume behind that. So you see how resistance has been formed.
Questioner: But, Sir, surely sometimes such a (moral) 'resistance' might be necessary?
Krishnamurti: We are coming to that in a minute, first let's get the (whole) picture. So ( the primitive layers of our ?) thought encourages and justifies craving ?) in one direction and ( the educated part of the same) thought (process) resists that. It says, 'I must resist (my irrational cravings?) , otherwise I may be destroyed (or put in a box ?) - by society, by my wife, etc; therefore it is good, it is wise, it is normal to resist'.
Questioner: The (craving) desire which is pushed on by thought, leads in a direction which disturbs the temporary equilibrium. And the opposing (reaction of ) thought tries to restore it at a different level. That's what I see.
Krishnamurti: That's right, Sir. So (presumably ?) I have learnt a great deal.
Questioner: Isn't it that we are afraid of the energy... ?
Krishnamurti: The fear is energy - you cannot be afraid of a fear. Fear is a (conditioned ?) form of energy. No?
Questioner: But it seems that one is constantly 'diverting' one's energy into resistance or fear, or something else.
Krishnamurti: Look: I am afraid. I am going to learn about fear. I am not going to 'translate' (re-direct ?) it into saying 'it is a waste of energy', or 'it is energy', and so on. I have no conclusion about fear; therefore I am free to learn about it. You follow? So I am going to learn what that fear is - a form of (psychological) resistance, because I am afraid I might die tomorrow, or I am afraid of my father and mother.
Questioner: Is the fear of death unconsciously at the root of the whole of the resistance against every day?
Krishnamurti: Sir, actually, deeply are you 'aware' that you are afraid? I am afraid (of the Unknown ?) , and I am (actively ?) 'escaping' from (facing) it. Escape is resistance to (facing) 'what is' - surely. So what shall I do with this (psychological ?) fear ? ( For starters ?) I am not escaping because I see that (my mental ?) resistance doesn't dissolve fear, doesn't push it away.
Questioner: When I have seen that fear and resistance are only the fear of death, can I not realise - at least intellectually - that life and death are the same thing? At that moment the fear will vanish.
Krishnamurti: It is not quite (as easy as ?) like that, is it? I am not really interested in death - that is inevitable, it will come later. But I am really frightened of ...what, Sir?
Questioner: Of my inadequate responses?
Krishnamurti: Let's take that. I am (disturbed by ?) my incapacity to respond fully to life. And I am not resisting, I am not escaping, I am full of curiosity to find out why I am frightened because I can't respond fully. If the fact is I can't, what am I frightened of?
Questioner: Because it's so uncomfortable to live with.
Krishnamurti: Which means what? - I dislike living uncomfortably. So, am I frightened because of my inadequate response? All right, I'm inadequate, but why should I be frightened of it? Because I have an (utopian ?) image that I must respond fully - if I don't I will be unhappy, I'll be in conflict, I'll be miserable, uncomfortable and all the rest of it - and therefore I say, 'I am inadequate' and this frightens me; therefore fear is a form of resistance. Do you get it? If I have no mental image of what adequacy is, then I am just inadequate - all right. So I have that fear because I have an image that I should be adequate; but if I have no image, what tells me I am inadequate?
Krishnamurti: Quite right. Now, why do I compare? That is my habit, isn't it, from childhood on through university and throughout life. I have always lived in a society, in a state of mind, that is continually 'comparing' - a bigger car, a smaller car, more beautiful, less beautiful, more intelligent, less intelligent, more money, less money, and so on. You follow? And I can see how (this mental habit of ?) comparison has caused inadequacy in me. If I don't compare there is no inadequacy. I am what I am.
Questioner: But Sir, it is not always comparison that makes one feel inadequate.
Krishnamurti: I am just examining 'comparison', Madam. My (inner) life is 'comparative': I want peace, but...I am not (as )peaceful (as I should). How do I know that I have not just an 'idea' of peace? Can I live (inwardly) without comparison? The 'ideal', the' hero', the bigger man, the lesser man, the inferior, the stupid - can I live without any comparison, at any time?
Questioner: It seems to be the linguistic structure of thought that has comparison built in.
Krishnamurti: Quite so - in language itself there is comparison and I have seen that; therefore I am not going to say, 'I am more or I am less'. The very structure of the (social) 'me' is comparative.
Questioner: Don't we confuse comparative 'facts' with comparative 'judgments'?
Krishnamurti: I want to 'get my teeth' into something much deeper than that, which is: can I (inwardly) live completely without comparison? And is not our (culturally conditioned ?) mind itself the result of comparison? I can only live non-comparatively when I am absolutely looking at the 'fact' and not what the fact should be or must not be.
Questioner: But, Sir, ( we can also) take two facts side by side.
Krishnamurti: No, no, (inwardly ?) there is one ( active) 'fact' at a time, not two facts at one time.
Questioner: No, but it is a way of perceiving difference, not only in red and blue, but in many things, in people and objects.
Krishnamurti: ( That's an ?) opinion, then. Madam, look - ( at every instant inwardly ?) there is only one (ongoing) fact. A second later maybe, there'll be another fact.
Questioner: And then we see the difference.
Questioner: I am trying to say that one learns by seeing the difference about oneself. One only sees one thing in oneself, one doesn't see that there are other things. From time to time one compares and this olso is a way of learning (about oneself)
Krishnamurti: Do please listen to what you are saying. Do I learn ( holistically ?) through comparison?
Questioner: We do, yes. I mean I have found it out.
Krishnamurti: No, no, Madam, forgive me if I contradict you. Do I learn anything ( fundamentaly ?) by comparing or do I only learn by looking at the fact and enquiring about that fact; not by comparing that fact with another fact? I have a Chinese vase, and a Persian vase. By looking at the Chinese vase I learn all about it. But if I begin to compare the two, I am learning about something else, not about the fact of the Chinese vase.
Questioner: Krishnaji, but certain facts in relation to other facts...For instance, if you were considering the speed of something, you would learn it in relation to the speed of other things; that would be part of the fact, would it not? That's comparison.
Krishnamurti: You are saying - you can learn about that 'fact'
Questioner: No, I am speaking of the objective relation of two facts. There is a relationship; for instance light has a different speed than the motor car. Those two are facts, and their relationship is a further fact. One has to consider the two things in order to learn something about them.
Krishnamurti: All right. The Mercedes goes much faster than the bullock cart. That is a (material) fact but that doesn't touch me or interfere with my life.
Questioner: You learn about the speed by going in the bullock cart. When you are in the Mercedes you feel the speed of the Mercedes, there is no need to compare it with the bullock cart.
Krishnamurti: Wait a minute. (inwardly speaking ?) do I learn by comparing myself with you, who learn much more quickly? - there is speed involved in this too. You learn something extraordinarily quickly, you see very clearly; immediately resistance arises and all the implications of it. Your perception is instantaneous, but with mine I have to go little by little. You act much more quickly, my ( inwardly perceptive ?) action is slower. Why am I comparing myself with you? Where does 'speed' come into this - the more, the less - why?
Questioner: Because of the images.
Krishnamurti: No, because I am envious of her. I want that same thing which she has, be as quick as she is, because I have ( subliminally ?) compared myself with her. That comparison is very quick; why am I comparing myself? Can't I free myself from thid (kind of ?) comparative judgment about myself? Therefore, can I look at myself non-comparatively, non-verbally? - for the word in itself is comparative.
Questioner: Sir, how can we not be aware of the differences? We are aware of them.
Krishnamurti: Oh, no, on the contrary. We are saying, be aware (inwardly) of this (dualistic ?) contradiction. Contradiction exists when there is a resistance. We've been through all that.
Questioner: We can also learn about ourselves by seeing things around us, in other people. It's not always brought about by envy - it can be (an objective ?) observation.
Krishnamurti: Madam, you are saying you can learn by watching others, in many ways. By watching the animal (behaviour) - its violence, its devotion, its pleasures - I learn, because my whole background is derived from the higher apes and all the rest of it. But have I got to watch the animal in order to learn about myself?
Questioner: It can be useful.
Krishnamurti: How can it be useful?
Questioner: If I am blind to myself.
Krishnamurti: Therefore you are blind to others.
Questioner: No, they can open up your eyes sometimes, in a 'flash' (of insight)
Krishnamurti: They can wake you, every shock, every challenge, every questions does wake you. But do I ( have to ?) depend on challenges or on looking at ( the mistakes of ?) others to keep awake?
Questioner: It is all part of ( a wider process of ?) learning.
Krishnamurti: Madam, (suppose that a ?) part of me is 'asleep', therefore I am not ( fully) awake.
Questioner: Is this form of comparison (coming from the herd instinct or ?) desire to imitate?
Krishnamurti: Surely. Please Sir, find out whether you can live without 'comparison'. Isn't that the only (holistic ?) way to live? Doesn't that give you tremendous energy? But if I am comparing myself with the Prime Minister or with Jesus or whatever it is, what a waste of ( creative ?) life it is!
Questioner: That is what I meant when I first said that it had some use.
Krishnamurti: No, forgive me again. We must start ( learning the holistic way ?) by saying, Can one live without comparison ? When the right (opening ?) question is asked, and answered rightly, then that will bring about the right response ( of seeing ?) when comparison is (or not) necessary. But I must ask the fundamental question first, which is - can I live ( inwardly) without comparison, not 'on some days' or 'sometimes'. If I have answered that question, deeply, totally, then I will know when comparison is necessary or when it is not necessary. It is like knowing what 'co-operation' is - completely, deeply; then only will you know when not to co-operate. But to say, mustn't I co-operate with this (group) and not co-operate with that one , - that leads to greater and greater (inner) confusion. When you know how to co-operate fundamentally - not round an idea, round a feeling, round an emotion - but co-operate without any resistance, then you will also know very deeply, when not to co-operate. So one must ask the right ( or fundamental ?) questions first.
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1ST K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 (reader friendly edited)
TRANSCENDING THE DUALISTIC CONTRADICTION
Krishnamurti: In these public discussions we are trying to explore (live ?) into ourselves and actually to see ourselves as we are. If we are going to do that, then we must establish a (shared learning ) communication between ourselves from the very beginning.
Now, perhaps the speaker has not got that difficulty at all; therefore how can we communicate so that we understand each other completely, thoroughly, so that there is no misunderstanding? ( By simply realising that ?) there is also another form ( level ?) of communication, which is (taking place in ?) silence.
So, having said that what shall we talk over together?
Questioner: You have said that one cannot 'invite' Reality, that all one can do is to open the door, and this means that the mind must be completely quiet, silent, then, perhaps if one is 'lucky', maybe truth and reality will come in. Why do you say 'lucky', and (perhaps'?
Krishnamurti: If you leave the (inner) 'door' open, if there is fresh air outside, it will come in. Do you want to discuss that? Or do you want to ask something else?
Questioner (1): Am I selfish if I refuse responsibility?
Questioner (2): Can we talk about children, as regards communication and teaching, parenthood and bringing up children?
Questioner (3): How can we remain earnest in our self-study without a (spirtitual) stimulating desire?
Questioner (4): Could we talk about identification?
Questioner (5): The search for spirituality seems to lead to indifference.
Krishnamurti: You see, if I were sitting there and somebody else was sitting here, I would ask him, "how to live rightly?" What is involved in it ? Because our (present way of ) life is in such chaos, such (inner) contradictions - the intellect, the outer activity, feeling, thought, all go in different directions all tearing at each other. We are 'broken up' ( fragmentary) entities. And if I were there( in your shoes ?) and somebody else was here, I would say, 'Look, I am fully aware of how I behave in the office, or at home and so on, in contradiction, inwardly broken up; but how am I to live a life that is complete, whole, full?' Don't you also want to know that?
Krishnamurti: Then why didn't you ask me that?
Questioner: It is completely impossible to ask this question here , because in the very asking we are accepting the authority of one person, or maybe five hundred people who are here. I think you have to go through the problem in your own life to come to a conclusion.
Krishnamurti: But would that be the real issue, would you be interested in talking that over?
Krishnamurti: Don't say 'Yes' casually because if you go into it very deeply, it may revolutionize your whole way of life and you may not (be inwardly ready for ?) that . So if you are really seeing this fragmentation in outselves, as the intellect, as the emotions, as thought, as action and it's your own awareness of it, then the inevitable question would be: what am I to do? And then, perhaps later on, we can go into this question of (the opening the door to ?) Reality, the urge to identify with oneself with something , and so on.
So, if this ( question of our inner fragmentation ?) is what you really want to discuss, let's go into it (experientially ?)
First of all, ( step one:) am I aware, inwardly 'conscious', that I lead a (compartmented ?) fragmentary life? Do I know that I lead a contradictory and conflicting 'dualistic' existence? If you know it, (the second step is to ask oneself ?) How does it come into being? Why do I have this contradiction in me? Is it natural and must I therefore accept it, or is it something that has been brought about through society, civilization, culture and so on, or by my own relationship to everything in life? Is my relationship to nature, to other people, to ideas, always dualistic? (Before I can do anything with it, I must know how it comes about)
Questioner: I am hesitating because of the responsibility involved in this.
Krishnamurti: Ah! The responsibility comes a little later. Because we are now (apparently ?) silent, do we see together what is taking place in us? This kind of contradictory life exists everywhere you go, even with the hermits, with the monks in India, in Japan; every human being has this problem. So when we are considering it, we are looking at the whole human problem, not my problem. When you reduce the whole problem to 'my' (particular) problem (that has to be solved) you make it very small. But if you regard it as a human problem a human being living in Switzerland, in India, Japan, Russia, America if you have the feeling of ( a whole consciousness of ?) humanity, then perhaps in that looking we may communicate with each other at a different level, which isn't a mere emotional state. Here is a ( global consciousness ?) problem and I am looking at (the magnitude and complexity of ?) it, therefore I am (becoming) silent. And what you 'see' out of that silence will have meaning.
Questioner: Sir, we are now facing the fact of our own hypocrisy; that's what we are doing now ?
Krishnamurti: Are we facing the fact that one is a (psychological ?) hypocrite ? We are not. We are facing the fact that our life is ( dualistic and ?) contradictory, broken up that's all. But before you react (ethically) to what you see, do you see it actually as it is (taking place ?) ? When I lie, or tell something which is not (totally) so, do I see it? And if I do see it ('live' ), what happens? This is where it (the action of direct perception) is (becoming) important; that is why I am insisting on this. I am confronting a fact: that I have lied; that's a 'fact' - and I am just looking at it without justification, without saying, 'How terrible (of me ?) to lie', or 'I was frightened, therefore I lied' those are all explanations that prevent me from looking at the simple fact that I have lied. So ( in step four: ) when I look (directly) at the fact that my life is contradictory, what is the relationship between the (supervising entity of the ) 'observer' and the (fragmentation) 'thing' he is looking at? If one is looking at the fact silently there is only the fact right?
Questioner: There is always the (central self-) image looking at a (periferal ?) image; in looking at what is the relationship between the observer and the observed, in considering the question, there is always another 'observer'.
Krishnamurti: That's right, that's what I said: am I looking at this fact that I have lied, completely, silently, without the (interference of the ?) 'observer'? Without ( the controlling ?) 'me' interfering with it?
Questioner: Sir, it seems that while one is lying one is aware of it and then something says: it's not really so bad. Then the lie comes out and a justification accompanies it.
Krishnamurti: Yes. When one lies one knows it, and one justifies it. And I am asking, can you look at this contradiction, this lie, this ''whatever it is", without justification, without condemning it just look.
Questioner: Sir, there is always desire to be free from the pain.
Krishnamurti: That is understood, this is an obvious fact but I am asking something ( which appears to be ?) 'impossible'. If you can go beyond ( or deal with ?) the 'impossible' (challenges ) then you will know what to do with the possible ones. Can I look at anything without the ( screen of the ?) 'image' (making mechanism ?) ? Apparently that seems to be something 'impossible'. Look Sirs, a scientist in his laboratory looks from a very objective, non-sentimental viewpoint; he looks at something (outside of himself) . That is fairly easy (for him ?) , but touch him in his 'core' about his ambition, or his love, or his this or that, then he can't look (so objectively ?) . Are you getting it?
Questioner: Sir, the very word 'lie' contains the condemnation already.
Krishnamurti: No, it need not be a condemnation. Suppose I have just told a lie. I want to hide something which I don't want you to know. I don't condemn it, I say, 'Yes, I have lied', though the word implies condemnation and so on, I don't (have to ) associate it with an (ethical) condemnation. I took 'lying' as an example, to represent (more lively ?) this contradictory life.
Questioner: But I don't feel any contradiction in myself at all.
Krishnamurti: Very good, then it is finished. Then you are a happy man, or woman!
Questioner: But it needn't be so.
Krishnamurti: Ah! That's for you to find out!
Questioner: How can we do it?
Krishnamurti: First of all, is there a 'how'? That is the traditional way of saying, 'Tell me what to do step by step, and I'll follow (try to imitate ?) you and do it'. But I say there is no (silencing ?) system, because practising the system, will not give you ( the authentic quality of ?) silence, right? ( By practising it ?) you make your mind heavier, more ( disciplined ?) in a different direction, therefore it is not ( naturally) silent. So what will you do with this problem? There is no 'how'. You must see that.
Questioner: It happens occasionally.
Krishnamurti: Does it ever happen at all to look at something silently, to be in communion with the thing you are looking at? Can I look at my wife or husband silently, without the image which I have built about her, or about him? You get rather nervous when I put that question, don't you?
Questioner: But I know that I can do it!
Krishnamurti: I said, have you ever done it? Have you ever looked at another without an 'image' not at a stranger, not just at somebody who passes by, but at your wife, husband, friend, your boss, so that you are in communion with that person, who is also (actively ?) chattering, and has got lots of images? Am I asking the 'impossible'? I am, am I not?
Questioner: (In Italian) You have asked us to 'do the impossible'. We don't know how to 'do' this. For me it is impossible.
Krishnamurti: How can I 'commune with myself'? That is, in 'myself' is this contradiction, and the 'entity' who looks at the contradiction is part of that contradiction right? So when the (mental) entity that is looking at this contradiction is himself part of that contradiction, there is no way out. But can there be a (quality of non-personal ?) observation without this entity which is part of the fragmentation? Can't you look at something without all the (mental) circus about it?
Questioner. What if what you see is a bore?
Krishnamurti: All right, if my wife is a bore and I have carefully avoided looking at that bore because I have created a (convenient ?) image about her which is lovely, I say, 'All right, keep it'.
Questioner: Are we not full of contradictions because we are placed in contradictory circumstances?
Krishnamurti: Yes, that is what we said .
Questioner: Sometimes I see my husband as he is, without the image. But if I try to make myself look at my husband without the 'image', that is not possible.
Krishnamurti: We are (supposed to be ?) looking at something much nearer, which is in our own mind and our own heart.
Questioner: If a problem is created by thought, if you look at it in silence without thought, then there is no problem.
Krishnamurti: The answer is in ( the silent looking ?) itself.
Questioner: What do you mean by 'silence'?
Krishnamurti: Don t you know what it means without my telling you what I mean by silence?
Questioner: Full attention ?
Krishnamurti: Don't put it into words yet. In this valley, when you wake up in the middle of the night don't you know what 'silence' is? Except for the noise of the stream there is ( a deep) silence, haven't you felt it?
Questioner: This is a physical silence.
Krishnamurti: So, you know what the 'physical' silence is. You walk in the woods and everything in the evening is very still; you know the physical silence with all the beauty in it, the richness, the quietness, the immeasurable magnificence, the dignity of it you know it. And apparently you don't know what the 'inward' silence is. So you say, 'Please tell me more about it, put it into words'. Why should I? Why don't you find out for yourself if there is such a silence? I may be telling a lie, it may not exist, but you accept (the idea of ?) it. But if you say: I want to find out how to look at my (ongoing dualistic ?) contradiction, because I have always looked with an 'observer' (attitude ?) , and I suddenly realize that the 'observer' himself 'is' (the active part of the dualistic contradiction being ?) 'observed' . So that is something which I have discovered', therefore I won't look that way any more; I am looking for another way of doing it. There is a way (to negatively come upon the ?) looking completely quietly.
Questioner: What happens?
Krishnamurti: You see you are always (inclined on ?) theorizing. You always give it a 'clenched fist', don't you?
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But 'shed some precious light' for what, quite? Will you say that the 'I' can learn? Or 'see', even?
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2ND K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 (reader friendly edited)
HOW CAN I LOOK AT 'MYSELF' ?
K : Shall we go on with what we were talking about yesterday ?
Questioner: I feel Sir, that we cannot totally give up our images and motives. We can lessen them or see them, but I fear that we cannot give them up completely.
Krishnamurti: Surely, if I want to look at something clearly or see what is actually going on in myself, then do I (need to ?) have any "image" (about it ?) ? From ( direct ?) observation I can go further, but not if I come to it with a ( ready made) conclusion. See how very important this is, because most of us take pride in our "free will" - perhaps you are free to choose between this colour and that colour the colour of the hat you are going to wear or 'choose' your husband! But ( inwardly ?) is there such a thing as 'free will' (in the sense of the ?) desire to do or not to do, to choose or not to choose. Is there the (possibility that when one is in ?) complete harmony within oneself , one is in harmony with the "Universal Law" ( with the Universal Order ?) then it is not a question of obeying or following, then there is only That ? ( I may have gone a little too far. We cannot go into that unless we can really look at ourselves anew, afresh, so that we actually see what we 'are' (now) .
It's ( my cultural ?) pride that prevents me from looking at myself and it is the same pride that is inventing the ideology which says 'what I should be'. I don't like what I ( see that I ?) am and my pride says, 'I must be that'. This is the ideological (idealstic ?) philosophy which man has invented, the formula, the 'should be'. it is our (intellectual ?) pride creates this conflict between 'what is' and 'what should be', and says: I must be that, this is ugly, this is stupid, this is unintelligent, this is unreasonable. So I put on a ( carefully crafted ?) mask of "what I (think that I ?) should be", and hence there is this 'hypocritical' (self-pretending ?) activity going on. Is it possible to look at oneself without the image of pride? But one has such extraordinary (sophisticated ?) images of oneself haven't you? I am a great writer, I am this, I am that, I am a Jew, a Christian, a Catholic, a Communist, all the ( self-protective ?) images that one has built about oneself. Why? Is it ( just intelectual) pride? Or, have we invested in these images values other than the actual state of one's own being?
Questioner: Isn't this 'pride' caused by fear?
Krishnamurti: Is it our fear that has invented this (psychological ?) 'pride'? Or is it that you dislike what you see and therefore you say, 'I must be better', 'I must be different'. If I'm not afraid of what I (can) see, I won't run away from it, and why should I be afraid of it? I am only afraid of it if I think I should be something else. Right? And that is part of our (cultural) conditioning, that has cultivated this sense of 'what should be', the ideal. If I see this (inner 'bug' ?° , then I must face 'what is'. Then I can look at whatever there is (going on ?) in me the aggressivity , the ( occasional ?) brutality and violence; then I can find out ( experientially ?) what the causes are that have brought this about. Surely that's (sounding ?) fairly simple, isn't it?
Questioner: You have talked a great deal here, and in different parts of the world, about 'self-knowledge'. We want to go into it, and perhaps some of us have gone into it, but what prevents us from going into it much more deeply, and therefore acting differently, is that we may hurt other (people who love us ?) . We may not want to change, not out of pride, but to avoid damaging others.
Krishnamurti: Sir, we are not talking (right now ) about change. We are saying, why is it that we cannot look (inwardly ?) at ourselves. That's the first thing; we'll come to the problem of change afterwards.
Questioner: Doesn't a child create an 'image' of what he should be, because he fears not to be loved as he 'is'?
Krishnamurti: Yes, that may be one of the reasons. But you are not meeting my point. Why is it that you and I cannot face ourselves as we are? Just face it, just look at it. If I cannot look at myself as I am, there is no possibility of change at all. Because by looking at myself as I am, I can find out the (hidden ?) 'causes' which have brought about the aggression, the brutality, the violence all that! Unless I discover the cause of all this - subjectively, inwardly it's not possible to change (radically inwardly ) . ( Our idea of ?) change will be merely moving between 'what is' and 'what should be', and this causes conflict and therefore one changes... to another form of aggression.
Questioner: Is it not because I identify myself with my brain?
Krishnamurti: You think you 'are' your brain. Of course! What you think (of yourself ?) , is what you 'are' : all this elaborate process of (self-) identification, 'you' are that. But please, do come to this ( rather boring ?) essential point first. Is it ( our cultural ?) pride that is preventing us from looking at ourselves? Is it the fear (of inwardly being destabilised ?) ?
Questioner: ( This inner) vision has been granted to very few people, but when we have reached it then we don't have to look at ourselves any more, then we are part of the laws and harmony of the Universe.
Krishnamurti: The questioner says, must we ( diligently ?) examine all this, be aware and see ourselves as we are ? Can't we jump into another state?
Questioner: How can one express truth?
Krishnamurti: Madame, we are not talking about truth. We will come to that. I can only find out what truth is when there is no illusion, and illusion must exist as long as there is any kind of ( inner ?) conflict.
Questioner: If we start to really observe ourselves, what we see is so ugly that it's natural not to want to look.
Krishnamurti: Why do you call what you see 'ugly'? It may be that one is very 'sexual', but why do you call it ugly? Because you have the idealistic approach, values, judgments according to some idea. If I (dislikes ?) people, why call it ugly? One is getting caught in using these words with all their content and prejudice; so the (images created by these ?) words prevent us from looking directly at ourselves. I see we are coming to a (major psychological) impasse.
Questioner: I cannot look at myself, there is always the 'observer'.
Krishnamurti: Wait! The observer, as we said, is the word (itself) and is also the (psychological) content of that word - with all its (personal ?) associations has created a design, memories, knowledge, tradition which is me, the ego. The ego, the me, is a set of ( emotionally charged ?) words. And those words are the content of the 'observer', the (personal) memories and so on, and with this ( the background of this active ?) content we look.
May I go on a little more, if one has followed it so far? You know, the mind is always chattering- either chattering inwardly, or outwardly- always talking, indulging in ( the daily ?) gossip, telling about somebody else: "my opinion is this", "why should he do that" chatter, chatter. And this chattering obviously indicates a form of (mental ?) laziness; because you have nothing (else) to do, you talk about somebody else; or you want to express yourself, show others how clever you are. So the mind is never quiet. If it is a fact, can you look at it? Just look at it, that your mind is chattering; don't say, 'Who is the looker?' Know the fact that you spend hours talking, writing letters, giving your opinions, what is right, what is wrong (on the political scene) .
Questioner: Does the occupation of the mind depend upon use of words or language?
Krishnamurti: It may not Sir, I may not use any word at all, and yet I might be 'occupied'. I might be occupied without a word to find out what 'silence' is, or what 'love' is, or what form of government one should have. ( So, analytically-wise ) one of the causes is: I may be lazy; another is I must be occupied. And if I'm not occupied what shall I do? Right? I'm frightened. You understand? The businessman who has gone to the office everyday for forty years suddenly stops doing it; it's going to upset his whole (psycho-somatic) organism. So maybe I'm frightened not to be occupied, because I'm frightened of being alone. Or, I'm frightened that if I don't chatter I will find out what I am. I can go on multiplying the causes. Now, I know some of the causes, but that doesn't stop me from chattering. So the exploration and the discovery of the cause, or causes, of this chattering doesn't stop the chattering because that is just an intellectual process; a fragmentary process. The (intellectual) fragment is looking at the other fragments and is discovering the cause of a certain fragmentary issue. Right? But the mere analysis is not going to solve it.
What will 'stop it' is quite a different approach. It must be. That is, I am (becoming non-verbally) aware that I am chattering. What is the quality of this 'awareness'? In that 'awareness' there is no condemnation, no value judgment at all. So there is a "looking out of quietness" at chattering and therefore it undergoes a complete change. I will talk when necessary, I will not talk when it's not necessary; which means I don't go about with (venting) my opinions, judgments, evaluations. By giving (such) attention to chattering, it has become something entirely different.
So to come back to the beginning, can I look at 'myself'? That (my)self being the (mental) entity who is endlessly chattering, evaluating, offering opinions, looking, searching, endlessly. Can I look at myself without a word, without an image, without 'pride'?
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3RD K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 (reader friendly edited)
BEYOND THE (PSYCHOLOGICALLY) IMPOSSIBLE
Krishnamurti: I think we have lost the quality of a high level of ( inner ?) curiosity. Man has been very curious, wanting to find out about the phenomenal world, the world which is outside him, and he has been extraordinarily successful, going to the moon, doing astonishing things. But inwardly, though we have evolved from the ape, we have not advanced much.
First of all, why is it that most of us have 'neglected' ( ignored ?) to explore the world of the mind, of the spirit, of the deep inward unknown? We have (collectively assumed that ?) man's understanding is limited and that what is beyond that limitation is 'mysterious', is 'God', is something which we can't explore, which is a mystery. That has been the pet jargon of the religious people. They have drawn a line, beyond which lies (the) mystery (of the Unknown ?) .
Questioner: Curiosity implies a mind that is highly sensitive.
Krishnamurti: Highly sensitive, pliable, sharp, not hindered by ( the static conclusions of ?) whatever it discovers. Curiosity in that sense can only be when there is freedom to enquire not hindered by 'I mustn't'. You see, I really want to know with great curiosity -after having understood and gone beyond the aggressive nature of the human mind, the desire for power, position, prestige and putting them aside, not just verbally but actually, the mind says, 'What more?' Can we start from there? Yes? Now, to be highly curious (in the sense we are using that word), there must be great (mental ) balance, otherwise curiosity becomes another instrument of distortion - like being curious about my neighbour: I am peeping over the wall, but there is always the wall over which I am looking.
Now, ( how) can one observe without any ( psychological ?) distortion? There is a (hidden factor of ?) distortion if I am (a) ambitious, or if (b) I am sexual, or if (c) I am driven by (any other ) pleasure, or by any form of fear. All these, obviously, distort the (inwardly ) perceptive quality. So unless the (meditative ?) mind is (even temporarily ?) free of all these, (our inward) exploration becomes merely another form of scratching the surface. That's why we ought to be very clear in ourselves, whether the curiosity of exploration is born out of freedom, or out of some compulsion, some inward void, fear, anxiety and is therefore an escape. When you have this quality of very intense, high level curiosity, it pushes aside all the other (potentially distorting ?) elements, like ambition, greed, envy. And there will be ( a self-induced ?) distortion as long as there is a (personal) effort to explore, that effort being ( induced even by the altruistic ?) desire to use what you discover for yourself and society in order to gain God, or whatever motive you may have.
Questioner: Is not curiosity a motive?
Krishnamurti: Is it? ( As an intelligent human being ?) I want to know what more there is when there is freedom from all the things I have known. That's all. In that there is no ( personal) motive.
Questioner: It is ambition.
Krishnamurti: Is there an ambition of wanting to achieve, wanting to gain an end?
Questioner: No. I want to learn.
Krishnamurti: Is learning ambition?
Questioner: Learning is pleasure, isn't it?
Krishnamurti: I don't quite see why you bring in 'ambition' and 'pleasure'. I said at the beginning, if there is any form of distortion, exploration has no ( deep ?) meaning. Ambition is a ( potential factor of ?) distortion because then I want to succeed, I want to learn, I want to be more powerful, I want to gain, I want to use what I have gained, what I have experienced, to exploit others, to tell others what a marvellous entity I am - all that excludes what we are talking about. Haven't you the sense of delighted curiosity in something? Or is it always accompanied by ambition, pain, anxiety?
Questioner: Is it not a matter of just to 'see' and to 'feel'?
Krishnamurti: No, Sir. ( Take a simple example:) I am getting angry (irritated ?) , and I say to myself, why am I angry? I don't want to escape from (the actuality of ?) it, I don't merely want to verbalize (or process it intellectually ?) - I want to know what is the cause of the anger is, my approach is to find out. And may see that I haven't slept properly. But if you say, 'I must not get (violent reactions such as being ?) angry (since it's not good for my health or my public image ?), and with that motive examine the cause of anger, you may discover the ( immediate ) cause, but it will not bring about an end to ( further reactions of?) anger .
Questioner: A 'scientific' mind is not only capable of observing but it needs a (working) hypothesis (to organise its observations) .
Krishnamurti: Yes, Sir. but can't one talk simply? Let's forget about the 'scientific' mind.
Questioner: Sir, what you are trying to do is impossible! We are ( inwardly) very limited and also we have a short life, so that our mind is unable to understand.
Krishnamurti: Sir, if you say we are very limited and it is impossible, then (our inner inquiry ) is finished ( before having started) !
Questioner: I understand that. But it is impossible (for the 'observer' ?) to seek and not to distort.
Krishnamurti: Yes Sir, but is it? Even if it is (looking) impossible, then is it not possible to go beyond the impossible? I say: go beyond the impossible, and see what happens!
Questioner: How can one go beyond the impossible if one is limited?
Krishnamurti: Do look, please. Why do you say 'impossible'? When you say the ( self-centred ?) mind is limited, of course it is limited. But when you say 'It can't go beyond that', you ( the knowledgeable 'thinker' ?) draw the line of the impossible. Don't draw that (mental ?) line, don't say it is impossible.
Questioner: There are things we shall never understand, our minds are finite.
Krishnamurti: 'Man can go only so far'. But he doesn't say that when he wants to go to the moon! Man said, 'I will find out how to reach the moon and go beyond' and he has done it. He never said 'It is impossible, I can't do it'. But you see what we are doing? Outwardly we are willing, but inwardly we say 'No, sorry'. So I say, why do you make the inward approach, the inward enquiry impossible? knowing our minds are (spatio-temporarily ?) limited, but being aware that we don't know where the (de)limitation ends. Don't draw the line of limitation just within a very short distance (around yourself ?) you understand, Sir?
Questioner: Aren't there different kinds of possibilities and impossibilities?
(Sound of Thunder)
Krishnamurti: It won't last very long, now shall we try something? Let's keep quiet. Let's really keep quiet see what happens.
[.....Long silence of several minutes. Sound of rain and thunder.]
When you are really silent like this, which means, very sensitive (inwardly) , don't you feel all the rain dropping into you, entering you? you were completely open, weren't you? And you received everything the rain, the noise, the thunder, the beauty of that sound, you were part of it weren't you? And if you hadn't tried it you would say 'it is impossible'. You know, to be silent means to be vulnerable, and that means to be completely, totally open without any (personal ?) resistance, with your heart and mind then you hear the rain with a delight.
Questioner: Is not astonishment the beginning of curiosity?
Krishnamurti: Don't you know what it is to be curious? Why do you read newspapers, why are you listening to the speaker if you aren't curious? Not about 'how curiosity begins' - the squirrel has to be 'curious' to find out where his food and safety - all this can be observed; but aren't you curious? Just curious ?
Questioner: We see a tremendous necessity to go beyond the impossible now.
Krishnamurti: Sir, each one of you can give a dozen (convenient) explanations, but at the end the fact remains that (inwardly ?) you are not curious. Or your curiosity has a (personal motive or ?) bias, which makes it into a distorting instrument.
(Long (scanning ?) pause....)
Krishnamurti: You mean to say we are all as 'dead' (inwardly inert ?) as that ? I'll go on. I see this ( proteic self-?) image, how it is formed, what are its causes - wanting security, fear (of the unknown ?) , the influences of society which says you must be different from what you are, and so on. I see the causes of this image. And I want to know what lies beyond; so I must first break (or 'pause' ?) the image (making mechanism) because the image is going to prevent me. There is no (personal ?) motive in that, because if I want to 'see' (what is ) beyond, I must 'go' beyond the wall; so I must pull down the wall. And how do I 'pull down' this ( self-protecting ?) image (-screen) which has thickened throughout years?
Questioner: ( Several inaudible suggestions)
Krishnamurti: Do please feel your way into it. When I say 'I know' the maker of the image, the entity that says 'I know' is the image( -making mechanism) creating (or updating ?) the (new) image.
Questioner: So, (the 'I' who's saying ?) 'I know' is non-existent.
Krishnamurti: That's right. When you say 'I know', know (or see the deeper truth ?) that you 'don't know'. Do you see the ( experiential ?) importance of this? When I say 'I know the cause' I have fixed it, I have limited it; but when I say, 'I really don't know', then I am open right? When I say 'I know my wife' that's the end of it. It means really I don't want to know (more intimately ?) , I am too frightened to know what she is, therefore when I use the words 'I know', that finishes it, I don't have to look any further. But if I say, 'I really don't know that I know' (do you follow?) I am open, I am much more subtle, I am sensitive, I can look. So in using the word 'know' I am going to be extremely careful (since inwardly any fixed ?) knowledge becomes a hindrance right? Not in the scientific world, but in the world of exploration within. So I will never say (or assume that ?) 'I know'. Therefore the mind is in a ( fluid ?) state of enquiry already. I wonder if you are meeting this? It is only the mind that is full of (self conceit ?) that says, 'I know'. (Pause)
So ( the right attitude in exploring inwardly is ?) 'I don't know'. I know, of course, the image (making mechanism ?) , the causes of it, I am well aware of it, it's (on stand-by ?) there. And I want to find out if there is an end to the this image-building (updating ?) . I won't say it is impossible or possible. When you say it is impossible, you have blocked it; or when you say, 'Oh, yes it is possible' then you are just ( fooling yourself ?) theorizing. Now my mind is very alert (fully awake ?) , sensitive, it isn't going to accept quick answers, it hesitates, it looks. Therefore there is no (need for accepting anybody's spiritual ?) authority. Right?
So I have discovered something (of the highest experiential significance ?) : when exploring into myself, never to come to a 'conclusion' (to a final answer ?) , because that 'conclusion' becomes the (tomorrow's ?) authority; never to say to myself, 'I know this is so', but to be (always inwardly ) open to find out.
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4TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 ( reader friendly edited)
EXPLORING THE 'BREAKTHROUGH' OPTIONS
Krishnamurti: What shall we talk over together this morning?
Questioner: Sir, we are all heavily conditioned, and the ( separating ?) distance between the observer and observed makes us exaggerate the importance of thought. We can see how this conditioning affects the mind. How can we break through this?
Krishnamurti: As we were saying the other day, technologically man has advanced extraordinarily but inwardly, psychologically, we are almost (stuck ?) in a standstill. This ( developments in the ) world of technology and the ( staleness of the ?) 'psychological' state in which man lives most of the time are almost contradictory. Inwardly man being heavily conditioned, aggressive, wanting to express himself at any cost, dividing himself into nationalities, into political parties, religious divisions, and ( outwardly) is willing to destroy (all his environment ?) , by using those deadly weapons he has invented. So, is it possible for us to break this ( invisible inner ?) barrier, (of our self-centred ) psychological limitation?
It seems to me that the whole question of ( free ?) will is involved in this. The (free ?) will that we human beings use, has been developed through attraction and repulsion, through temptation and resistance, and that will has created its own ( dualistic ?) 'principles ' that governs most of us inwardly. You can watch it in yourself, how this "attraction and repulsion", this "like and dislike", this "temptation and resistance", are what we are used to. And ( living) by that principle, there is this quality of ( free ?) will, which we exercise to break down those things that we do not like and (eventually ?) to resist temptation. This law ( dualistic principle ?), has created the divisions between human beings: nationally, racially, religiously; and we (try to ?) rely on this same will to break down the human limitation.
As one observes within oneself this (self-centred ?) 'will' must always create antagonism, it must always divide, as 'mine' and 'yours'. and must beget division and therefore war, not only the war of outer destruction, but ( an inner ?) war within oneself. And so, not being able to get out of this dilemma, we say: 'I'll wait for the Grace of God, or for some 'outer agency' that will by chance open the window'. And obviously, when one waits upon an outside agency you must have the priest, the ( spiritual) authority, the church. As this ( self-centred ?) will cannot operate except within ( the field of ?) its own limitation, it breeds more antagonism, more aggression, strife and all the rest of it. So ( eventually ?) one begins to ask: Is there a (more) universal law (or order?) , which may solve all these problems? . And if there is such an universal law, how is the mind to come upon it?
Questioner: How can I have that energy which is not born of resistance and temptation, which is ( the personal) will?
Krishnamurti: I think that is a 'wrong' question. We have an abundance of ( inner ) energy but that energy we dissipate in (resisting ?) temptation, in attraction and repulsion, in aggression and so on. We have got energy! Religious people, especially the monks and the sannyasis, say you can canalize this energy by living a 'non-worldly' life , but ( for most of them ?) this is not an actual reality.
Questioner: Is it sufficient to be free of ( our self-centred ?) will?
Krishnamurti: Who is the entity who is going to free you from will? Please do not put it into such a small (mind) frame!
Questioner: But Sir, in nature there are also many conflicts between animals, cataclysms among the stars and in the galaxies, there is no such harmony as you ( very poetically ?) suppose.
Krishnamurti: Yes Sir, we know that; and ( on the overall ?) there is still harmony. You see, looking at the ( exploding) galaxies, we call that 'disorder', but it may be ( part of a Greater ?) Order!
Questioner: We can know this (time-free) state for a few minutes, but we cannot keep it.
Krishnamurti: When you want to keep it, it is greed; so we are back again in the same old circle. You can't 'keep it'!
Questioner: Sir, it seems to me that even if mankind does destroy itself, that this is also part of the law which you mentioned, is part of the 'beauty of the stars'...I wish to say that I'm not interested in 'saving mankind'. It seems to me that the direct solution is for a person to do what he wants to do, and to really know what he wants to do by letting his (opposing) desires communicate, understand each other.
Krishnamurti: Can opposing desires communicate ? Or is the very nature of desire to create its own opposite? 'I want this house' and in the very wanting of that house is the breeding of a desire opposed to having that house (but a better one ?) . So, Sir, is that the question? I don't suppose anybody wants to save (the whole) 'mankind' we want to save 'man', the (individual ?) human being. And (eventually ?) in bringing order within myself I will bring order around me - perhaps. So the question really is; knowing there is disorder brought about by opposing, contradictory desires, how is disorder to be transformed into order? We'll keep it to the very simplest possible question.
Questioner: How do you discriminate between (the need for ?) 'order' and ( the need for ?) 'organization'?
Krishnamurti: Will 'organization' bring about order? Will organizing everything (rationally) bring about order?
Questioner: Sir, what do you call 'order'? My ( concept of ?) order is not yours!
Krishnamurti: What do you call 'order'?
Questioner: Order is regularity.
Krishnamurti: Wait, wait! To have everything go like ( a Swiss ?) clockwork? To repeat, repeat, so that the habits which you have cultivated are never disturbed, that you are never shaken again? The order of going to the office every day and coming back home. And therefore the avoidance of any form of disturbance, do you call that 'order'?
Questioner: To return to the original question: it seems true that our very desire to have order is itself disorderly.
Krishnamurti: I quite agree, Sir. That is what we are saying.
Questioner: It shows dissatisfaction with things the way they are.
Krishnamurti: Yes, Sir. That's just it!
Questioner: When thought stops there is order.
Krishnamurti: You see that is a (thoughtful ?) supposition. Look, don't you know what disorder is, in your own life? I am not talking of an entity who functions like 'clockwork', does everything automatically (standardised ?) , is never disturbed that's not order. But don't you know what disorder is in your life?
Krishnamurti: You dislike somebody, and at the same time say to yourself, "I mustn't dislike". Or you have contradictory desires, you want to fulfil yourself but nobody recognizes your work, so you are in conflict, despair, struggle. Don't you know all this? No? You must be marvellous 'saints'! (Laughter). So you know disorder, don't you? Let's be humble about this. Knowing (that inwardly you live in ?) disorder, what will you do? How will you bring about ( a holistic ?) order- in the sense of not being ( diametrally) opposed to the ongoing disorder. You follow? How will you bring about ( a harmonious ?) order in this chaos?
Questioner: By functioning naturally within the 'universal' laws ?
Krishnamurti: Which means what? The universal law ( of Love ?) says: Be kind, don't kill. But we kill even within our own species. There are these universal laws but apparently we can't (live up to them ?) .
Questioner: First one must see the pattern of one's own ( disorderly ?) existence and then drop it.
Krishnamurti: Is this just a ( guessing ?) game? This is (supposed to be a ?) serious dialogue . We all talk so easily!
Questioner: We return to the question of the 'impossible'. Is it possible?
Krishnamurti: Oh, don't let's go back to yesterday! We'll start anew. There is disorder. We know what disorder is and if I like to live in that kind of (holistically integrated ?) state where there is no problem, there is no saying: 'I must be orderly', because I like (thriving on the ongoing ?) disorder. I like to be aggressive, I like to be competitive, I like to say 'I'm bigger than you and my guru is much more tranquil than your guru.' (Laughter)
Questioner: I live in a world ( governed by ?) 'like and dislike' and I just have to get out of it.
Krishnamurti: Yes Sir. I don't know what you will do with it!
Questioner: We must look at what is going on in ourselves and see the (ongoing ?) contradictions ?
Krishnamurti: Yes Madam, that's what we've been saying. Must we begin all over again?
Questioner: We are aware of disorder. How can we move towards order?
Krishnamurti: How will you do it, Sir? That is 'your' challenge. Won't you say: what are the causes of this disorder? Work out very carefully what causes disorder in your life vanity, pride, and so on and as it is suggested, 'step out' of it! Will you?
Questioner: We can't just 'step out( of it.
Krishnamurti: Of course not but that is what has been suggested: to 'step out' of it. So, Sirs, what will you do! You're going to leave here in four or five days, and you have this ( huge unsolved ?) problem. Society is in disorder and you are in disorder; and you know the causes of this disorder. That's fairly clear. And what will you do? Go back and carry on?
Questioner: One cannot do anything, but there is quite a different state: of not knowing. In that state there is an (insightful ?) seeing, one 'sees'.
Krishnamurti: Yes Madam, I understand that, but that doesn't solve the problem if I don't know how to look.
Questioner: In the state of not-knowing, in that stillness it may happen.
Krishnamurti: But I'm not in that state! I'm living in disorder! Here is an actual state. What am I to do?
Questioner: We don't know the answer, therefore do nothing, there is no way out. Just live from moment to moment.
Krishnamurti: Is this the way you would answer if you were seriously ill, were in pain? Then you would (try to) do something, wouldn't you? Look Sirs, our difficulty is that if we accept disorder as most of us do and live (pretty comfortably installed ?) in that disorder, there is no ( major) problem, there is no (need for a ?) way out. But to me, that doesn't mean anything! I want to find out. I want to live differently I'm not saying you should. I want to live without any disorder in my being, because disorder means unhappiness, misery, confusion, lack of insight and I don't want to live that way. I must find out, I'm curious, I want to go beyond the limits, I'm not satisfied by phrases: 'If I do this, I will get that', 'You should', 'You must not' all this means nothing to me, this is too childish, too immature. So I say to myself: `What am I to do? Is there anything that can be done at all? Because I realize that any action on my part will breed disorder. So I must find a way of acting with equal energy, with equal vitality, with an equal intensity to the energy which has created disorder. I must find out a way of living entirely differently from this. If there is no way, I may just as well commit suicide which most of us do, uncons- ciously not physically. We say, "It is impossible" and withdraw. I don't want to do that. I realize very clearly what causes disorder. The disorder is caused by contradictory desires, by resistance and acceptance, and so on. My eyes are very clear now, because I have watched this. I see everything as it is, and not as it should be; I'm not interested in that. I see exactly what is happening, in me and in society. (Pause) You are waiting..?
Sirs, when you look at the stars of an evening, how do you look? Out of a disordered mind? Or, do you merely 'look'. And to look, you must have a 'full heart' and a 'full mind', not a chattering mind. A full mind is a 'silent' mind and only a heart that is full can see order and the beauty of that (Universal) Order.
Questioner: So perhaps we can discover that man is part of Nature.
Krishnamurti: We have answered this question, Sir. We are part of nature; that is of the animals. They are very aggressive in order to protect themselves, but not towards their own species. Sir, may I suggest something (for homework ?) . Perhaps you will go out for a walk this afternoon, or this evening; or if you are alone in your room, spend a little time over it; find out what it means "to look with a full mind and a full heart", with a mind that is full, and therefore very quiet, like a full, rich, river, with its great volume and depth of water behind it. Find out! And perhaps you will find out how to answer how to be out of disorder.
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5TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 (reader friendly edited)
INNER CONFUSION AND THE SEED OF TRUTH
Krishnamurti: There are three more discussions left. What do you think it would be worthwhile to explore?
Questioner: The first question you asked me when we met thirty years ago was: 'What is it you are seeking?'
Krishnamurti: I would like to put the question the other way round, that is: 'Why do we seek at all?' not 'What are we seeking?' I think these two questions are closely related don't you? Why should I 'seek' ( psychologically ?) anything at all ?
Questioner: Because we are unhappy ?
Krishnamurti: Please, Sirs, these two questions are quite important, if you go into them. What is it we are all seeking and why should we seek at all? Perhaps in answering 'what' you are seeking, you might answer also the other (deeper) question, 'why' should one seek (psychologically ?) at all?
Questioner: A state of everlasting bliss.
Krishnamurti: Can bliss be everlasting? Those two words 'everlasting' and 'bliss' may not go together. Is that what you are seeking, everlasting bliss? Won't you get rather bored with that 'everlasting bliss'? Or is 'bliss' something that you cannot seek? Happiness is after all a by-product (of an integrated creative life ?) , something that comes.
Questioner (1): It may be, to start with.
Questioner (2): It may he an escape.
Krishnamurti: I am asking you: what is it that 'you' are seeking you, not somebody else?
Q (1) : Maybe we all experience that there is 'something' within us which is not shaped by our surroundings, which asks us to go forward.
Q(2) : Unconsciously, we are seeking something beyond (the horizon ) , we don't realize it, but we may seek it ( indirectly ?) through ( earning tons of ?) money, and so on.
Krishnamurti: Sir, wouldn't you take a minute or two (of quality time ?) to find out? What it is that each one of us is really seeking? So please be silent, give two minutes to find out. ( Long Pause)
Questioner: ( Deep down ?) I am seeking inner peace.
Krishnamurti: You are seeking inner peace are you?
Questioner: Some people do.
Krishnamurti: Ah! Don't bother about what 'some people' do! You know, there is a tremendous lot implied in that question:
Questioner: I understand what you have said, that this way of seeking is to search for something we have already known. But isn't there another way of seeking and finding, without the process of recognition coming into being?
Krishnamurti: It gets a little complex, doesn't it? Let's begin 'simply' (back to square one ?). What is it each one of us is seeking? Do please stick to it (without getting bored ?) .
Questioner: One is seeking what one needs.
Krishnamurti: What does one need? Clothes, food, shelter, (plus) comfort both physical and psychological security, both outwardly and inwardly, (plus) a sense of (inner) certainty, to be free from the fear (of death ?) and so on. Would you call that 'searching'?
Questioner (1): That is not searching, that is 'seeking'.
Questioner (2): A scientist, in his research, may not know what it is he wants to discover, but he has a certain (intuitive ?) feeling, in the same way, perhaps most of us feel there is something intangible we must find, which can't be put into words.
Questioner (3): We are seeking Truth.
Krishnamurti: How do you know it when you find it? How can you say, 'This is Truth'?
Questioner: Because it gives one a ( wholesome ?) sense of pleasure and security.
Krishnamurti: So Truth gives you security, pleasure, satisfaction, certainty does it? That is what 'you' think truth should give you. But it may give us a kick in the pants!
Questioner: I think we are seeking a larger area of comprehension, something beyond the limitations of the horizon which we have. We seek to eliminate such limitations.
Krishnamurti: It is suggested that we are limited and that most of us are seeking to 'break down' (or break through ?) this 'limitation' and go beyond. May I explore this a little bit in words?
Questioner: Sir, how will the 'exploration' that you are going to do be different from 'seeking'?
Krishnamurti: Let's put it this way: there are moments of total self-forgetfulness, total absence of the 'me' and 'mine', of my worries and my loneliness', where one's 'self' -(consciousness' ?) is not active. There are those moments of inner clarity with a deep sense of freedom - maybe that is what one is ( subliminally) seeking.
Questioner: Isn't that also 'knowing' what you are after?
Krishnamurti: That may be so, Sir. But can you 'put your finger' on it and say, 'This is what I am seeking'? You can't, can you? ( Our everyday ) life is much too complex. I mean, if you say, 'This is what I want out of it' you would pick up something very small, wouldn't you?
Questioner: I have been worried about establishing real communion with my wife. For the time being I am still seeking that...
Krishnamurti: Look, there is the whole complex, social, economic relationship between man and man in order to produce clothes, food and shelter for each other . Then there is this vast field of our psychological (battle field ?) with all its contradictions, with occasional flashes of joy, ( but more commonly with ?) a (deep) feeling of our own loneliness, emptiness, of not being loved, and ( the hope ?) of (finding ) love. And also we want an inner peace that is beyond understanding. We also want to find out what happens after death, or what it means to die, and why one is so everlastingly afraid of it. Also one wants to find out if there is anything permanent, 'timeless'. And if one can go beyond the 'known', one wants to know if there is such a thing as Truth, God, Bliss, an (Universal?) Law (& Order ?) which will operate right through our life without any ( interfering ?) action on one's part, if there is (deep down in us ?) something 'sacred', which is not the invention of man. This is the whole complex (challenge) of our existence. And how can I say, out of this vast field 'I want that'? 'I want health', 'I want to feel close to my wife', 'I want to appreciate (or enjoy ?) the beauty of nature, of relationship' and so on. Out of all this am I going to choose a little bit and say 'This is what I want' ?
Questioner: I understand all this, but is there a 'search' without a motive?
Krishnamurti: Sir, do see the ( inwardness of this ?) first question, which is: there is this vast field of Existence, of different dimensions, different levels, different nuances, different feelings, different states (of consciousness) and being caught in all this ( self-centred) activity of hope, despair, pain, anxiety, peace, hate, love and jealousy, can I say, out of all that, 'I want one blade of grass, one petal of this vast flowering beauty of life'? Is it ( holistically ?) 'logical' to say that? That way we would approach the problem entirely wrongly (and getting totally stuck ?) . I don't know if you follow what I mean?
Questioner: We are seeking the 'excitement' (the 'thrill' ?) of life.
Krishnamurti: My God! Must you seek it? It's there!
Questioner: There is one thing that's forgotten in all this seeking, in this vast terrain: that is 'oneself'.
Krishnamurti: That is what I am coming to, Sir. The 'oneself' is (inwardly encompassing all ?) this terrain. Do look at it please, take time, have a little patience. There is this vast field ( of human consciousness ?) I am living in, the contradictions, the demand for ( $$$ & personal ?) fulfilment the 'painters', the 'scientists', the politicians it's there. And that vast expanse is (subliminally unfolded in ?) 'me' ( in 'my consciousness' ?) right?
Questioner: This searching is the very movement of life.
Krishnamurti: Madame, you are not even listening. All this is ( unfolded in ?) 'me' right? This whole field is brought about through 'me' ( through our collective consciousness ?) , and I (conveniently ?) pick out one part that pleases me most, which will give me the greatest comfort - call it Truth, call it Happiness, call it Inner Peace, call it whatever you like. Do I see how ( holistically ?) 'absurd' that is ?
Questioner: By 'seeking', you mean that we are looking for what we've already found ?
Krishnamurti: No, it is not like that. Do look first at how absurd (holistically imature ?) it (my searching) has become when I say, 'I am seeking truth', or 'I am seeking peace', 'I want harmony', 'I want to find God', when all this vast field is extended in front of me right? And I 'am' (my consciousness is ?) that field no?
Questioner: I don't understand when you say "I 'am' that field".
Krishnamurti: Aren't you (inwardly the expression of ?) that field? At one moment I am (feeling) peaceful, the next moment angry, then I want happiness, I want to fulfil myself , I want to express myself, I compete with others, I am aggressive, I am brutal, and (on weekends ?) I want (to find) God - all that is 'me' no? And when I say, 'I am seeking (only something of all this field ?) , that becomes rather absurd, doesn't it? Seeking something out of this vast field which will give me complete happiness, complete safety, complete freedom. So my petty mind (collective ?) , which has created this terrible mess, says 'I want just the ('personally rewarding' package ?) ' no?
Questioner: If a man sees very clearly he will not seek.
Krishnamurti: Therefore don't start with the idea of 'seeking'! First (meditatively ?) acknowledge to yourselves with real humility, that we are confused. And if I really, truly, with all my 'mind' (heart and brain ?) feel that I am terribly confused what do I do? I don't (have to ?) go and elect (the less worse of two ?) politicians, I don't (have to ?) go to church to find out, I don't (have to ?) ask a (psy? ) guru to tell me what to do, because out of my confusion, I will choose a guru who will be equally confused, no? So what do I do when I am confused? I don't 'seek', right?
Questioner: The question for me is, to die to all this ( inner) confusion, to die to my (egotistic ?) 'I'.
Krishnamurti: Sir, do please just 'listen' ( non-personally ?) for two minutes, don't 'accept' it, but just 'listen'. There is this field, and (consciousness-wise ?) I 'am' part of that field, I ( along with billions of other self-centred minds ?) have created this 'field'. I know ( or I am becoming aware of ?) the causes of this confusion, I know the contradiction writing a book (or a blog ?) and inwardly 'hating (or just disliking ?) the world' - which shows me that I am literally confused. I admit (the inner truth of ?) it to myself in all humility, I don't say 'Part of me is not confused, but there is a higher part of me which is not' - the (concept of ) 'Atman' or the 'Soul' created by man out of his confusion, is also the result of that ( generalised ) confusion right? So I am ( stuck being inwardly ?) confused and out of that confusion any action will produce further ( upgraded ?) confusion. When I go to the guru, the best(est) of them and say, 'Please enlighten me', I will accept his (guidance) , because out of confusion I don't know what to do; he will tell me what to do. And I get more and more confused. So I see any 'reaching out' of this confusion is to further the (ongoing ?) confusion. Is that clear? This is (pretty ?) 'logical', sane, rational! So I won't 'seek'. And what I can do now is to (try to experientially ?) find out 'why' I am confused right?
Questioner: Why can't you ( meditatively ?) stay in that confusion and 'wait and see'?
Krishnamurti: That is what I am proposing, Madame. When I ( fully acknowledge that I ?) am confused, I stay with the confusion. Because if I 'reach out', it is an escape. If I don't know what to do, I don't go round trying all kinds of things, that's a waste of time; but let me (sit down and ?) 'look'. I literally 'stay' in that confusion. Can you? Do you ( experientially ?) know what it means to 'stay with confusion'? Do you?
Krishnamurti: What does it mean, Sir?
Questioner: When you don't know what is what.
Krishnamurti: Oh Lord! No.
Questioner: ( Experience a ?) state of inner conflict ?
Krishnamurti: Wait, one moment. My brother, or my son, is dead, gone. Can you remain with that 'fact' consciously, not in a state of shock, but remain with it? See what happens inside you if you remain quietly with the fact?
Questioner: Generally we can't, we are frightened of our confusion.
Krishnamurti: Sir, don't (try to ?) 'do' anything. Here is a great 'fact' - do look at it, Sir : we are (inwardly) confused, and any (re)action (born ?) out of that confusion will only bring further confusion. That's a fact. That's a reality. Remain with that 'reality', just 'look' ( contemplate the truth of ?) at that reality. ( And eventually... ?) find out what happens. All this (unwillingness ?) indicates, doesn't it, that you have never 'remained' (inwardly ) with, something you don't like (to face ?) . You like to hold on to (the continuity of ?) something that you like. To hear this word 'confusion' is rather terrifying ( destabilising ?) and we don't like it. The word awakens an ( unpleasant ?) image, and you don't like (to buy ?) the idea that you are (inwardly) confused, it is most humiliating. To 'you' who have money, position, knowledge, who are a professor, or doctor, to say 'My God, I am confused' is a horrible (uncool ?) idea!
Questioner: You said before that a confused person should stop seeking and now you start seeking again in another (non-dualistic ?) way.
Krishnamurti: Would you like to know what I really think? Would you? ( Personally ) I don't 'seek' at all. Full stop. Anything!
Questioner: Then in that case you don't (really) care whether anybody understands you or not?
Krishnamurti: What am I to do? I point it out and if you say 'Well I can't understand you', I try to explain it differently ; and if you still can't understand, I go into it again, and... that is the end of it.
Questioner: Then I come back to what I suggested. There is no way out (of that inner confusion ?) since anything I 'do' is (holistically ?) wrong ! (laughter)
Krishnamurti: Look, Sir, there is this (inwardly true ?) 'fact': I am confused. There is a (responsible ?) awareness of that confusion and to remain with it, is to 'be silent' with that confusion. (Long 'silent' pause...)
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6TH K PUBLIC DIALOGUE SAANEN 1968 (reader friendly edited)
THE PSYCHOLOGICALLY INTEGRATED ACTION
Krishnamurti : One sees the limitations of our human behaviour and human understanding; but one may not know where the limitation lies. So how are we going to find out if there is an action that in its very activity does not bring about its own contradiction? You can see what is happening in the (outer) world: there is the whole communal, social relationship between man and man and one observes there is fragmentation. And in one's (inner) life, as a human being, there is this battle of opposing desires going on. Being aware of this, observing this, what action should one take? Is there a (psychologically integrated ?) action that will be true under all circumstances and not bring about confusion, destruction, enmity? If that question is fairly clear, how would you set about finding out? How would you explore?
Questioner : What kind of intelligence can you use?
Krishnamurti: Can one put aside (on hold ?) all the accumulated memories and act differently? Here a problem is put to you, it is a challenge to you. You can't say 'Well, I am sorry, I am not intelligent (enough) but 'I wish I could get rid of my past memories and begin all over again'... That's not (an experientially acceptable ?) answer.
Questioner: If there is a (perceptive ?) precipice between us and the problem, how can we reach over it?
Krishnamurti: Yes, Sir. I understand that. First (try to ?) see the problem very clearly, don't (project) another (mental) image and say 'If I could do this, that would happen'. This is the fact: we live in a world of (psychological ?) fragmentation , each one antagonistically opposing the other; each one has his own particular form of aggressivity, each one has his own fears, each one is trying to live up to an image of what (our role in) society should be, what individuals must be. Now, you may see (or not) this problem ( of inner & outer psychological fragmentation) . If you don't see it then we can't discuss the issue (forever ?) . But if one sees the ( gravity of this ?) problem one must naturally ask this question, it seems to me. So is there a (psychologically integrated ?) action which is not fragmentary, which doesn't breed more confusion, more misery for oneself and for the neighbour?
Questioner: This would be the action of 'real love'.
Krishnamurti: But (supposing) I don't know what this 'real love' is! How do you answer this challenge? Take (some quality ?) time to find out how you will answer this. Knowing that all the professionals political, economic, religious are always thinking in terms of fragments (they may talk about love, universal brotherhood and so on, but actually these are just (convenient ?) formulas, not realities in their life; you cannot depend upon them. So there is a challenge which 'you' have to answer (personally ?) .
Questioner: Sir, if you really look without ( the mentality of ?) an 'observer', the images will fall away and proper action will be indicated.
Krishnamurti: That's not an answer is it? 'If' the images go away, the right action will come. But the ( sticky 'self- ?) image' doesn't go! What am I to do, confronted with this issue? May I help a little?
Questioner: First, I have to see the question very clearly.
Krishnamurti: Don't we? And when you are driven into a corner to answer it, you have no ( ready made ?) answer, you say 'Well if you do this, that will happen'. The problem is clear, isn't it? Now, what am I to do?
Questioner: Deny all that ( psycho-mentality of fragmentation ?) and move away ?
Krishnamurti: To 'deny' what does that mean? I deny all this, but I have created all this! As a ( 'generic' ?) human being, I have produced this chaos in the world. When the house is (already ?) burning you don't talk about the colour of the person who started the fire, what kind of hose you are going to use, what kind of water it is. To me it is an urgent problem not a superficial problem but as vital as the demands of sex, of hunger, to get rid of pain. But here there is no 'doctor', no ( Nobel Prize ?) 'philosopher' who is going to answer us. So the first thing I have to do is to explore how to 'answer it rightly'?
Again, I don't judge it, I am just observing the phenomena that are going on outwardly and inwardly. And I see there is no (authentic ?) morality at all in society. All the social morality is based on 'respectability' - hold on to what you have, be competitive, seek status, position, power; all that has become accepted as highly respectable and moral. I see that I can't be (inwardly ?) moral along those lines. Therefore there may be a different kind of morality. To find out a different kind of morality I must completely deny ( the psychological implications of ?) this social morality - wanting to become somebody, with the (valuable ?) little knowledge that we have, or wanting to sit 'next to God' specially at his right hand! So can I actually deny this whole ( socially induced ?) structure of pride, so that my mind is very clear inwardly ?
So I am now ( in the position of ?) learning about myself and that 'learning' must be immediate. I must see (the truth about ?) all this immediately. When the house is burning you can't say 'I will lay a pipe', you must find water immediately and act. And our ( Human Consciousness ?) 'house' is burning. So can I see the truth of all this instantly and therefore act instantly? To (inwardly) have no (personal ?) enmity, no grudge, no aggressivity, and therefore to have a mind that is highly sensitive and intelligent, a mind which in the very freeing of itself from all these contradictory fragments has become highly sensitive and intelligent. And it is this (quality of compassionate ?) 'intelligence' that is going to act (holistically ?).
Intelligence is something different from (a brilliant ) intellectual capacity. You can't go to college to learn (mechanically ?) about this 'intelligence' by passing degrees and writing ( test) papers. This intelligence comes into (one's inner ?) being, not through time, but through a direct (non-verbal ?) perception, observation, seeing actually 'what is (going on ?) ' both outwardly and inwardly; how the inner (fragmentation is ?) creating the outer. It is fairly obvious how the inner creates the outer: the inward ideology of any "-ism" communicated to others through various kinds of propaganda, through oppression, through all the 'horrors' that occur.
Krishnamurti: I am not at all sure !
Questioner: Sir, there is a 'practical' problem. We are listening to you with our ( self-locked ?) minds. Occasionally we are watching what happens, but the (self-centred ?) mind keeps cutting in. There may be a moment of (clear) perception, but then we are back to where we were (to the self-centred 'home position' ?) .
Krishnamurti: I understand. The question is very simple. I see for a moment very clearly and at that moment I may act (accordingly) , but (on the long run ?) the old habits, the old traditions come back and I'm feeling lost. Are you 'lost' (in confusion ?) when you see something dangerous when you see very clearly a bottle marked 'poison'? ( Being aware of the potential danger ?) even in the dark you are very careful, aren't you?
Questioner: Yes, this is the problem.
Krishnamurti: Ah! Don't make it into a 'problem'! We have already got so many (material ?) problems, don't add another one to them.
Questioner: Is it a question of the (mind's ?) 'eyes' being there already, or do they have to be developed in ( the practice of ?) meditation?
Krishnamurti: What do you think? Don't answer, take time. Are the ( mind's ?) eyes there already to see very clearly? Or are those (inwardly perceptive ) 'eyes' to be cultivated? What do you think?
Questioner: Maybe they are (inwardly ) 'blindfolded' ?
Krishnamurti: The same thing. Will you gradually evolve so that you see very clearly? Is there (enough ?) time (left ?) to evolve? With the atom ( A&H ?) bomb, with the ( ticking 'time-bomb' of the ?) exploding world population, with the threats of war, the hatred, the jealousies, the personal ambitions, you know all that is there time? Would you say when the house is burning, 'Through time I must cultivate the ( bestest ?) technique of putting the fire out'?
Questioner: Sir, when one's action springs from intelligence, does the word 'action' imply a (driving) force of conduct, or does each step in such action occur independent of every previous step? In each step is one acting from intelligence independent of prior steps?
Krishnamurti: Is this intelligence separate from the past activity, from the past limitation, from the past confusion? Well Sir, you will answer this question when you grapple with the (time ?) problem, which is: is there time now, with the population increasing, exploding, which is leading to more aggression? I don't know if you realize that. The more crowded the cities and the countries become, the more aggressivity there is going to be, more destruction, more revolts; and there is the threat of war. Each country is preparing instruments of incalculable destruction against the other; and ( at the same time ?) there is (the ongoing inner?) confusion, there is misery, sorrow in our hearts. Is there time (left ) to say 'I will spend a few days to cultivate the capacity to see (the gravity of all this ?) What kind of ( upper middle class ?) people are we? When the house is burning we say 'Let it burn, I'll take time'.
Questioner: It seems to me this would be acting out of a ( social ?) 'motive'.
Krishnamurti: I took that as an (in class ?) example. Don't run the 'motive' (routine ?) to death. What we have said just now is very clear. Is there ( a lot of ) 'time' (left ?) ? Or, do you see ( the truth about these ?) things instantly and act instantly on what you see? I wish you would go into it (for homework ?) .
Questioner: Even to answer it now will take a little time.
Krishnamurti: Sir, please do listen. We say, 'I can't see very clearly, the ( psychologically loaded memory of the ?) past is much too powerful, therefore I must break it down slowly' and so you need time through which to cultivate (a quality of direct ?) perception. Do you see anything through time? Do you see clearly through the process of cultivation? Or do you see things instantly?
Questioner: Can we help other people to 'see' clearly?
Krishnamurti: Oh, lovely, lovely! When I don't see clearly myself, I want to help my neighbour to see clearly!
Questioner: Does this (intelligent ?) energy, which you talk about, come into being when the ( dissipation of our ?) energy which comes through contradiction ceases?
Krishnamurti: We have ( a lot of ?) energy (derived) through contradictions, through self-aggrandizement, egotistic activities there is endless ( dissipative ?) energy involved in that. And we are talking of a (quality of non-dissipative ?) energy which is not of that kind, which is of a different dimension. How does one come to it? Only when I see that this contradictory (fragmentary self-centeds ?) activity, which creates its own (strongly motivated ?) energy, is making a perfect mess of the world, outwardly and inwardly. I 'see' (the actual ?) truth that! And the very seeing of the wastage of that energy is ( triggering ?) the (awakening of the ?) 'other' (timeless ?) energy.
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